When did you decide ? (plus a bit of a vent)

[MissM]

When did you decide to start the process of IVF? How did you feel about starting? How long were you ttc b4 starting ivf? How long did it take to get a bfp and what procedure did you have (ivf, iui icsi?)

Yesterday and today I have just had this feeling of 'IM SO OVER TTC' I dont want to do it anymore.

I dont want to do accupuncture or take supps anymore. But I'm struggling to come to terms with the fact that we will not be able to conceive naturally and will have to do so in a clinic.

I also can't bring myself to say out loud 'We will make an appointment and see a fs as soon as we can' in the hope that it will happen - but I know its not gonna happen naturally which is upsetting.

ATM there are like 5 ppl in my close family that are UTD and don't deserve to be and its unfair.