I feel that since DD was born I have had so many fears of her being taken from me.
My mind is always turning to the worst.
It has gotten worse since I joined a cause on FB for the awareness of SIDS and I read the wall posts and was in tears for all these parents or people who knew someone who had their child taken from them by SIDS. I couldnt even begin to imagine what these parents are going through each day.
I am finding it sometimes consuming me and dont know how to deal with it.
I have also had awful nightmares about DD dying and I know its because I am worrying about it.
Some examples:
- I was bathing DD and was thinking what if her head went under water and she drowned (I know she wouldnt because I am with her but it still play on my mind)
- I accidently bumped her head on the roof of the car when I was getting her in her seat today and I was thinking the whole way home what if I have given her bruising on her brain??
- When I put her down each night I check on her constantly just checking she isnt face down.
There are lots more but I wont write them all.
How do I deal with? Does anyone feel the same way?
I just love her so much, she is my world.
Is this something that a parent always feels no matter how old their children get??
Probably a dumb post but felt I needed to get it out.
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