Long rang . . sorry am just emotional right now.

I don't know whether I'm madder or more teary right now. The rundown - when I left my job as Accounts Manager to have DD my arrangements to job share with a bookkeeper were pulled out 2 months before my maternity leave because my boss apparently felt that my job needed to be a full time position, even though I'd only done full time for a few months to catch up on missing a months work while I was overseas and had been part time for a couple of years before that on my own without any issues - it was just a farce - he was trying to hold me accountable for things like if their was a loss at the end of the month, or the warehouse stocktake having major differences to the in and outgoing stock sheets from the warehouse, neither of which I had ANY control over, I just entered the data, processed and analyzed it and presented the information, it was total crap and the replacement manager had exactly the same problems until they finally found someone who was capable of running the warehouse etc a couple of months ago. Basically the way I was pushed out of my rights to return to a reasonabe flexible working arrangement then was illegal and I knew it, but had to keep my mouth shut as my husband does their tax which is a big account for him. My boss obviously realized this (not that he admitted it) after the same issue with the new accountant so was happy for me to come back part time but only for what work they had.

So, I started working part time again as a bookkeeper for them (not as the manager as that role now filled by my replacement) a few months ago. Now, due to potential expansion they are hiring a accountant / financial controller as well as the accounts manager - Now there is just enough work for the full time manager and me working 12 hours a week so it doesn't take a genious to wonder what they're planning on doing in two weeks when they bring him on board.

Today I come to work and there's a letter on my desk with a list about how I've had numerous warnings about attention to detail and not making errors with regards to double entering invoices, entering under wrong supplier, entering in wrong company (there's 4 all with same first name) and how the manager is supposedly spending several HOURS each DAY checking my work etc!!! Basically culminates with unless this is eliminated this will result in termination of your position.

Now I am by no means perfect, but I am actually very accurate even with having been sooo sick the last couple of months, any errors I may makes with regards to MYOB is easily picked up at the latest by the end of the month when you check the statement to the invoices, earlier if paying from the manual invoice, or doing reconciliations (ie, I do the rec's so I often pick up and simply correct the manager's deposit input errors, it is very quick and I thought to be expected). So even if I have input some info in the wrong place, it is only ever temporary - there is no need to check my work every day as any (and they are few) errors will be corrected come end of month rec's - it's not even worth a verbal warning let alone a threat of firing over and it is impossible to believe anyone could spend several hours a DAY checking what I do in 12 hours a WEEK and it just goes on and on for a page.

The thing is I KNOW that this is what my boss is like, I've seen him do it to many managers over the years and I KNOW I am Damn good at my job and this is without justification - but it still feels makes me feel like worthless crap, and there is nothing I can do about it. Basically they are sitting back WAITING for me to make ANY little mistake so they have reason to terminate me without paying me the redundancy they would need to if there's not enough work for me with the new financial controller who just so happens to be coming on board in 2 weeks, and conveniently they don't have to worry about maternity leave come end of financial year time. So now the thought of going to work just makes me feel panicky and teary because it has become a place where all I have to look forward to is knowing I'm unappreciated and feeling stress since I apparently will be fired the next time I make a minor input error.