Hi all - so i'm a new member, and this is my first post/forum.

So this is my situation.....

I have an 18 month old boy, and my hubby and I have been trying for another child.

I randomly took a home test (actually 3 ) just over a week ago which came up posotive...all of them. Extremely happy and very excited....after following all the procedures (dr's app etc), and making all the normal plans etc, I then had a night of very uncomfortable abdominal cramping (bearable, but very uncomfortable). My husband convinced me to get into a dr's early just to be sure. So unfortunately I couldn't get into my normal dr. soon enough, and seen a very unsympathetic and un-motivated middle eastern Dr. He felt my tummy, took my blood pressure etc, and assured me that if I bleed to go straight to the hospital. In the mean time - his urine test came back negative, and so he wanted some blood tests to be done to be 100% sure of a pregnancy.
I went and had my blood taken straight after, and was still reeling from the negative urine test result there, compared to my 3!! I was more than convinced I was pregnant, so I didn't worry too much. Although I did buy another home test on the way home - and that came up another positive! I just though ah well their tests obviously need to be thrown out! lol

The day after that - I was driving home from a fellow mums group members house, and I started getting the cramping I got the other night, except it was getting more intense. It wasn't bad enough that I had to pull over, but thank god I didn't live far away as by the time I got home I was in alot of pain.

I got my son (Evan) inside, and went straight to the toilet, and sure enough I had a small amount of blood on my underwear (like spotting), and wiped blood. I was in a frantic panic!
My husband is a farmer, and also a truck driver, so he was away from home until late evening for work. I called him straight away to ask how far away from finishing he was. When I explained everything to him, he demanded I go straight to the emergency department and he would go straight there and meet me asap.
After dropping my son off at my mother inlaws, I drove back to the hospital in alot of pain/cramping. I didn't have to wait long to get in. I had blood taken again - and even their urine and blood tests were "in-definative"as to whether I was even pregnant. They said the certain hormone they test for in the blood that indicates pregnancy was at high levels.....but not high enough!
He said it could even be due to the fact that I was so early on in the pregnancy etc.
Anyways him and another dr. didn't seem worried at all, infact they put it down to early pregnancy cramping and light bleeding, which I am well aware is quite common.
I was a little reassured, but still didn't feel 'right', I told him it wasn't so much the blood that was worrying me it was the pain/cramping (which had eased my then after some medication. But alas, I was sent home, and assured that I would not get any black and white answers until my ultasound which was the next afternoon.
The next afternoon, I was preparing myself for the worse, I actually sort of had a very strong feeling that I had lost or was loosing the pregnancy. I was still spotting blood that morning, but it had stopped a short while after.
I informed the sonographer of the recent changes, and that I was infact prepared for the worst news.
Sure enough, the ultrasound revealed "no obvious sign of pregnancy today" is what he said. He then went on to do an internal examination/ultrasound to rule out an ectopic pregnancy (which was negative). Although it did however reveal a cyst on each ovary and a fibroid (or mass) in my uterus. I told him years prior I had been told I had PCO and would find it hard to fall pregnant. Turns out it took 3 months to conceive my son..hmm.

The Sonographer did however say that the cysts could be as a result of a pregnancy (a cysts forms after conception which produces pregnancy hormones), and that the mass could infact be a "collapsed sac with debree in it". I'm still scratching my head as to whether those were the right choice of words - it was like it was an extremely discriptive way of saying a miscarriage.
He also said that the reason why he can't really see anything is because it's so early on in the pregnancy

But after all this he said by law, he is unable to tell me anything - he just takes the pictures!
He did tell me his "gut feeling"is that it was a pregnancy which did not progress, and that I will just have to wait and see what my body tells me - but he thinks that my dr. will want me to have a follow up scan a few weeks later.

So that was 3 days ago, and as it stands, I am still having irregular very light bleeding (no clots), and just today I have what feels like 'period pain' - very mild, but I know it's there.

I'm so sorry this is so long, but I didn't really know how to shorten it - it's very complex! I guess my point is I am emotionally ready to deal with 'miscarriage', i'm of the opinion that these things happen, and there's nothing I could have done to cause it. Although i'm very confused and frustrated as no-body can tell me whether i'm having one or not! And no-body can tell me whether i'm in the early stages of pregnancy!!

PS - the sonographer said one of the reasons he's convinced its also an unsuccessful pregnancy is because i'm not getting any morning sickness! But I told him I did not get anything like that with my first pregnancy.

I would appreciate some thought, opinions, other stories, or words of encouragement!! xxx