This pregnancy was a huge shock to me, wasn't expecting to get pg so soon, but a happy surprise anyway...
I was fully prepared to give a vba2c a go.
I knew it would mean going in to battle with the hospital again, but I was hoping that from my experience last time, I knew better now.

That dream was shattered at my 21wk antenatal appointment.
results from my morphology scan showed the placenta is anterior, covering my previous (2) cs scar (s)
also low lying just on the margin of os.

The attending OB said that all the senior Obs had a meeting regarding my desire for a VBA2c, their answer to this was "a big fat no" due to my risk factors for Accreta.
The placenta being where it is, my age, previous uterine surgeries (d&cs etc, all up I've had about 8) plus some others I cant recall now...put me at about a 60% chance of having it.
The placenta could very well move, it would be great if it did as that would mean less indication of accreta.

The OB was quite surprised that I even knew what she talking about...if it wasn't for the VBAC australia group on FB, I wouldnt have.

so the plan is that in 2 weeks time at 28 weeks I will be going back for another scan to determine where placenta is and to look for other signs of accreta.
If better images needed or any indication of accreta presents then I will also be having an MRI.

Depending on severity of what they find I will be scheduled for a cs at either 32 or 34 weeks

I went home and cried, bawled, I was terrified....I know all about accreta, increta and precreta, its scary stuff.
I dont want to lose my uterus, I dont want to possibly die...
I really dont want to be having a baby that early either...

I did start thinking that maybe, just maybe they (the hospital) were trying to scare me out having a VBa2c (theyre not very supportive of vbac full stop) but if that is the case then they are monsters...evil, devil, monsters...

I've done my (peer reviewed, proper studies, acog, Ranzcog etc) research, I've joined the support groups, I'M SCARED.
This is not something that I ever dreamed I would ever have to think about...

I only ever wanted 3 children, but the thought of having the possibility of ever having any more just ripped away from me is unbearable...

I had a rough time after my first cs and ended up with 3 units of blood transfused afterwards, I was a mess for a long time after that birth. MWs and obs still comment on the fact that my blood count was so low...
I dont want to go through that again...

ok, so rationally, I can tell myself that I dont even know if its a problem yet...there is no diagnosis, its just suspected...
BUT...accreta is very tricky to diagnose prior to birth, even if all these scans and MRIs show nothing...there is still the possibility...
I keep telling myself that its better for them to suspect it and have all that blood ready for massive transfusions etc, just in case...even though it means surgery...its more likely I will live.

I cant even think about worst case scenarios, like increta or percreta...if it comes to that, well I will deal at the time...

The best thing I thought I had going was that I had shown no bleeding, classed as asymptomatic...yay..
but then I awoke on Easter saturday to a bleed, not a huge one but a bleed none the less. I left DS6 with DF and took DS1 with me to hospital.
they did a quick scan in the labour and delivery ward and confirmed that the placenta has had no movement (not great) gave me an incredibly painful VE, then sent me up to the postnatal/gyne ward...expected to stay 24-48 hrs...
The bleeding had stopped before I even got to hospital, I had a chat with a few of the nurses and then decided to discharge myself, I didnt want to miss out on Easter with my boys.
I have been put on "pelvic rest" no sex, lifting heavy objects etc..

I've not heard anything back from the hospital so I assume its just all now a waiting game, 2 more weeks until this scan...

anyone else been through similar? want to share your experience?
I'm not in a very good headspace about all this, I guess I just needed to get all that out..