A year....

**Yas** · August 15th, 2011, 02:21 PM

It's been a year since i first started spotting, and i was paralysed by fear. I knew.
On the 17th of august i would go for an ultrasound to be told my little girl was gone. I was paralysed by grief.
Even as i'm writing this i can't stop crying.
I don't have a reason why your not in my arms. It hurts, and i ache for you. I imagine what you would have looked like and i know you would have been beautiful.
This has been a hard year, mourning you while desperately trying to fall pregnant again, then mourning you as i grow your little brother.
Your big brother hasn't forgotten, even though he was only 2. He tells people about his sister in the sky, he talks to you sometimes.
My body held you for 12 weeks, my heart will hold you for eternity.

Hugs to all the girls and your families that have had this experience. xxx