Yep I sure do know what you mean.

Deb, I trained to be a teacher too and have never worked in the field. By the time I finished the course I realised I didn't want it but I wasn't sure what I DID want. I have spent most of my working life since in offices, doing jobs I hate. Luckily, I don't mind my current job and it's a public service gig so there are a few benefits to that too but I'm experiencing anxiety about returning to work and my baby isn't even born yet!

I know that financially it will be a struggle but I really hope to stay home for at least a year if not longer. Ideally, if my husband was in some kind of job where he received a decent pay packet I would stay home with no qualms whatsoever. Like Bathsheba we also rent and try to keep our expenses to a minimum but it is still hard these days to make ends meet.