so as some of u will know, we lost our DS at 22w due to incompetant cervix in jan last year....

ive been going to councelling and have been doing great, been able to mention his name, have a small conversation about what happened without ending up a hysterical mess, not crying at the drop of a hat....

then today i discovered DH is making a special box to put all of our DS's things in, including his ashes which he has wanted to do for a long time....

ive been feeling a lot more confident about things recently and even today so i thought id have a look at our pics of DS again...
not the best idea ive had....

i just want to be able to look at them and not end up a husterical sobbing mess, not feel like my heart is being ripped into 400 million pieces all over again

am i ever going to be able to do that???