But this still really sucks! And I didn't want to go back to my old thread in plat because I read it all over and it's like it happened yesterday... Truth be told it happened 4m5days ago.

Another work colleague is pregnant this will make number 6 just in my section - there really is something in the water!

I feel happy for her (for all of them) - but it brings my incredible sadness and hole in my heart ;( I know it wasn't the right time and my destiny has another path to follow - knowing that doesn't help the hurt.

I don't know what the reason behind this thread is - I know there is no way to make it all better - no one can bring back my baby ;( - just want it all out there - to be listened to and heard that I'm still hurting - no I haven't "got over if yet" and it'd be nice if someone could acknowledge that...