New to BB and in need of some support...

[India]

Hi everyone,

I am new to this site and have meaning to register for some time now. Hubby and I have been TTC for 4 years, we have gotten pregnant naturally twice last year but both ended in very early m/c's.. both at about 5weeks. We decided to take the plunge and go and see a fertility specialist and unfortunately I found out last year that I have low ovarian reserve with an AMH level of 1.0.

I had no understanding of what the fertility specialist was talking about at the time, all I can remember him saying was that normal levels should be about 14 and my was at 1.0, I just remember my eyes filling up with tears and I couldn't take in what he was saying.

He told us we should start IVF asap as time was running out. Both my husband and I felt shocked and gutted by this news. We managed to start our first IVF cycle a few months after our initial consultation. I did the antagonist cycle for IVF#1, with 300iu gonal F and ovidrel - they got 7 eggs out of which 3 fertilized, however 2 stopped dividing a few days later and didn't make it, they transferred one 9 cell on day 3 but I got a BFN.

I have just done IVF#2, this time I was put on long down regulation - 10units of lucrin & 375iu gonal F, I've been doing the injections for 4 weeks and I went in for my egg retrieval on Monday 22 Aug 11, they got 2 eggs, unfortunately none of them fertilized. I am gutted, heartbroken, devastated. I was dreaming of having an egg transfer this week but instead I have nothing.

I am 35 years old ( turning 36 in a few months ), my hubby is 33 and perfectly healthy. I guess I'm just looking for some support and hope. I'm waiting for a phone call from my specialist today and he'll advise what he thinks is best.

I feel lighter already just by posting this....

thanks so much for listening xx

[Ca Plane Pour Moi]

Hi there India and welcome to BB.

Have you spoken to your specialist again for more information? Have they repeated the blood tests to check the results?

I really hope that you have a good conversation with your specialist and you can work something out for you. Hugs.

[glenny_c]

India- Welcome to BB. Sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle. Unfortunately there are a lot of us girls here who understand the pain that can cause.

I hope you can get some answers and you don't lose hope. I also hope that you find the support and understanding that you're looking for on this site.

Hugs from me as well

[Marley&Me]

welcome to BB india, I'm sorry for what you are going through.
I'm sure you will find the ladies here very helpful. There is a sub-forum for IVF & ICSI in here so you will be able to get all the support you need. You are definitely not alone in how you are feeling. I hope you get some luck very very soon

[Miss.B]

Hi India and welcome to BellBelly!

It's tough going through IVF, whatever the reason behind it. I was absolutely devastated that my partner and I had to do it, no matter how I tried to get my head around it! Initiially the problem was with my DF as he had a vesectomy reversal that didn't work. When we finally did do the cycle, I had a large fibroid growing in the wall of my uterus and my first attempt ended up with us losing our precious son at 21 weeks. The second attempt produced our little DS who is now 17 months.
Don't give up hope, but make sure the specialist is really working hard for you. It's important to know that they are on your side and that you have a good relationship with them. I have recently found out that my healthy reserve (well in was healthy 11 months ago) is not so healthy now, so we are currently looking at a cycle in November this year (I am considerably older than you so really no time to waste!). GL with your next cycle hun, I hope it brings you a good result.

[India]

Hi ladies,

Thank you so much for your replies.

I had a consultation with my specialist on Thursday. He said he was a baffled I didn't respond well this time but he is concerned about my FSH levels. On my initial consultation with him last year in November my FSH level was 16 and my AMH 1.0, I did have an antral follicle count but I can't remember what it was.

Anyway, he wants me to have my FSH & AMH re-tested on my next period, his concerns are that if my FSH is constantly elevated he believes there is little chance IVF will work for us unless we use donor eggs. At this stage he is saying that if it is a case that it fluctuates then he is happy for us to try IVF again when it's in the normal range. Does this sound right to anyone?

I feel like I've been on an immense learning curve this past year, I didn't even know anything about FSH or AMH levels!!

I'm pretty all over the place at the moment but still trying to remain positive!!

[Lily Dust]

Hi India

Welcome to BellyBelly, Im glad that you have found the site and kind other woman who know what you are going through! I dont have any advice, we were on the IVF rollercoaster for 5 years but for different reasons.

I hope you are able to get some more answers soon and that baby you want so much