First of all THANK YOU all so much for helping me through this. BB has been my backbone today since I started this thread. I cried reading and had to go for a walk for a while.
Your words are so full of love for your little boys that I am drawn in by them and am absorbing the love felt. It will be a process of adjustment for me and I know I need to sleep on it and wake up to start a new day. I can come back to this thread tomorrow and reread all your beautiful and loving descriptions of little boys and brothers with a clear head and embrace the boy I am nurturing inside me.
I also want to share that the ultrasound went very well, my placenta is not low this time and the placenta also has good blood flow (had a placental abruption at 29 weeks but they do not know why) so no known risks to cause another premmie situation AND I will be trying to a VBAC.

