Because I'm mean. And I'm cross. As DS told me this morning.

I feel so hurt, I do get cross and I do punish them - when they aren't behaving, when they do something I've just told them not to do, when they do something they know they aren't allowed to do.

I try to be casual about things, but obviously I'm not succeeding. And yes, I do feel myself starting to be very overwhelmed with things, the kids take it out of me so much and after yesterday being such a crappola day, I actually had to leave the house for 10 minutes for a bawl last night.

I know I don't make it easy on myself because of the house being on the market so there is the stress there that the house won't sell, stress that I don't know where I will birth the next one, and stress most of all because I don't think I can handle 4 children and I wonder what the hell am I doing being pregnant again.

I just wanted to destress a little here and have a whinge.