Ok so need a debrief to help me deal with the last week.
DD1 has had a long history of separation anxiety related to leaving me - she can't sleep through the night and jumps in with us every night. We've made heaps of progress with getting her to be able to relax and drift off on her own in her own bed. She got upset at being left at kinder/child care - we managed to get some routines in place to help minimise the anxiety and get things reasonably manageable.
last week school started and we had some slight wobbles with a little worry about leaving me but all ok, rushed off with her crew and all good. Until we trialled after school care and she completely fell apart - mostly cos she didn't know what was happening and what to expect. I was able to get there at 4pm and found her in tears, sobbing at a table colouring in. She looked distraught and became even more distressed when she saw me.
We have tried to get some ideas in place to help with the routine in terms of making sure she gets afternoon teas asap as she arrives and getting her a buddy as well. She was refusing to go to school today as she had 'a tummy ache' and was hysterical when it was time to go in with the teacher.
I feel so awful, like I have let her down.
I really need to work to keep things rolling and keep my job/role but have emailed my boss to see if we can set something up to leave early for a bit (professional suicide in my industry which worries me somewhat). I know it is early days and quite a strange routine mixed with being the little fish in a big pond and am so desperately hoping we can improve things.
OK back to it.