LTTTC Two Week Wait - September/October 08

Good luck to everyone - hope the TWW flies by and ends with a bunch of BFPs

Farmgirl - firstly, I hope AF stays away! but if she arrives, remember you're still so young...have you considered taking a break for a good couple of months - letting you & DH enjoy life without thinking of all this IVF TTC stuff...and then re-starting when you have had a mental break, time to regroup and save some $. Also, you never know when the next medical break through will come. A few years ago blasties weren't even possible. I'm sure they are making improvements on a monthly basis (or I hope so!). The break is just an idea - maybe worth considering ...

:hug: Farmgirl , I hope that you are wrong and your body is playing tricks on you. I'm so sorry that your feeling so down!! I've still got my fingers crossed for you

:hug: Luckystrike, I'm sorry your feeling doubtful too. Isn't this 2ww an awful business. I'm still crossing my fingers for you as well, you never know.

I know how your feeling though. My bb have stopped hurting, and I'm starting to get pimples which is what happens every month in the week before AF arrives :( I also had to go for a blood test on Friday, and my levels were too low so I had to race back to the clinic after results in the afternoon to get 2 x Pregnyl 1,500 shots. I had to have the first shot Friday night, and then the other on Monday night. This has also dropped my bt back to Monday 29/6 so I've dropped the number of testers for the 26th. That's the main reason for me now thinking I'm out. I hate this, I have so many friends at the moment that are getting pregnant/having babies, and I'm really struggling to remain cheerful and upbeat for them, because I don't want to lose friends because of this (and at the end of the day, I know they haven't set out to get pregnant because they know I can't) but it's just so hard right now. When I was waiting at my clinic for my blood test on Friday morning, I was chatting to a girl who was 7 weeks pregnant. This came from her 19th ICSI cycle, and her and her DH had decided it was the second last try. It's nice to hear stories like that, but honestly thinking about it, I'm not sure I could last that long.

Sorry for the long post. I hope everyone else is going along well. :grouphug:

Welcome to the newbies, :crossfingers: your 2ww goes fast!!

Alloy, sorry to hear that you too are doubtful this cycle.
This truly does sux....:hug:
As for the women who did 19 icsi cycles my mouth almost hit the ground!!!
Financally and emotionally this would be a killer.

AFM my bb are not hurting as much this morning :wall: but still had a stitch like feeling yesterday so who knows.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend ladies and I hope that this continues to be a AF Free Zone!!
STAY AWAY AF WE DON'T WANT YOU!!!!!

Hi Everyone and hope you are all having a lovely weekend, and trying not to stress too much. Welcome also to Meo - no. 5 for the 26/9 - there sure are a lot of us waiting for this TWW to be over.

I too am feeling quite crappy today - a bit hormonal and emotional and feeling quite a bit of pain mainly down my left side - bit like a stitch. The AF cramps are coming and going, but not too strong - so fingers crossed hey :)

To Alloy, Farmgirl and Luckystrike - keep on smiling and try try to remain positive, although I know first hand how easy that is to say.

Nicole - I hope that the pains you were having have subsided and that you are feeling OK today.

Lets all hang in there and remember the BFP's will happen.

I do agree this is a AF free thread - so STAY AWAY AF, WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU HERE.

Sending you all a big :hug:

Hi girls,

Luckystrike, I hope feeling ok. It's hard not to read into the changes in our bodies and still remain positive. If AF hasn't started, keep that hope.

Welcome Meo and JodieC65. Hope you girls have been feeling well and you have some happy news by the end of the week. There's so many of us testing on the 26th.

Buliej, good luck for your epu tomorrow. Hope you get lots of eggs and fertilisation rate is high.

Farmgirl, it must be so hard for you socially to be isolated where you live. I can't imagine what sort of pressure you're feeling because of that. I'm so hoping you get your bfp soon, I'd imagine more doors would open in terms of meeting people. Stay strong for the rest of the week. The changes in our bodies, the ones we always read as meaning AF is on its way, may be hormonal changes for good reasons. My fingers and toes are all crossed for you. :pray:

Alloy, glad they were able to catch the lower hormone levels and give you pregnyl booster shots. Your preg BT would have been moved to allow the pregnyl to be out of your system by BT day because it can give a false positive result if you test too early. The woman you spoke to who did 19 cycles must have been an incredibly strong woman to keep going again and again.

AFM, I haven't had any more bleeds like the one last week. A little light spotting now and again but I'm not stressing about it... I guess I've come to the point where if this cycle doesn't work, I'm ok - we'll just go again. I felt really crappy the day of the bleed and while the nurse said it could mean anything - because everyone responds differently to the hormones and treatment - I guess I'm more relaxed about the result on Friday. It would be so awesome if it's worked, but if it doesn't, there are still options for us in doing another cycle with one of our frozen ones. We'll see if I'm still as relaxed about it all as we get closer to BT day!! I finish Crinone tomorrow but pessaries don't finish until Thursday morning. Apparently if AF will start it will be within a few days of finishing Crinone.. Not sure if the pessaries have any effect on AF coming or not.

Sorry for the ridiculously long post! Hope you all enjoy what's left of the weekend. :)

Hi Girls

Kaydee - Glad you are feeling better about the spotting. Atleast you have embies ready for a FET. I guess all I can say is dont rule anything out yet and hopefully AF will stay away and there will be a suprise BFP for you.

NicoleS keep strong, you seem to be going well so far, I have a good feeling about you this month!

Alloy sorry you are feeling bad as well. The only thing I would say to you though, is that if the clinic didnt think a pregnancy was possibe for you they wouldnt bother with the Pregnyl shots. You must still be in the race otherwise they wouldnt make you continue for nothing, and your BT was moved b/c the pregnal may give you a false positive if you test too early, so keep your chin up! Hoping you get your BFP this month.

AS for the lady being pregnant aftere 19 cycles, that is unbeleivable! I know definiteley we would give up before then. That is a long time and a lot of stress, a lot of 2WW's and not to mention a lot of money. Good on her for being strong enought to do it!

Farmgirl, sorry you are feeling crap too. This process is very draining emotionally and financially. The other day my DH also told me that he is willing to do 1 more stim cycle and then wants to stop and give up. He feels very dissapointed that our chances this month arent looking so good. Its been really hard on both of us, I pray that I am completeley wrong about all this and get a nice suprise on Thursday but I'm not holding my breath. Good luck for Thursday too, lets hope by some miracle we both get a happy suprise. I think I'll spend the day crying with delight if happens :)

Buliej good luck with EPU tomorrow, hope you get lots of good eggs.

Meo and JodieC65, I hope you are doing well!

AFM Its been a crazy few days. First the BB going back to normal, then the night sweating, well a couple nights ago I started noticing chunks of the crinione coming out of me with small amounts of blood through them. And then today .....the chunks had a lot of blood thru then (sorry TMI) Still no AF, but I have these red clots coming out of me. I called the nurses, just to see what they want me to do, and she was really nice. She said I should still continue with the crinone and I should rule myself out yet. Apparently some women get aggrivated from the crinone and it can cause what I was describing to her. She said it could be the start of AF or it could be crinone but I shouldn't write myself off yet. I told her I was not very positive b/c of the BB's going normal again, but she said that the meds make our bodies do strange things. Anyway This has not made me feel any more positive, but I guess while I dont have AF I am still technically in the running. I, like Kaydee have come to terms with the fact that most likeley I'll be getting a BFN this month, but will be going straight back into a stim cycle, so I guess I'll be moving on one way or another.

Sorry for the extra long msg today but I havent been on for a while, and also lost 2 posts yesterday, so I was determined to get something in today!

4 more sleeps until BT so lets just see what happens.

Happy Monday for tomorrow.

Hi all,

Thanks for all the warm wishes and lovely posts!

Luckystrike, I hope that the meds are making your body do strange things, and you have a surprise BFP at the end of this week

Farmgirl, I hope your feeling a little better. I am so sorry that you think your DH is ready to give up! I hope you are able to get across to him that this is so important to you. I'm so lucky that my DH is prepared to go with what I want, as I'm the one that seems to suffer the most. He's still convinced that we won't have too much trouble, so isn't too worried at this stage. If we get through the 4 embies we have left in the freezer, and have to look at another stim cycle, it might be a different story though (especially if he has to deal with me falling apart each time I get AF or get a BFN). Hopefully the meds are wreaking havoc with your body too, and you too get a BFP at the end of the week!!!

Kaydee, I'm glad your spotting has stopped, maybe it was an implantation bleed! It's good that you've prepared for a BFN though, I have too, and I think that's best because it's better to think that way and be surprised with a BFP, than to be expecting a BFP and get a BFN!!

Buliej, Good luck for EPU tomorrow!! I hope it's not too bad for you, and you get a decent amount of quality eggs :crossfingers:

Nicole, I vote to change the thread name too!! Hope your still feeling positive, and that that stitch feeling is a positive.

Jodie, I hope your cramps are a positive thing too, and your feeling ok today

Meo, Good luck for Friday!!

I'm feeling a lot better today. Luckystrike, I did start thinking about the pregnyl shots the other day, and agree 100% with you. If the clinic didn't think I had a chance, they wouldn't have bothered with the shots. I've still got my fingers crossed for a BFP, but at the same time I'm also prepared for a BFN. We've still got 4 frosties in the freezer, so that's a few goes of FET before we have to look at another stim cycle, which will make it a little easier.

:hello: to anyone I have missed

I hope this week goes quick, and we get a record number of BFP's after all the tests on Thursday and Friday :)

:)Good morning all,
Just reading back through the posts it seems that we all had an emotional or stressful weekend - well at least we are on the home strech now...

Alloy - glad that you got your shots and that you are feeling positive. :crossfingers: they are just want the little one needs to keep it snugg and growing. Bummer about the move of BT day, but hang in there.

Kaydee - it is amazing what the 'lovely' meds they put us on do to our physical and mental state. Last stim cycle I found that AF came when due, even while I was on the Crinone - about 2 days prior to BT day, while when doing FET and using the pessaries, AF does not come till after the BT and I stop using them - and then it takes 2-3 days to come..so I dont know, we all react differently! Glad that you have a positive outcome - i think it just get to that place where we have done all we can, and all we have left is to just wait and put in place the plan for the way forward.

LuckyStrike - i to am at the stage where the crinone starts 'exiting' the body - great stuff NOT. Just shows that it is a product designed by men in labcoats who have no thought for 'keeping things nice'! I'm glad that the nurses have said not to count yourself out...but know how hard it is to belive in it. Good luck and sending you lots of :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:.

Jodie - hope that the AF cramps have stoped. Maybe they were just the little one snuggling in :crossfingers:. Hope you are feeling better emotionally today :)

Nicole S - hope that you are still feeling good and in with a chance!

Buliej - good luck with the pick up and wishing you lots of embies that go onto blasts!

Meo - hope that you had a nice relaxing weekend and are feeling nice and positive.

AFM - thanks everyone for your kind words - it meant alot :grouphug:. For our first stim cycle AF came 2 days prior to test day, with spotting the day before (TMI), so I'm thinking today and tomorrow are make or break days... Had a big chat with DH and explained that not only am I upset at the fear of not having a family but at the isolation (but not from his family - that may have been a bit too much), and after sleeping on it he was far more understanding...so that was good.

Still no pg signs, but AF cramps have settled so who knows. My brain says it is a BFN but somewhere in my heart there is still hope - prob so I will still get upset when the nurse rings to give me the BT results...:wall:.

Anyway sending you all positive thoughts that AF will stay away. Hello to anyone I missed.
FG

hi everyone, sorry to hear a few of you are having a rough time in this TWW and I still have hope for all of you and pray lots of BFPs are coming up this week.
It is such a trying emotional rollercoaster and it takes its toll in all sorts of ways.
try and hang in there until the BT ladies.
My thoughts are with you all. I'll keep checking in.
Love Emma

Hey ladies, sorry no time for personals at the moment work is doing my head in :wall:

I just wanted to send lots of :stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: to all.
This TWW is nearly to an end for most of us so am :pray:ing really hard that we hear lots of BFP by the end of the week.

I am sure you are feeling the pressure and every day we are a step closer to our BFP.

AFM, am so stressed and am trying to stay calm and positive. My first IVF cycle ended a week after transfer making that day today so stay away AF your not wanted :pray:

:cheer: LETS KEEP THIS AN AF ZONE!!!!:cheer:

Will pop back in latter to hear how you are all going :grouphug:

HI Ladies. Just lurking and following your journeys. I just wanted to share my experiences with those who are concerned they are not having any pg symptoms during this TWW. I did 2 IUIs and had a range of what I thought were pregnancy symptoms. These included weird niggling in my uterus and what I though was the start of nausea. Both times I ended up with a BFN. Then during my TWW with my first IVF cycle I had no sysmptoms what so ever. I was so sure it was going to be another BFN - but no, to my surprise it was BFP. So, the moral of the story.... our bodies work in mysterious ways and you should never count yourself out until the BT confirms the result.
I am hoping and praying that you are all successful this cycle and there will be lots of belly buddies sharing their stories for months to come!
:pink-babydust::bluedust::stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesgi rl:

Hi girls, just popping in to say g'day. Hope you all had a good day and are feeling well.

Nicole, well done on making it further than your last cycle. We have to celebrate the milestones... it keeps us hopeful.

My day has been uneventful... which I think is a good thing! Another day closer to knowing one way or the other.

Take care

Hello everyone, just logging on during a quiet break at work (he he) to see how you are all doing after the weekend. Hope that you are all going great and wanted to say thanks for making me feel so welcome with all your lovely messages. Take care all and keep on smiling.

Evening ladies

Farmgirl you made me laugh with your comment about the male scientists :) Very funny but probably true!

BTW the nurses at my clinic say that crinone doesnt stop AF from coming, so I guess we should all count ourselves luck so far.

Alloy glad you are feeling better now. good luck for your BT, you are only a few days behind us the day will come before you know it!

NicoleS congrats for doing better then last time. Lets just hope that AF stays away for atleast 9 months now!

BB73 and Possums - thankyou for checking in on us! I hope that we all get to report our BFPs to you soon

Kaydee - yay for an uneventful day, we dont want any events now! Just smooth sailing hopefully

Jodie65 good luck for BT on the 26th, not long to go now!

AFM pretty uneventful too actually. The clots have stopped coming out so not sure what's going on there. Not sure if I am spotting or not or if its left over from the crinone. Whatever it is, it is I guess 3 days to go now! Still not positive but have heard all sorts of stories from various people that they were spotting and breats had gone down and were still PG, so who knows. Wouldnt it be a loveley suprise! I guess as long as AF stays away I am happy, lets just hope Thursday brings me a pleasant suprise. :crossfingers:

Lets hope Thursday and Friday brings everyone lots of good news :pray::goodluck:

:DMorning all!
Hope that everyone is going well this morning and that it is still a AF free zone...

LuckyStrike - glad that you are feeling ok and that the spotting has stopped. starting to wonder what is normal when you get pg something the stories you have heard have just confirmed...maybe the fact we are all feeling ok is a good sign!
Jodie - BB is such a great work distraction! hope you are going well and feeling positive (do you ever notice how during work hours so many more people are logged onto BB than one the weekend...and they think facebook is bad for productivity
Kaydee - not long now and hope that the next three days stay uneventfull!
Nicole S - hope that work is better for you today - at least you have something to help keep your mind of the TWW! It is great that you have made it past where you got to last time - :crossfingers: this is the one for you!
Alloy - hope you are still hanging in there
To everyone else :goodluck2:

Me - well today is the day AF came last stim cycle so I'm just trying to keep AF away. Had little bit of spotting yesterday, and sure that I've got AF cramps and niggles everywhere, but will just have to see. Holding out on the temptation to get a POAS...only two more sleeps. Have sent DH and FIL off to field-days to look at farm stuff - i stayed home cause I know how upset I'll be if AF comes and did not really want to ruin their day, so planning to do some me stuff once the house is clean :wall:. While the TWW is good while being on holidays - at least not going to get upset at work when results come in, I just have waaaaay too much time on my hands!

Anyway - stay sane everyone, only two or three, or a few more (Alloy) sleeps to go:pink-babydust::bluedust:

Hang in there everyone...not too long to go now.
And yes, you can get AF even if using pessaries or whatever.... I did on our last cycle, two days before the BT....so if AF is staying away I think that's a good thing.
Not long to go now and this agonising wait will be over. fingers crossed :pray:

Farmgirl keeping my finger crossed that AF will stay away for you....and I hope whatever we are feeling or not feeling is a good sign for us.

No dont do the POAS! I hate them. I told DH I will do one only if I get a BFP, so I can see it for real :) Otherwise dont want to do one and worry about the results being right or wrong. Thursday is 2 sleeps away now, stay strong

I have to say the thought of getting AF at work worries me, as I know I will be devasted, and dont know what I'll be like on Thursday. I'll be going straight to work after the BT in the morning, and even though I suspect I'll be getting a BFN, it will still be horrible to hear it. I'll have to prepare myself in the morning I guess.

I also got AF while still on Crinone so I think it's a great sign that she hasn't visited. My experience was that AF arrived exactly on schedule (that is, my particular 26 day cycle) if you count the day of OPU as the ovulation date.

Good luck to everyone on the TWW - I'll be looking for some BFPs...

Hey ladies, sorry for no personals yesterday have been trying to actually do some work, I guess that's why they pay me :rolleyes:

Kaydee, Other day down and I recon if it was uneventful that is something to celebrate. :hug:

Luckystike, We are nearly there...WE CAN DO IT!!! Try and focus on that lovely Surprise and how awesome it would be to finally POAS and see those two lines.
I think I'll do the same if it is positive :dance:

Farmgirl, 2 sleeps to go you must be going crazy. Enjoy having a break .....AF STAY AWAY!!!
I recon if I couldn't log onto BB during work I would go mad :p

Jodie, only 3 more sleeps hope the time fly's for you as well.

Possum and Belinda, thanks ladies for dropping in.:hug:

AFM, I made it past my 4.47pm millstone yesterday afternoon and am taking everything in little steps almost hour by hour.
My BB are only sore when locked up in my bra and when I go to take it off...other than that a couple of twinges this morning on my left side but only lasted for a short time.
I don't want to get my hopes up but have no idea if AF is on her way or not. I can't feel her (touch wood) but you just never know???

Take care all and STAY AWAY AF, THIS IS AN AF FREE ZONE...YOUR NOT WANTED!!!!
:stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy:

:hug:you are all in my thoughts and i really hope you all get your long awaited BFP
:stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy::goodluck2:

stay away AF! these ladies are ready for a BFP!!!

Hi girls,

Just a quick one before I go and hunt something out for lunch.

I hope everyone still has their fingers crossed, and AF is staying away!!!! :crossfingers:

AFM, I had a bad night, I fell asleep watching the brownlow medal count, and woke up panicked at midnight because I had forgotten the crinone. Then I woke again at 1am, because I had forgotten to give myself the Pregnyl shot, so I was in the kitchen at 1am giving myself the needle (I bet I'll get a bruise from that one). Then I couldn't get back to sleep because I was paranoid that I was forgetting something else.

AF STAY AWAY!! THIS IS AN AF FREE ZONE AND NOBODY WANTS YOU!!
(maybe if we all shout it, she'll listen).

:hug: to everyone

Hi all,
Well i guess someone had to start and it may as well be me...AF has showed up - just light but right on schedual, so it looks like I'm out for this time.

Good luck to everyone else :goodluck2:
FG

Oh Farmgirl :hug: I am so very sorry.
Don't count yourself out yet as the Blood Test could still hold a great surprise for you.

Farmgirl, I am so sorry... AF, ugly witch. Sending you hugs. :hug: Take care, sweet.

Oh FG - I'm so sorry - maybe it's just a bit of spotting which I understand is very common. Fingers crossed.

I'm sorry to hear that farmgirl...hope you are ok...and like the other ladies I hope that maybe the BT will show a surprise :hug:

What is going on - have we hit arvo tea time and we are all logging - soooo many replies. Thanks everyone for your kind words - I think I'm going to need them.

Was just trying to hold back the tears before while on the phone to MIL - she was trying to explain to me that she was getting her driveway asphelted - and did I want them to come around now and give DH and I a quote as well (mind you our drive way is 300mt long...i dont think so...) ...they just have not idea sometimes and pick up on none of the clues!

Oh Farmgirl, I'm so sorry to read that!! :hug: I really hope you get a BFP soon, how unfair this ttc rollercoaster is :hug:

Oh Farmgirl :hug: Out-laws you gotta love em... mine thankfully live in Wagga so about 4.5 hours away from me.

...and as for arvo tea time your spot on. Am always lurking on BB :p
take care of yourself and know that we are all here for you.
It ain't over yet...not by a long shot :hug:

farmgirl...it is just so tough going...hang in there. I hardly talk to my MIL which is one way around things! ;)

well i'm officially out :( caved in and POAS - :bfn:. I cant belive that we lost them both, when will this ever happen for us, what else do we have to do? this just hurts sooo much

well i'm officially out :( caved in and POAS - :bfn:. I cant believe that we lost them both, when will this ever happen for us, what else do we have to do? this just hurts sooo much and i dont know where i'm meant to find the strenght to keep going with this

I am so so sorry it hasn't worked out this time. :hug: There isnt much we can say to ease your pain right now. Your time will come though. THE little embie for you is waiting.
Be gentle with yourself right now and surround yourself with support.
hugs to you.xx

Oh Farmgirl, I'm truly sorry that this was not the month for you :(
Nothing we can say can take your pain away but am sure your little embie is waiting for you :hug:
Take care of yourself and know that we are here for you :hug:

Dear Farmgirl, I am so deeply sorry that it hasn't worked for you this time around, but like the other girls say I just know that your time and your little embie is out there waiting just for you and to be part of your family. Take care of yourself right now and know that we are all thinking of you. :hug:

Farmgirl I am so sorry to hear that AF has arrived. There really is nothing I can say to make you feel better, so I hope you take care of yourself. Try and look towards the future. I'm sure good things are just around the corner for you.
You will get your dream, you are young, I'm sure it wont be too far away.:goodluck:
I hope you are OK, I'll be thinking of you.

Hi everyone,
I'm going to be away from the 'puter for the next little but, so I just wanted to wish you all the best of luck with your BTs over the next few days - :crossfingers: that there is only :bfp: for the rest of you in here. Throwing :pink-babydust::bluedust: all over the place...

FG

Farmgirl, I hope you have a nice break, and I'll save some of that :pink-babydust: for when you get back! I wish there was something I could say/do to help you right now. I'll be thinking of you, and :pray: that you get a BFP from one of your frosty bubs. I'm sure the right one is just waiting for you :hug:

Hey everyone,

Just popping in after being out of the zone for a while. Farmgirl - I'm so sorry for you love - I don't understand why people who really want children struggle, while others seem to get pregnant with no thought (and sometimes love) involved. :hug:

AFM - we had 11 eggs collected a week and a half ago which was so exciting as our first cycle was cancelled due to low response. Seven of them fertilised, again very exciting, but apart from the little one that was transfered last Wednesday the rest didn't make it. So just the one. I cried and cried. I don't understand it.

Does anyone know what the fact of the others not making it could mean for the little one that was transferred? I know there are no set guidelines for this type of thing, but I can't help thinking that if the others weren't that good, what of this one? Our pregnancy test is on Monday, but I'm starting to feel premenstrual...so not sure....

Kate