Hi girls... I'm Bella, I had a m/c last month. I have been really pragmatic about the loss and tried to be reasonable, after all we got preg first month TTC same as we did with DD so it's not the same as for those people who have to wait and wish for so long. We have started TTC again straight away. I tested today and got a BFN. I am only 10DPO which is the same stage as I tested last cycle and got a positive then so figured it would be worth trying again. Anyway I am surprised at how melancholy I am about the BFN. Even tho I know that there is still a small chance I am UTD and it was too early to test I don't really feel preg and I predicted my last two preg based on how I felt. AGHH.. sorry I feel like I am just rambling here. I am very grateful for our apparent fertility and maybe that is why I didn't let myself get too sad at the m/c, cos I said to myself that it would be ok, cos we would be preg again very soon and now that I don't think I am, I am feeling really vulnerable and suddenly overcome with a sense of grief. It is hard to explain, especially since I know that so many of my friends have taken so much longer than me to concieve, I do feel ungrateful and should probably just shut up. But there you go that is how I am feeling. Sad and not quite coping atm...

xx Bella