photo(115).jpgYesterday I got two nice bfp's at about 14dpo I believe. I have labelled them I usually get my period at around 9dpo. The only time I don't is when I am pregnant.

Today I had some brown cm (scant) so I decided to test again and got number 3! I freaked out because it is heaps lighter than 1 & 2, decided to hold my pee for a few hours (knowing that when I first tested today I had been drinking & peeing heaps already) and I got number 4, which was better but still not quite as dark as 1 or 2.

1 & 2 were taken within minutes of each other, none of the tests I have done have been with fmu.

ANyway.. to complicate things further I decided to check my cervix and internally for any bleeding, I wanted to be hygienic and avoid any scratches or anything so I used a tampon & when I pulled it out there was a tiny amount of darker cm on it, more bloody than the first cm when I wiped. Since then (around 9.30) this morning I have had nothing on wiping or liner etc.

we have been trying since 2008, and have to mc under our belt already so obviously my crazy is a bit more psycho than the average bear!

I was going to wait to see what happened with the bleeding in the next day or two before going and getting some hcgs done. I am not in a rush to go in there because I don't want to waste anyone's time if mc is inevitable anyway.

But what do you all think? Should I be freaking out as much as I am? I don't know what the normal reaction would be?

Thanks in advance!