Pregnancy after Late Loss, Recurrent Miscarriage or Stillbirth ~ November 2010

Hi Dory--
I don't remember which forums that I said stuff on...but I am miscarrying AGAIN. DARN IT ALL. There was no heartbeat at 6 weeks, measuring too small, etc, etc. We were told that the pregnancy isn't viable...despite the IVF being a success in many ways. My symptoms vanished seemingly overnight before our appointment so I had a "heads up," but this is difficult to take 'cause my body is still holding on, so to speak. Like it can't make up its mind...no pun intended.
Congrats to you and all the ladies.
I will be MIA for a while. Hope you understand.

I WANT A TAKE HOME BABY.

sorry, I just needed to scream that to the universe, somewhere.

AND I MISS MY SON.

okay, now I am going to be quiet.

I am so sorry to hear that hun. Huge, big sqeeshy hugs :hug::hug::hug: I really hope and pray that you will have a take home baby one day. It must be hard missing your wee man, I miss mine so much too. If you ever need to chat, pm me hun. I come on here every now and then, when I have the energy to post! I've also had the IVF treatment. I lurk more than I post, and meant to welcome you to belly, sorry hun.

B xox

Lys - I thought she might've read the notes that were on the computer and also in front of her.. oh well it's done now I will be making a complaint about her though.

Dory - I don't tear up I dont know why I feel bad for not..All I was thinking is "dont yell at her" I had DSD who's 3 with me which would've been a bit silly if i did..I have no idea how many times I've had to tell people it just getting silly that I have to repeat myself :(. Im getting better I had a bit of a sleep in today which felt good I probably needed it lol.Oh FX for you hun hopefully its not the flu.

SaS - Big hugs to you hun Im so sorry that it wasnt a sticky bub. My thoughts are with you and I hope and pray you will get that take home baby soon.

AFM - Not much going on here, I dont know if I told you ladies but DF got a new job doing the grain harvest out in the bush so we will be moving there very soon. Oh and only 13 weeks till I hold my beautiful baby girl! I'm getting more and more excited :)

TM im sorry the mid didnt read ur notes before u saw her, one of my biggest fears this time around. thankfully though ive been dealing with people who were there when jack was born so its been better.
We're having another girl. im struggling with this news majorly atm

Don't tell my husband, but I wish I was in this thread... Damn it, I'm the one who convinced him to have 3-5 years between kids! Now I want another baby next year and I know he won't go for it... :wall: I should've let him have his way when we first discussed it, he said 1-2 years :lol:


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Sky - I understand why its a fear now.. Im lucky as I didn't go to the hospital with Tyler for appt's etc only to my local gp. I do wish that I had've though so it would be easier.Congrats on a wee girl hun. It'll take time to get your head around it but you will. Sorry to ask but why are you struggling with the news? You may have said a while ago but i'm not to sure sorry if you did.

Teni - Why not talk to your DH about having another one?

Sunshine - it was the other thread... scream and shout all you want... like miss B said, big squishy hugs.

Tylers Mummy - good that you're getting excited. Thanks for asking after me, its very sweet of you.

Sky - be kind to yourself as you process your feelings about having another little girl... I could say some stuff but I think in the end it would just be me putting my own thoughts on to you and you don't need that. Just sit with your feelings a while. They are valid feelings and it's good to go through them now. Hugs.

Teni - you can convince Scott... but before you do, why did you think you wanted a gap of 3-4 years? Give cuddles to your princess from us.

It's weird how we all go through similar emotional responses to some things. I was petrified of going back to the hossy where Amelia was born, but I made myself go back a few times immediately after she was born and then later too, shaky legs, roiling tummy, not sure if I'd collapse or not. It was hard, but I wanted to overcome my fears. Afterall, it was the place where my first child was born. It was the place I first got to meet her, hold her, tell her I loved her and just gaze upon her pure perfection. I wanted to have those as memories too, and not just remembering it as the place my hopes and dreams came crashing down and the place where she died. So since then? I went back to the same hossy for Sophie's birth. Not for Nicholas as I wasn't admitted to hossy for his arrival. And then I went back to the same place for Hannah. Being a repeat customer the service was pretty good. The staff were all sensitive to us and kind with our tender little hearts. So my hope is that once you overcome the fear, that a little bit of the fear will be replaced by a little bit of tenderness for the place where you got to meet your darling little angels. Now when I go back I stop outside the birth suites and at each room we were in and tell Hannah a little story about each one.

Teni.. come join us in here... :)

Sunshine I'm so sorry xx big hugs

Dory how r u going hun?

Skye I know it must be hard hun. My thougts are with you and your DH and family. Have you told DH about your gender disapointment does he feel the same? Hugs honey. Take all the time you need to get around those feelings. Although they may not magically go away, I know you will love your precious rainbow baby bear cub the moment u see her. Xx hugs x

OB appt in 2 weeks. 2 weeks... It feels like its dragging now... Now that I'm over half way. I just want to get to 26 weeks to be able to feel safe. Although we got really good shots of bubbas heart on the scan, I just don't know. I don't want a repeat.

Bubs has been kicking and I don't feel hugely pregnant my belly is small and keep getting the "omg u r tiny for 22weeks" blah blah blah... I haven't been able to stomach much as I've had insane heartburn and indegestion issues. Pharmacist has got me to try zantac.. which worked last night yay.

Anyways I'd best go pick my DH up from the airport, and bring him home. Busy day ahead. Have a good day everyone.

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Teni.. come join us in here... :)

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Nah, I'd feel like a fake being in a pregnancy thread when we're not even TTC...

Dory: I originally said it because my brothers and I have 5 years between each of us, so that's all I really know. I reduced it to 3-4 because I want more (live) kids than my mum has. Plus I was scared of dealing with a toddler and a newborn at the same time. Turns out, as much as I complained earlier this year, I actually am pretty good at the newborn stage :lol: So I figure, give myself a new challenge :p

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Nah, I'd feel like a fake being in a pregnancy thread when we're not even TTC...

Dory: I originally said it because my brothers and I have 5 years between each of us, so that's all I really know. I reduced it to 3-4 because I want more (live) kids than my mum has. Plus I was scared of dealing with a toddler and a newborn at the same time. Turns out, as much as I complained earlier this year, I actually am pretty good at the newborn stage :lol: So I figure, give myself a new challenge :p

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Well ttc then lol

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Tashybabe - Im unsure weather or not you read this forum but big hugs too you for tomorow hun.. I will be thinking of you xx.

AFM - Last night I had a bit of a downer, I was on DF's facebook as his brother and SIL are expecting a baby to be born soon and so I had a look at there profile where his SIL had wrote on Monday that she only had 24 days to go... Which means that DF's first nephew will be born on the day our son died.... I broke down a massive wave of sadness came over me and I just stared at DF saying "you know when there having him dont you?". I couldn't stop crying I know that it cant be helped that there babe will come when hes ready but why on that day.... I just feel so fxxking crap, I want Tylers birth and death date to be his in this family but no :( ah this is so sxxt. Well my rants over.. We have DSD's birthday this weekend she will be 3. Tomorow night I will be lighting a candle in memory of Tyler and also other angels gone to soon.
Thinking of all you ladies tomorow it is a hard day xx

I am officially here, in my own right, and not as a voyuer. CD 32 and a BFP! Must get myself a ticker.... BBL

Belly rubs.

Tylers Mum - hope you're feeling better after news like that. Hope the 3rd birthday went well for DSD.

Dores!!!!!!!!!!!!!!woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

**** dory!!!!!!!!!! Congratulations!!! I'm so bloody happy and excited for you!!!

:leap: Dory!!!! Oh my goodness! Congrats, lovely lady :D

Omg Dory that's awesome news. Congratulations sweet xxx

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Wow! Congratulations Dory! So glad I decided to stalk this thread this morning!