I need my dad!!!! I cant take it anymore! I have been quiet for long enough

I HATE THIS IT ****ING SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry needed to get it out. I lost him in Feb. I can feel him, he comes to me in my dreams and answers my questions, NOT good enough. Im slowly dying inside I miss him, its not fair.
My step mum and I have been serching for a way to contact him. She found someone that confimed him coming to me and said his extremly insync with me even more so in death.
DD1 says he comes to her They're really close. This shouldn't have happened to us, he was our invinsable man, my superman Unbreakable, but he broke and need him.
Can anyone help?

*sorry bit of a vent also*