Thanks for your replies
I don't think its possible for me to be any more terrified than I already am Lol
I'm assuming that if this scan shows anything the obs I see next appointment will be going through all my options with me...if not I'll be demanding it and requesting some sort of counselling...
I'm also really worried about how my boys will cope if in a worst case scenario I end up in hospital for more than a week or have to be at hospital for a long time due to bubs being in nicu.
Ds6 has just had an ASD diagnosis, I'm currently working with the school trying to integrate him from half days to full days part time, plus all his psych, ot and other appointments...its been pretty good for me to throw myself at that rather than dwell on all maybes of this pregnancy, but I'm worried how that's going to affect him and his schooling, not to mention my still bfing toddler who will only be 15-16 months when delivery of bub happens...I'm torn between wanting to wean him off now so its easier for his dad to cope with in the case of something going wrong or just hoping all goes well and just keep on keeping on...
My mum and dad are an incredible support and I know they will go above and beyond to help out in any way they can, mum has already looked into getting carers leave from her job.
Df is scared as well and jumps between that and saying we don't know anything and its all going to be fine...but I know its stressing him out thinking about work, leave, payments etc...and the kids, then me and the new bub on top of that...
Its just a nightmare not knowing...