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Hi Laney - Sorry for the BFN Darl, I hope AF happens soon so you can get back on the TTC wagon (if she's coming back!!! :lol:)
BEK _ How are things going at your place? Your insomniac decided that sleeping is a cool thing to do? I can only imagine how tired you are. Sorry hun!
RACH _ I just read your thread re: Lilli. I'm so sorry honey, FWIW I think you're an absolutely inspirational woman, honestly, you & your family deserve medals for what you have been through & you have come out raising another beautiful little girl. I have no advice or no clue what I can say to make it better, but I just want you to know that we are all here to listen & offer any encouragement that we can.
MAKO _ Sorry you have no immediate answer honey, but I'm just glad the appt has been & you have had the bloods taken & in April you'll get more answers. Hopefully the Dr S appointment is a help?
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Hi Laney - Sorry for the BFN Darl, I hope AF happens soon so you can get back on the TTC wagon (if she's coming back!!! :lol:)
BEK _ How are things going at your place? Your insomniac decided that sleeping is a cool thing to do? I can only imagine how tired you are. Sorry hun!
RACH _ I just read your thread re: Lilli. I'm so sorry honey, FWIW I think you're an absolutely inspirational woman, honestly, you & your family deserve medals for what you have been through & you have come out raising another beautiful little girl. I have no advice or no clue what I can say to make it better, but I just want you to know that we are all here to listen & offer any encouragement that we can.
MAKO _ Sorry you have no immediate answer honey, but I'm just glad the appt has been & you have had the bloods taken & in April you'll get more answers. Hopefully the Dr S appointment is a help?
LEE _ You're not biased, he is awfully cute & I love the mini-man nickname! You're sounding much more spritely which is fantastic! Thanks for asking about me, we are doing alright over here. Alan gets home on Thu so that will be nice, but scary to think the next time he's home it's to fly us to China with him! Eeeek!
KELLY _ Well aren't you a little spunk rat in your avvy! Exactly like IRL! I love IT!
SPRING _ Glad O is no longer a spotty-wot!
FREYA _ You're going to surprise yourself honey. When Alan is home & I tell the kids 'it's bedtime' they know I'm more lenient, but when he is gone & I say 'it's bedtime' they know IT'S BEDTIME! I honestly think you will get an assertive aura about you that lets the kids know, when you give an instruction, you have every intention of it happening. I know my kids can read when I'm going to be soft or when I mean business & I reckon you will give of the same vibe. You WILL get yourself into a routine & it will work. It might take a bit of getting used to, but you'll get there - I know you will! I hope that makes the tiniest bit of sense?
WILLOW _ How many Christening dresses is that now my dear??? :lol: I don't frequent many other forums, but what's with the ticker thingy?
MICHELLE _ I have been thinking of you all day today, I'm so relieved the amnio has been done & now we all count down results day with you! xx
SEQUIOA _ I am loving the ticker that you have now! I bet you felt excited working it up as well. Frozen meals & a cleaner sound like a brilliant start to life with 2 little ones!
BUN _ The first day is always the more tiresome day & it will only get easier. Sure there are going to be hair-raising times, but they will be over quickly & you'll be onto the next day! I think you did a fab job - even if you did get lunch at 4pm! LOL
BW _ I am LOVING your new avatar as well! Very YOU!
DEB _ I have no doubt in my mind that Immy was placed with YOU for a very special reason. You're the most caring, considerate, warm & encouraring person I know & look how far you have taken Immy already! I'm glad you have been given some answers, even if they aren't textbook.
AFM _ I"m sorry to anybody I have missed, I'm absolutely shattered today, I have no idea why? Probably the first school week or something. I feel quite detached from everybody & everything, but hopefully that passes quickly. On a brighter note, my BIL comes home today after his accident. Arm is still intact, although completely useless & utterly disfigured, as is his leg where they took the skin graft, but at least he's home tonight. Massive physio classes are still ahead of him, but important for my niece & nephew to have him home where he belongs - not to mention my sister.
Love Jayne xx
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Deb, I hope that you are able to connect with some other families that can give you some good advice and extra support.
michelle, I am glad to read that the amnio went okay. Just 4 more days and the hard wait will be over.
Mako, sorry to read about your long wait at the Dr. I am not sure if you know but I took clexane while pregnant with Grayson. There were no test results that came back positive for a clotting disorder. It was really my only option other than aspirin. I did have more spotting than usual, well into the second trimester. Other than that clexane was pretty easy. It became part of my routine.
Janie, Glad everything went well and fast today. I had weekly non stress tests done with Grayson. They liked to keep me there for at least an hour every time. They would only do them after 32 weeks. I guess there are not as many heart rate variables until after that point.
Lee, I find it easy to get motivated for chores when I think about how they pile up when I skip them for a day :lol:
Bonham, I will keep my fingers crossed for nice rising HCG.
Spring, AF is like clockwork for me. Day 33 is spotting and day 34 she comes with full force. I am on day 33 and the spotting started. I will test again tomorrow if I feel the need. With Grayson I didn't have a positive test until day 33 so I guess there is a small chance.
I have to run to the store and pick up a few things. It sounds like we wont be leaving the house for a few days. We are supposed to get a bad snow storm tonight.
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Spring, I was referring to what you said to Anna about being a drunk lawyer :lol: Sorry to be so vague!
Jayne, that is wonderful news for your family! It sounds as though your BIL, and everyone else, still has a long road to go down, but I'm pleased that he's home with his wife and kids. I hope you're okay darl, you sound a bit down ATM :(. We love you so much in here, and miss you so much when you're not around! I can't imagine our thread without you :hug:
Michelle, I hope you got to rest plenty yesterday. Have been thinking of you lots.............by the the time you read this it will be 3 sleeps!
Sequoia, if it were me, I'd have the xray done........as Michelle said, they will protect you well, and the radiation levels are low anyway. Better than ending up with complications from something left untreated, or misdiagnosed. You poor thing, it sounds very ouchy!
Laney, I had to laugh at you saying you'll be at home for a few days........it's just so far removed from the weather we get here! Don't get me wrong, here in Melbourne the weather is pretty ordinary during winter, but we don't get snowstorms. I hope it's not too bad, and you have everything you need while it's going.
Willow, your message made me cry! We haven't even met, and I still get to be one of your girls! Thanks darl, I feel very special :) Same for you Bek :) Oh, and Willow, yay for the good shopping trip! Can't wait to see pics!
Mako, what a mixed day for you! It's very hard when you walk away, feeling that you're moving down the road, but still have few answers. I'm glad your Ob is so on the ball with things so. And only 5 sleeps til the big day!!!!! Dr S sounds so lovely from everything I hear about him..........I'm sure you'll be very happy you went to see him.
Kelly, I hope you have a fab time in Geelong, and that the weather is kind :D. Make sure you take your Mersyndol with you!!!!
Megsmum, I saw the thread about the new app! I will definitely think about getting it too. I mean, I am potentially going to be spending alot of time in the hospital etc, and so will need to make logging on as easy as possible ;). I am desperate for a new phone, but am joining DH's business plan, and just waiting on his partner to go and sort out the new contracts. I can't complain because of course his workload is a bit heavier ATM, while DH takes a bit of time off to run me and bubs around.
Lee, thanks for your encouragement hun. Your mini-man is very cute indeed!!!!!!!!
I know I shouldn't be up now, but my left hip was so sore lying in bed, that I couldn't stay there another minute! Mind you, now I'm up I have a sore lower back, and am getting a few tightenings, so I was probably better off in bed LOL. Am starting to feel a bit spewy again these days. Nothing terrible at all, just gaggy when brushing teeth, and certain smells etc make me feel a bit yuck. Even now my tummy just feels kind of, well, unsettled. And it's so tight right now! It drives me nuts! It's okay when I have a contraction and then loosens off again, but when it stays tight for ages it's really annoying.
On the bright side, we definitely think that my belly has popped over the last couple of days, and my fundus feels higher too. I hadn't really noticed it get higher for awhile, so that's reassuring me. Also, I'm reasonably sure that I haven't felt bub in a breech position for almost a week! Which is obviously good if I go into labour, but also means (I hope) that there is a little less room to move around. I can't believe how easy the CTG was yesterday! Just need another of those tomorrow, and a great scan on Monday, and I think we'll be looking set to keep on plodding for awhile longer :D
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Hmmmmm - if only sleep was an option :rolleyes: My daughter decided last night to have a shocker :wall: so I was up around the same time as you Janie. Could have had a chat :rofl: A bit sore this morning but not too bad. It took a while to get the fluid because (of course) Omar was up the top and transverse. We make the OB work for his money :lol:
BBL - hoping for a nap to keep me sane.
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HI ladies,
Glad things are slowley settling down in here.. Michelle, Janie and Mako, fingers crossed its good news across the board :pray:.
Laney - :o Snow storm, then i realised your not from the land of OZ!! Hope you get that bfp soon honey.
Big cheerio to everyone else.. Im plodding along, off the cemetary this morning with the IL's then leaving miss A at my parents so i can re organise her room, her clothes and take out some of her baby stuff to wash for the new bubba. Then tomorrow im sorting my office so fingers crossed everything will be ready for bub by next weekend then I can relax.
Hope you all have a lovely weekend, off to have some brekky mmm
Lis xx
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Man - I just can't do this :( It is all peaking and feels like it is all crashing down. My family haven't even called to see how we are and that hurts more than I can describe. This is one of the single most difficult times we have had just short of losing Caitlyn and they STILL haven't called. I am sad, mad and resigned to them not giving a rats or even thinking how we might be feeling :angry:
And the little people are picking up on the tension and having melt downs at the drop of a hat. Not sleeping - we were up most of last night and awake hourly when we were in bed and every time I walk in the room DD in particular cries and is just a miserable little monkey who wants to feed constantly. DS threw a toy this morning and knocked the cover off my oil lamp and broke it and was so upset because Mummy was crying. DH is trying to keep it all together but he lit ALL of the candles in the lounge today (and there are quite a few) hoping for divine intervention so I know how much this is effecting him too. Caitlyn is around as it is raining but right now I just want to curl up in a ball, cry and wake up when the results are in.
No need to respond. I just need to get it out or explode :(
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Hey sweetheart I know how hard this is :comfort: I tried calling you last evening as I didn't want you to feel alone or frightened. :hug:
I don't get the older generations sometimes - but I know that they love you. I think they don't know what to say, or they don't want to hear stuff that's too hard for them to process.
I feel so incredibly sad hearing how you are feeling - you have so much to process & this is an inordinately stressful time. I feel completely impotent not being able to do anything.
If you want to talk, cry or debrief I am your girl... I am going out in about half an hour to pick up Lucy from a birthday party. I will be gone about an hour I suspect. After that I am home - just Lucy & I so I can talk to you as long as you like. I can cry with you, laugh with you or just be silent and hear you.
Don't do this alone if you don't want to. You are such a beautiful Being - so giving and so full of love. It's your time to receive it back darling. I thought of Caitlyn this afternoon as we have a massive storm coming and the clouds are gathering. I actually smiled and said: "you're watching your Mama hey sweet girl"... Finn said; "how're talking to Mum?' :lol:
Big cuddles and so much love. :hug:
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Michelle, I know it sucks when family don't care :hug:. I also know it's very small comfort, but you have your BB family who do care very much. :hug:
I have a sick little boy on my hands. Poor bugger. Seems that me and DH are also getting it - so not what we need right now!
BW
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Michelle, I'm so sorry that family are making this harder than it needs to be right now :( :hug: I hear you, I really do, and it sucks. I am so sad that you are going through this.........I wish I could give you an IRL hug. As for little people picking up on the tension........understanding that one too ;). It's tough, that's for sure, but you can only do what you can do - they will not be affected in the long term by what happens over these few days. Just being there with lots of cuddles for them will help. Hang in there lovely, not long to go now :hug:
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I am getting lots of cuddles from the little ones. They seem to need the contact as much as me ;) And I know my family love me but far out - how hard is it to make a *@*$#$%* phone call. Just once get over your own inability to *cope* and call me :angry: Particularly when you will be here tomorrow for most of the week INCLUDING result day :wall: They are probably just waiting to see me rather than call me but my goodness that is not what I need right now and it is going to make for one interesting visit. They did this during the infertility process and it took a long time to forgive that one. The IL's called DH yesterday. Why does my family (including my sister) have to be soooooooooooooooooooooooooo self absorbed that I don't warrant a phone call??
Again, just venting ;) DH doesn't need this on top of everything else. He has picked up the kiddie stuff today and is up bathing them at the moment. He is one very special man. I think I need to hit something but I am banned from vigorous exercise for 2-3 days :rolleyes: Meditate, meditate, meditate before I consider the desire to decapitate ..........
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Your right Michelle, its about thier inability to cope, and they probably dont realise that their inaction is hurting you more :hug: to and DH. Vent away hun, yes id say you should meditate rather than decapitate, but I understand, maybe some fresh air would do you all good. Thinking of you...
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Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry they haven't phoned, I completely agree though, they probably just don't know what to say or how to act, but still, you'd think they would put themselves out there - especially for their own daughter. I'm glad Caitlyn is around & glad the Little People are giving you heaps of cuddles as well. I'm so sorry you're going through this, but in 3 days time you're going to have the biggest, hugest grin on your face my friend & this day of tears will be a distant memory!
It must be the day for meltdowns, I have had a HUGE one today. It's been coming for a couple of days now, maybe even a little over a week, but boy did I let the floodgates open today. I couldn't tell you the last time I cried like this. The last time the kids MADE me cry like this. They have been absolute royal brats. Alan phoned & I cried my heart out down the phone to him & I felt horrible, but I just couldn't stop. I can't even growl at them because I am just crying too much, I hate it. My eyes look just sensational & everytime I stop crying & get on with something, it starts all over again.
Hoping a good night's sleep stops it.
Love Jayne xx
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Michelle, no great words of wisdom dear lady, but I certainly understand how you feel re. lack of understanding from family. I really get peeved when people need to make your stuff about them - yep, get over it, it's about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! More fool them, but they are your family - but I would let them know you felt hurt by their lack of contact, you could have really just done with a kind word at the very least.
It's been such a huge time for you, and I think post-amnio is on the one hand such a huge relief/relese, but now on the other hand you are stressed waiting for the results, and still running through all the scenarious in your heart and head. I'm so glad and you are very lucky to have the love and support of your DH. We are all with you hon during this really b.oody difficult time.
Hugs, Lee xo
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Lee - you said it perfectly. It is such a relief and yet still so stressful not knowing which way the dice will fall. Thank you :hug:
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Oh honey big big cuddles again. I am so sorry they have disappointed this way. :comfort:
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It sounds like we all need a lot of :hug: right now. Thinking of you all.
I have family here so haven't been able to pop in much, but finally have a chance. DD had a lovely birthday yesterday, my parents arrived just in time and she is loving her trampoline that we bought her. DS had a shocker of a night last night, barely slept at all so I can commiserate with those of you also not getting enough sleep.
I have just figured out what I need to do to get an avatar and am thinking of what to get. So exciting! BW - love your new avvy. Sorry to hear Sam is sick, I hope he gets better soon.
Michelle - thinking of you love. I know this wait must be so stressful and your family sound like they are just making things worse. And I hate how kids always pick up on stress and make things even worse!
megsmum - I think that was lovely of you to share your experience with your DD with Deb. It must be hard for you to cope with it not knowing exactly how it will affect her. Sounds like you are doing a wonderful job.
spring - thanks for the encouragement re coping with 2 kids, I hope it gets easier for me soon! I am sure I will work it out, I just need to get a routine sorted. Thankfully DD has been a little angel so far which is really helping. You reminded me of my uni days describing what you used to get up to! I did Law too so maybe there is something in the drunk lawyer thing as Janie said?!
Janie - so glad to hear that the last CTG went well, it sounds like you are coping really well and things are sounding up.
Willow - sorry to hear you sounding down hun, I hope you get a good nights sleep tonight. And woohoo on finding a dress! Sometimes it can be so hard, especially when you have something you need a new dress to wear too and nothing you can find is quite right!
Bek - good to hear from you hun, hope you get some more sleep tonight
Laney - sorry about the BFN, I hope it just too early. Have you tested again?
Sequioa - a cleaner is a great idea! I have one once a week and it is a lifesaver. Ouchies on the patella injury, sounds painful.
Jayne - big :hug: sweetie, I hope you feel better after your meltdown. Sometimes it is just what you need! Glad to hear your BIL is home now, although it sounds like he has a long road ahead of him. What a horrible accident it must have been.
Lee - it is lovely to hear you so in love with your little man. He really is a little cutie - I love the new pic of him in your ticker.
mako - glad to hear your OB appointment went well. Good luck for your appointment with Dr S.
Lisa - it really does sound like you are nesting sweetie! Hope you managed to get everything sorted today.
Jo - I'm glad to hear your dr got back to you so quickly. I hope your HCG is rising nicely.
Gotta get going as the little man has decided he is hungry yet AGAIN! Gees do i feel like a cow these days. Hoping to get a little more sleep today before I completely crash. Wish me luck!
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Well - not being one for subtlety I rang my parents. They don't really have an excuse :rolleyes: except for minor flooding of the back room from the rain, a leaking roof and needing to dry everything before coming down for the week. Still not happy and Dad knows that. I told him how insignificant I felt :( After many tears he is at least aware of how I feel and although they have no real excuse they are MORE than aware of how hurt I am. It gives me fresh air for the week with them.
Bun - sending you sleep vibes :hug:
