Ok, so i went to physic yesterday, only to have my heart smashed into 1000 little pieces.

I lost my little girl to SIDS 3mths ago. Anyone that knew her, knew that she was a very happy baby, very rarely sick, she was just a good baby.

So this woman told me yesterday that Lilli "was not meant to be". "If she lived, she would have been a very sick child", "she had a lot of illnesses".

Ok maybe if she said her time was only meant to be short, i could have excepted that. But how she said it, sounded like i was never meant to have her. I was very upset all day from it.

However, last night, after getting out of the shower, i hear this music. It was Lilli's rocker music going off!! Her rocker has been packed away under her cot, where its has a switch that you have to turn on/off. I pulled it out and turned it off, and thought to myself my little angel was here. Lilli would always sit in her rocker, with the music going, she loved it. I was just over welmed that she came to me after such a bad day.