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Meg76 so sorry to hear that you are out and feeling really down. I totally understand as that's how I was feeling last week and DH and I went through a similar rollcoaster as we thought it was our month too. I know you don't want to hear this but I think its wise to take a month off after a stim cycle as your body is still recovering from all its been through. If you do have to take time off then look at it as an oppotunity to prepare your body and yourself for the next FET
Paula fingers crossed for you today
Electra welcome to the 2WW wish I was in Greece right now
For all the rest of the girls hope you have a great weekend
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Well ladies im out too.
Meg i know exactly how you are feeling right now x8. Somehow it just doesnt get any easier. I still bawl my eyes out when i get the call and ring DH. We go through this two week wait doing everything carefully "just in case" to be kicked in the guts like this at the end of it. Giving up is not an option for me so i will keep going but i cant help but think how much more of this can i take. Im so tired of living the last two week or so of every cycle being cautious with everything i do and putting my life on hold.
Sorry about the vent, just needed to let it out. Will be starting a stimulated cycle as soon as AF arrives which should be in a couple of days now that i will stop the drugs.
Best of luck to everyone else :crossfingers:
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I'm so sorry Paula :grouphug:
Sending you lots of big cyber hugs.
Janie xxx
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So sorry Paula hope that DH is treating you well and you take some time out this weekend to do somthing nice for yourself.:grouphug:
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Paula- I am so, so sorry to hear about your result. I simply cannot imagine going through this eight times. Your resilience is really admirable. Surely, your time has to be coming soon. What does your FS say about it? My thoughts and sympathy are with you. xxx
Terry- thank you for your thoughts and of course you are right. It's just that it has been a really long journey to even get this far and I hate the thought of effectively sitting on my hands for two months.
How are you feeling this week?
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electra & tubabe- Welcome!!
Meg76 , Paula, Terry- I'm totally with you girls. I'm really struggling at the moment too. I did another POAS this morning with a BFN. AF was due today, but hasn't arrived yet & BT is due tomorrow. I don't know how I will find the strength to keep going with all this. It is totally exhausting. :hug::hug::hug: to you all.
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Again to all the ladies that have wished me well,thank you soooo much. It means so much because it's coming from people who 'just know' what we've been through for the last couple of years.
I was having internet problems yesterday, and will respond properly later when we're home, but
meg - I got teary reading your post. I'm soo sorry honey, I never realised that this forum would move me as much as it has done - esp. with people I've never physically met, but plse draw strength from wherever you can, you're in my thoughts.
I know there are other ladies who've hearts have been broken, but my internet access is dodgy so I'll do personals later today. xx
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Morning Ladies,
No personals for me today but I hope you are all doing well and Good Luck those who have BT's coming up :goodluck:.
I had my 2nd beta yesterday and things are not going as well as they should be. I am totally devastated and am really scared :cry:..
My 1st beta was at 153 which was considered really high and good for a day early BT, however, my 2nd beta from yesterday was only 415. The nurses told me that they would like to have seen it at at least 600. My progesterone is still the same at around 87 which is apparently a good thing as it is supporting the pregnancy.
Because of the low numbers I have to have another beta on Monday which I am really nervous about as I am scared that it will show the numbers either dropping or not rising fast enough.
This weekend is going to be torture... I have until Monday after 2:00pm to worry about this :cry:..
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Hello Ladies,
I haven't posted for a few days but I have been lurking trying to keep up with everyone's progress:
Londonmiss and Airline congrats to both of you on the long awaited BFP!!! Wishing you both a happy and healthy 9 months ahead!
Londonmiss thanks for your insider tips on what you did differently this month to achieve your successful result. I noticed you didn't give up on your 4 glasses of wine a week! I don't mind a glass of wine here or there, but during my IVF cycle I didn't have a drop for 43 days straight! It was pretty hard at the beginning, and since AF has reared her ugly head I have made up for lost time ! The one thing I couldn't give up was my coffee. I did reduce from 2-3 cups of day to 1 cup and I did divulge in more chocolate. I really wonder if coffee and alcohol really impact getting pg?
Coral ~ Sorry to hear that your beta levels are not where you would like them to be :hug:. FX your beta levels increase by Monday! Try not too stress too much over the weekend.
Meg76 ~ sorry to hear about your BFN. I am also in the same position as you. Looks like we will not be able to do another stim cycle until Jan 2010. If my next period arrives by the 25th Nov then they will be able to fit another stim cycle. This is highly unlikely as my period is 28 days and given it arrived on the 2nd of Nov the earliest it will arrive is the 29th of Nov. So we have decided to use this time to take a break and give natural conception a go :) We can start fresh in 2010 and hope that this is our year!
electra and tubabe ~ welcome to the TWW !
Paula ~ sorry to hear about your BFN :hug: I trully admire your strength and determination after so many attempts. GL with your stim cycle and really :pray: that its lucky number 9 for you!
Leabie ~ sorry to hear that this wasn't your month :hug: Sounds like you have put the last cycle behind you and now focusing on your IUI cycle. :pray: this is the one!
hello and GL to everyone else I might have missed!
AFM ~ As I mentioned earlier the FS wanted me to have a month break after I start the next stim cycle, so with Christmas looming we will need to wait for Jan next year. I was a little disappointed as we have developed a bit of momentum from the first IVF cycle and we just wanted to keep going! Probably a good thing in hindsight as I can relax during the next two months and be ready to tackle another stim cycle in the new year.
I will pop my head in from time to time to see how everyone is progressing in the TWW. Take care.
Mel
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Hi All - Just dropping into say high. I've been lurking but not posting as I'm down south at my dad's, trying to chill out. Nothing to exciting for me at the moment. 7DPT and my boobies are a little tender and i'm getting my normal cramping, stiches and some decent pressure down there.....don't know what any of it means though. I've had this for the past two cycles so I sit on the post as to whether they are genuine symptoms (I'm on Progynova and Prog Pessaries which I believe don't give major symptoms). Of course I'll do my normal thing and POAS in the next few days which will most likely give me a faint BFP but then final BT is always negative!! Damn TWW.....I think I'm relaxed but at the the same time, 24/7 I'm thinking about whether this is working or not!!!!
GL TO EVERYONE IN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! Starbright is your blood test today.....Best of Luck to you?
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Coral73 stay positive I hope it all goes to plan on Monday something is definately happening maybe its just a little slow :pray:
Star-bright good luck with your results today I hope you get a BFP
Meg76 glad to hear that you are feeling a little better...its truly amazing how resilent we all become through this porcess and how we always manage to find the strength to do one more...I think Paula should be a true inspiration for us all.
AFM waiting for Wednesday's scan to find out when my next tranfer date will be. DH is working at the races so I have all day to do nothng but relax
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Hello all. Sorry for the lack of personals and a me post...
Coral - I'm in the same boat as you. I did my blood test this morning, and she rang me up and said "it's not quite what we'd like" and then said it was fine - good grief, how inconsistent can you get. 13dpiui I had a beta of 83, and 15dpiui its 214, and she said they would have hoped it would be 240. So it's not too far off in my mind, and she says not to panic but now I need another blood test on Wednesday.
Like you, I fail to see how I can do anything other than worry until then. I was so confident. I've even checked when Mum's holiday is (she works in a school in the uK) so that she could come over and help me when we have a sproglet, and I feel like it's all going to come crashing down around my ears again. I'm devastated despite her 'soothing nursey voice'.
I have an early dinner tonight for my birthday and DH gets back tonight (he's flying right now) so I think I need to have a cool bath and have a blubb and get it out of my system otherwise I shall be a misery guts tonight.
It's all just &^%$ing unfair some days.
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Hi LondonMiss,
It's a terrible feeling isn't it :hug:? I am so stressed out...
I really do think that your levels are ok though.... a beta result is supopsed to double every 24-48hrs... yours seems to have done that and more! I am not sure why your nurse is worried as you have clearly doubled in 48hrs????
I am at least 200 low on mine which is a real cause for concern...eg
Monday, 2 was at 153
Wednesday, 4 should be at least 306
Friday, 6 should be at least 612 (I was only 415).
You should google info on beta and it will advise about the doubling every 24-48hrs... I think that you will be ok :).
I am petrified of the BT on Monday...
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Hi Girls,
Just a quick one from me as I'm very tired and crampy. As well as emotional. As expected, AF arrived today and surprise, surprsie, BT was negative. I had an awful time waiting for the BT this morning. A couple was there showing off their baby. Normally I could cope, but not today. I walked in the room with the nurse and burst into tears. She was lovely.
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Paula and starbright - girls I'm so sorry. Paula, your post like Meg76's moved me. I hope that you both get the bundle of joy you deserve soon. I'll keep an eye on how you go.
Coral and LM...I'm sorry it's not been plain sailing. Fingers crossed for your results to be sky high.
My clinic told me that they're happy with 80-100, and I'm too contact my FS to make scan appointment. My BT was 86, so I went to my GP and got a BT done, which I'll get the results from late Monday afternoon. After last time's slow hcg, and then fall of hcg, I'm praying for a rapid rise like you girls.
To all the girls who've joined...these girls will be your emotional crutch in your hours of need. I hope all your visit's to this thread short. x
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Hello beautiful girls,
Starbright- Ah crap, another BFN. I totally hear you regarding the baby in the waiting room. I had a similar experience a little while ago when I was waiting to see the FS. I wasn't feeling great because we were all set to start our first cycle but he decided to do a scan to make sure everything was ok. He found a cyst that had grown really quickly that he didn't like the look of and sent me for tests to see if it could be cancerous. So, you can imagine how fabulous I was feeling. While I was waiting a couple came through the door in a delirious haze with the new baby to show the FS. I am usually pretty good at controlling my reactions but I just glared at them. I couldn't believe the insensitivity or how short their memories were. FS was busy so they sat in a packed waiting room oohing and aahing over their baby. This went on for about 10 minutes before one of the nurses came out and obviously realised how inappropriate it was and mercifully ushered them into another room. Obviously you want everyone to have success but there is a time and a place, you know?
airline- thank you for your lovely and kind words, you are such a sweetheart. You are right about the bonds we form in this strange situation, it is quite amazing.
Coral- Oh, sweetie that is horrible news. I never quite get my head around the cruelty of this situation. It just seems so unfair that you could be so on top of the world one minute and crash back down to devastation the next. I cannot imagine how excruciating the next couple of days are going to be. I thought I had it bad having a stats exam on Monday afternoon! (Sorry- that was a very lame attempt at humour...) I will be thinking of you and wishing and praying (I seem to have found God in the last couple of weeks!) and hoping with all my might that all is back on track on Monday. xxx:pray::pray::pray:
Melttc- I understand what you mean about having some momentum- that is exactly how I feel. To feel like I was finally getting somewhere and to now stop and wait absolutely sucks. Hopefully by some miracle you have a short cycle and get that last one in before 2009 is out.
Baby2bee- It all sounds really positive at your end. I hope you find a way to get through the next week in a relatively relaxed manner and we get some good news from you next weekend. xx
Terry- Thanks for your kind words- I am feeling better again today- I think I really had to experience my grief so I can work my way through it, but I really don't want to be where I was on Thursday again any time soon. How are you??
LondonMiss- I am refusing to believe that this is going to go wrong for you. If we will it hard enough, we can fix it, right?! And Happy Birthday my darling! What is it, 25?? I bet you can't wait to see that lovely DH. Thinking of you. xx
Sorry about writing War and Peace ladies- just wanted to check in with you all. Hi to anyone I've missed. xx
