hun dont be so hard on yourself i have those meltdowns nearly everyday.... sometimes u just wanna smash ur head between the front screen door n the security door...
kids will be kids n wat they do as tantrums is there expertise... no one can do it better... but u need to take a step back and take a deep breath at times more then u think...
u dont suck ur a great mum!!! at least u try n do things that will make him happy xox