My last 2 pregnancies I was sick. Constantly. Vomiting. Every day, every where. This time I only felt a little queasy ... alarm bells were ringing.

I asked my OB for an early ultrasound becuase I wasn't feeling confident. I should have followed my gut instinct more. I was supposed to be 8 weeks, baby didn't develop past 5. The U/S tech was trying to be nice saying "it can still be viable - go and get some blood tests and we'll see in another week". I knew there was no hope. I have a regular 28 day cycle, my dates couldn't be wrong. So I go and have some blood tests anyway, come home go to toilet and dun dun dun - there's the blood. Bit ironic. Was a stab in the back. Felt like my body is laughing at me ...

So I have some questions ... what can I expect bleeding wise from a loss at 5 weeks? Will it be gone by Christmas? Do I consider this a period and that I'll ovulate in 2 weeks and then have my cycles back?

I don't want to be pregnant again yet. I can't be bothered dealing with this crap again. I have resigned myself to the fact this will happen again ...