Hi all,

I have been TTC for 19 months now (I am 32 y.o.). A huge emotional and mental roller coaster for me. I have always had spot on regular 28 day cycles, never have had pain, have always been healthy, been practising Francesca Naish's natural contraception methods for few years...so last year i was wondering what the hell was going on. Went to see a gyno who suspected endometriosis even though i have never had painful periods. So i had a laparoscopy and i apparently had a heap of endo that was removed. I thought that was that, problem treated, then i could go back to TTC with more confidence. But i was mortified when the gyno told me after the op that i would then need to quickly go on this horrid drug called Zoladex for 3 months, then go on the pill and then go straight to IUI or IVF. This was such a complete shock for me which they did not disclose before the op. Having been drug and pharmaceutical free for years and wanting a completely natural conception and birth, this was extremely upsetting for me and i spent 2 weeks in tears. It was like there was no other option. So i went onto the Zoladex for 3 months and luckily had no majoe side effects, but i was very upset that after years of natural contraception, i was now taking a drug to suppress my period. It just didnt seem right for me.

5 months on after completing the Zoladex (and refusing the pill, IUI or IVF), i am still not pregnant. I want to exhaust all other opportunities before doing IUI etc. Because, for me, apart from the endo i had, there doesnt seem to be anything else wrong. So this week i am booked in to see a high-profile naturopath that i have read about in all the forums. Hopefully it will help me....Ive just been so upset about it all. I feel like my body has failed me, and that maybe this is all a sign that im not meant to be a parent? Its especially a slap in the face when everyone around you is falling pregnant. My good friend told me on the weekend she was pregnant, and i felt absolutely gutted on the inside, despite being genuinely happy for her. But i felt even more gutted when she told me she conceived one month after coming off the pill! But you can only stay 'why me' and compare yourself to others for so long. It is actually not very productive. So im trying to be more positive and just think about 'me'!

Anyway, just thought i would share this. And if anyone else has any natural therapy feedback that would be great.

Ta,
Bianeczka