will i ever.....

[crumpet]

so as some of u will know, we lost our DS at 22w due to incompetant cervix in jan last year....

ive been going to councelling and have been doing great, been able to mention his name, have a small conversation about what happened without ending up a hysterical mess, not crying at the drop of a hat....

then today i discovered DH is making a special box to put all of our DS's things in, including his ashes which he has wanted to do for a long time....

ive been feeling a lot more confident about things recently and even today so i thought id have a look at our pics of DS again...
not the best idea ive had....

i just want to be able to look at them and not end up a husterical sobbing mess, not feel like my heart is being ripped into 400 million pieces all over again

am i ever going to be able to do that???

[Blixie]

i can't imagine what you're going through, but couldn't read and run. Just wanted to offer you heaps of

[skybie]

I hope so hunny. i really really do

[Charlotte91]

Oh crumpet....

Please feel free to talk to me about it. I'm here for you honey. I wish I could say more.

[TeniBear]

I hope so hunny. i really really do

Me too You'll get there honey - just go at your own pace


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- Sent from my iPhone so forgive the speelung misstacks

[LionsandBears]

Yes, over time

Would it help to have some photos in frames around the house? I find having a couple around mean they are a normal part of our lives. It's when I look at the ones on the computer or the ones the professional did for us with DS1 that I turn into a mess. There's nothing wrong with crying darl. He's your beautiful little boy and you miss him

[Marley&Me]

couldn't read and not post, my heart is breaking for you and I hope in time you will be able to.

[Yas]

I'm so sorry Hun. Massive xxxxx

[diannescruffy]

hun, I went through exactly what your're going through now with Emmanuel. In the first three years I opened his memory box 3 times I think, it was just too hard to look at photos and touch his clothes even though I wanted to so badly. Now I can hold his photo, smile at him and he always gets a kiss too. In time hun I really hope you will be able to feel this way too xxx.

Regards,
Dianne