Parenting after Miscarriage or Loss ~ December 09

Oh Mako hun, I am so so sorry sweety. I am thinking of you and your little angel. I just wish it wasnt so :hug:

thinking of all our angels today xx

This has been the cruddiest week ever.

My Nan was taken to hospital late last week. She hasn't been well for months and has seen doctor after doctor. She had two colonoscopies which didn't find anything. After the second procedure, she kept telling my aunties she 'just didn't feel right'. So my Aunty made her an appt to go back and see the specialist that performed this procedure. He had one feel of her tummy and sent her straight to the hospital. She has a mass in her stomach and they're positive it's cancer :cry:

I spoke to my mum last night, she travelled down to Sydney yesterday and saw her last night. She said she is in good spirits but things are looking 'very bad'. :( She is having a liver biopsy done today (Michelle, they're transferring her to your work to have this done) and then her dr has said the oncologists will meet with the results to decide whether to proceed with chemo or palliative care :cry:

I'm so devastated not only for me but especially for my Mum and for DD who adores her Grandma. She is the matriarch of our family and everybody will be so devastated. Since becoming a mother myself, I have even more admiration for her - a woman that traveled half way around the world during war to be with my Grandfather (an English sailor whom she met at Bondi while waitressing :) I love that story...), raised 5 babies, survived the loss of one to lukemia at 16. She is just an amazing, loving woman. I need to tell her that.

I am preparing myself to spend our last Christmas with her. Just doesn't seem real...

Sorry for the selfish post, I know everyone has their own stuff on at the moment. The world seems like a cruddy place sometimes...

Willow: Oh babe, :hug: :hug: and more :hug: I am so very sorry to hear about your Nan. Please don't lose hope yet. I know it is really really difficult but please just wait and see what the results bring and take it from there. I hope and pray with everything that she is going to be ok.

Mako: Hun, I have no wise words other than to say I'm so so so sorry you guys are going through this pain. I hope that you guys have a safe trip and get to spend some quality time together. :comfort:

Jayne: How is your BIL going? Any news on his arm. I hope it is only good news.

It seems like there is just so much bad news ATM. I found out earlier in the week a very good friend has had a mc after trying for a year. A number of members of my family have had terrible luck at the moment and there are operations and test going on left right and centre. I think we all need a :grouphug:

Here's to 2010 being a year full of blessing and good fortune.

AFM I'm doing ok, just busy and starting to really slow down. I'm more pregnant today then I've ever been so I'm proud of that.

Lv Spring xx

Oh Willow, I am so sorry about your gran hun. Try to stay positive and spend as much precious time with her as you can. I lost my gran, who had a similar life story to yours and she was my rock and best friend. I was devastated when we lost her but happy that she was mine in this lifetime and that ill have precious memories to treasure forever. Hugs to you and your family and may the miracle of Christmas be with you all xxx

Hugs to all and I truly believe the new year will bring love, light, happiness and tiny miracles where needed.

Lis xx

Willow - :hug: I am at work tomorrow if you are popping through. I can catch up with you or see your Nan if you want me too :hug: I am so sorry :(

Spring - I am so proud of you hun :hug: One step closer, one day nearer.

Busy day here. Trying to get lots done and just amazed that this time last year I had my first contractions and went "oh yeah, I remember now" LOL Miss Moo is even more beautiful and I am feeling even more blessed in the light of this week. We were feeding last night and she pulled off and laughed a wicked, cheeky laugh before reattaching. The second time she pulled off and blew me a kiss (she says *mwah*) before reattaching. Moments like these a precious.

May 2010 bring some peace, hope, love and blessings to the many beautiful people who deserve it so much :grouphug:

Willow - I can't believe all the bad news going around atm.. and right before Christmas, it just doesn't seem fair. Hang in there and pray for some good news. You never know but even if it is bad news, spend as much time as you can with her and remember her amazing, long life and the great things that she has done and try to celebrate that with her as much as possible. Take care.

I still can't believe Mako's devistating news.. it's just not fair.

AFM.. we've had a bit of a breakthrough with Luke this week... we managed to get rid of his dummy!!! I still can't believe how easy it has been, he just decided he was ready to throw them in the bin... so the dummy fairy could take them to the babies that needed them more than he did.. and so off we went to the bin. Amazing. The dummy fairy bought him a great train set and he's been really good. He's asked for it a few times but when we remind him what he did, he's fine about it and hasn't even cried about it once. He's not going down to sleep quite as easily though and I can't get him to sleep during the day anymore. But he's 2.5 and I guess he might not need the day sleep anymore??? Not sure about that one and welcome any advice. He was sleeping for about 2-3 hours a day last week but he was waking really early in the morning, at least now he doesn't wake quite as early!

I'm praying that we all have a wonderful Christmas and New Year... 2010 better bring some pretty amazing things for all of us. Take care.

Kel xxx

Willow I am so so sorry darling heart. My thoughts & prayers are with you and your Gran. :hug:

:happybirthday: Miss Lily & happy birthing day to her gorgeous Mama Michelle... :hug:

Mako - I'm so sorry to hear that your little bub has grown wings :hug: It is so not fair that this could happen to someone at all, let alone more than once. Take care of yourself over the Xmas break :hug:

Willow - :hug: I'm very sorry about your Nan. I agree with the lother ladies though, try to hold onto hope because you never know. We are going through cancer with my Dad ATM and have been very worried about him pulling through too, but so far so good - you have to hold onto that hope.

Hi everyone else and thanks again for the welcomes, will BBL for some persies when I get a bit more of a chance.

Just popping in to send Willow big big hugs and wish Miss Lily a very happy 1st birthday!!

We are ALL sick here, me being the worst 6 days and counting. Finally got in to the GP by being a bully and walked away with meds for Stells and I so hopefully we wont feel so cruddy on chrissy day.

Thanks so much guys. I'll be OK, it's just so sad. I kinda 'knew' it was coming the last 6 months or so. She just hasn't been right.

Michelle - I hope Lily has had a wonderful birthday! A year gone already huh? It's crazy. Spoke to mum earlier and they're doing the biopsy tomorrow now. There was talk of doing it at the hospital she's in so they may not transfer her after all. If I'm coming in to your work I'll let you know. Thank you :hug:

Freya - Can't believe you guys are sick on your holiday - that bites. Hope you're all feeling better in time for the big day!

Spoke to Mako earlier today. She seems to be doing OK in the circumstances. They decided to still go away for Christmas and left today. I might manage to see her over the holidays as I won't be too far from her at my parents place (if we still go, I guess it depends on what happens with my Nan). If I do, I'll give her a big hug from you all.

D has had two unsettled nights, not sure what's up but hope to get some more sleep tonight...Mama is tired.

Sam Happy First Birthday!!!!

Lilly Happy First Birthday!!!!


Willow - I am sorry to hear about your gran. I lost mine in a similar way. It is so hard on the famliy to loss a person who has been an inspiration and given you unconditional love.

Mako - I know yoy won't see this message but I am deeply saddened for you loss. Please look after youself and we'll see you back when you are ready.

Spring - How u doing?

Freya - Get better vibes

Kelly - Whoot for Master Luke

Rach - I am sorry to read what you went through. I felt so angry for you (hugs)

Not the best day here, but nothing compared with everyone else. My MCHN has confirmed that Eva's head has a flat spot and she picked up that her feet are turned in more than the normal. I got a lecture about not bringing her in sooner etc, so I feel like a terrible mum. Plus the others decided to play up during my visit and she gave me a positive parenting booklet. Then I got home and DH went off about the credit card bill...hmmm

Love to all

Happy birthday Lily! This year has gone way too fast.

Willow, really sorry to hear about your nan. :hug:

I feel ill because I've lost my phone. I'm stressing badly and can't find it anywhere! I've got nightmarish visions of Sam hiding it in a bin... which were put out and emptied yesterday... :(

BW

Oh Bek :hug: you poor thing - that's definitely a ROTTEN day! Don't pay any attention to the Postitive Parenting book - you're a great mum and that woman saw 5 not so great minutes of your kids behaviour. She knows nothing!

I had a few comments from Drs about one of L's feet being turned in (and this was before the broken leg so wasn't related). It hasn't eventuated into anything so I wouldn't be too concerned. Do you have a paed you could take her to?

If it makes you feel better, I have NEVER taken D to the MCHN. My midwife on the discharge program didn't even send our file across :lol: I have taken him to the paed more times than I care to remember though, so I feel like I've got it covered.

BW - Sorry hun, I think I forgot to wish Sam a happy birthday the other day - so :happybirthday:!!!

Happy Birthday to the gorgeous Lily. :happybirthday: I hope you've had a wonderful day sweetie.

Thanks girls :D We are currently having cuddles on the lounge as we wind down for bed. Seems like only yesterday I was texting the news of her arrival.

BW - just send out the call if you need to replace numbers :hug:

Happy 1st Birthday Lily - you are so precious and I cant believe your 1 already!!

Michelle - Sounds like you had a great day for Lily's 1st birthday!!

Ok lovely ladies... I think we need a bit of good news in here... so it's about time I shared some with you (although after everything that's been going on and the very sad news from Mako, I was a bit reluctant). But.. I really need the support right now, so it's time to share. I'm pregnant!! Yep... I got my much anticipated BFP last week (of course I didn't wait and tested on Tuesday) and haven't told anyone yet (other than DH of course)!! I think I'm in shock still and telling people makes it so real and very scary, so we just haven't said anything. I'm going to wait until after Christmas to tell my Mum.. just don't want to worry her before then.. and I know she won't be able to keep it to herself. I'm a big fan of telling people and celebrating pg but probably won't tell quite as many people this time!! By my calculations (which are not very reliable), I'm only about 5w 1d and due late August. I have my first ob appointment on Jan 4 so will know more then and head back to Perth on the 9th Jan, so hopefully all will be well and we can tell all our friends in person... I'm so excited but absolutely terrified aswell. This is going to be the worst few weeks. I'm have been feeling pretty good, up until last night, but didn't get sick with DS, which makes it even harder. I'm really bloated though and feel like I have a HUGE tummy already.. what's with that!!??

I feel like crap today, mainly because we had the night from hell with DH, he was screaming for 2 hours from midnight and I'm exhausted. There wasn't anything wrong with him, I think he's just dealing with not having the dummy to get him back to sleep and wanted to come into our bed, which I don't really want to start, so we stuck to our guns... and so did he. It was terrible.

Anyway, I'm really sorry for the selfish post, just had to finally share this news with all of the very special people in here.

Kel xxx

Kelly - Congratulations!!! I was just thinking about you last night...your silence kinda gave you away honey! ;) LOL. It is very thoughtful of you to wait, but I'm sure Mako will be very happy for you :hug:

I'd better go, off to get my hair done today and maybe even squeeze in a pedicure :) DH is taking all 3 kids in to work for a visit - the first time he's had all 3 on his own...may the force be with him! Bwwwwahahahaha!