bit of a vent... ok a lot of a vent.
Thanks Tenny & Becci. Dunno what i'll be put on. The DE rang me back after hours on Fri to say it's not urgent but we'd like to start you on insulin... can you come in Monday.
Did i mention that i"m sick of people saying oh I knew someone with GD and they managed it fine? TBH think I'm a bit freaked about the whole insulin thing and started thinking that maybe I could have been better with the diet... I thought I was doing ok... but maybe a dietician would have helped me avoid it? I was given the number of one (avail ONLY between 9-11 on Weds :cryinglaugh:) and of course i got caught up & didn't ring her in time :wall:
My other whinge is my aunt died on Weds (cancer - was quite quick)... I was mostly ok, sad for my mum. My mum is now coming over (next week) for the funeral - Dad can't come cos he just had hip surgery (yesterday). So ok, I can look after mum, and am feeling ok to support her at funeral (her sis, obviously much closer r/ship than my aunt). Then my bro (who is like seriously the worst house guest in the world!), wants to come plus my sis (who I love to bits) - um that's 3 houseguests!
Then on the way home on Friday, there's this huge crash at the intersection in front of us (we're in the right turn lane).... one car ends up skidding along the central verge towards us... hits both cars in front of us... we watched in slow motion ... it missed us by INCHES!!!!! The nice thing - in our new Forester (just got this a mth ago) so I felt very very safe. The insane thing... I was worried it would scratch my pretty new car (how stupid is that!?!?). I really would just like to have a nice peaceful uneventful week!
On the bright side, thank goodness I finish work in 2 weeks... but in the interim, I'm absolutely flat out trying to finish everything off, insanely relieved that we're ok & didn't get crashed into. As for the guests & funeral... I'll deal with that next week. Can my brain implode now????? Should I just hibernate under the doona for the weekend? Might be safer!
I just re-read diabetes chatter #4 cos it seemed like all you guys cope so well, and I feel like a big stupid mess always bawling over something (latest thing being the insulin of course)... so reading that all made it me feel a bit better - I guess it's just adjustment time. I just feel like i'm the only one at this stage of the GD stuff... and I'm sick of feeling like the weird/"special" one. If only 10-15% of GD's get put on insulin, why did it have to be me? I seem to be getting a bit of m/s back in the evenings too - so by the time I get home from work, i"m absolutely stuffed, lie on the sofa feeling ill- can barely organise myself enough to plan lunch for next day, organise clothes before I'm sleeping then trying to get myself out of the door for the next day of work... and the whole combination with my pre-existing diet just totally sux!! When I was reading the previous chatter, seriously 90% of the foods you guys try/find that works, I can't even eat!! I cannot buy ANYTHING near work for lunch at all, so I bring everything. I'm sick of thinking about food. And all the Dr's just seem to think oh well you'll manage.
So then I decided to read more about GD & try educate myself more... and they were saying that most babies with insulin-dependant mums might have to go to special care nursery for 24-48 hours... which also freaked me out.
um so sorry this is a late night self-indulgent post. I just wish I could cope with all this better :crying: but I go to work and I put on a brave face, and I say all the right things. Just wish I felt like that on the inside.