Pregnancy after Late Loss, Recurrent Miscarriage or Stillbirth ~ November 2011

Oh Miss B I'm so sorry that your little one couldn't stay.

Dory - you weren't ignoring me I understand that and what February means to you, I was just reaching out to everyone. Amelia's birthday sounds so beautiful, I can't think of anything more perfect than a butterfly release. That's so nice of your friend, I hope she realises that even a homemade gift and card is more meaningful at times like these than words can ever express. I also understand and have often mentioned that my biggest fear would have to be people forgetting Isabel, especially the important people in your life like friends and family. But unfortunately they seem to be, to start off with I'd get flowers and texts and this year nothing, heartbreaking (not for me but for a family member forgotten IYKWIM).
You're so organised having your bag pack already. How did the Steroid injection go? Hopefully the side effects weren't to bad.

AFM - nothing much has been happening. It was Isabel's 3rd birthday last month and I was a bit of a wreck, but made it through somehow. We went to see her for her birthday as usual with cupcake birthday cakes and flowers (they always have such nice flowers on Isabel's birthday because of Valentine's Day). I'm not sure why but I found myself reliving the year Isabel was born a lot more this time, which made it hard.

I hope everyone else is going well and that the saying "no news is good news" is appropriate.

Miss B. I am so sorry hun.

How is everyone else doing? I have been missing for a while adjusting to life with 3 boys under the age of 3. Feeling like i can't do anything right or give any of them all of the attention that they need :( It is getting better every day and i am on a mission to be better at this parenting thing.

Laney.......you are amazing and a wonderful mum, the boys will adjust and so will you. But my heart breaks because you sound so guilty and hard on yourself. You can do it.

KAM....I am sorry fam and friends didn't remember Isabel's birthday. I found it much harder to experience Amelias anniversary this year too. Steriods went ok.

I am currently in hossy. Had some fluid gush out this morning. No show, no blood, no pain, no contractions but in for observation esp with my history. I already miss HB like crazy. Hoping I get to go home tomorrow, still pregnant. FX.

Thank you Laney, KAM and Dory, you ladies are wonderful, I appreciate your lovely messages and for thinking of me. I am going OK, I hope to be in here again very soon.

Dory, I hope everything is OK sweetie. Thinking of you and I hope you're out of the hossy very very soon to be with your darling HB. Big hugs lovely :hug:

Laney, you ARE such an awesome mummy, don't be too hard on yourself. Being mum to 3 children (they are still babies!) who are still so young would be a very hard job. But you CAN do it and and believe me, those boys feel so loved every single day. Don't think they are missing out on the attention. They have everything they need right in front of them :) Sending you many hugs too :hug:

KAM, it sounds lovely what you did for Isabel for her 3rd birthday. Big hugs to you also, I know how hard those bitrhdays can be :hug:

b xoxo

I just thought I'd drop in to let you all know that Violet was born on the 7th at 9:49pm weighing 8 pound 11 1/2 ounces.

I hope everyone else is going well.

Woo hoo!!!!!! Huge congrats KAM, and welcome to this world Miss Violet!! Take time to recover and enjoy your precious little lady hun :) Very proud of you sweetie :loveshower:

KAM - congratulations on the safe arrival of Violet!!!!! Recover well, I am going to check the BA's now. Hope you are enjoying your newborn snuggles.

Miss B - thankyou.

Just an update - on 1 April I had a suspected premature rupture of the membranes. I was hospitalised for 5 days. A scan showed low amniotic fluid. But Raspberry Bear was doing well especially the kidney's. Low liquor can indicate kidney problems with bubs, as by the thrid tri a massive 500ml can be passed by the baby each day!!!! Anyway I was discharged on strict bed rest, but without any sign of infection, or labour starting. PHEW. A subsequent scan has showed the liquor level to have increased slightly, baby still doing well and no signs of any other trouble .

It's been agonising time, relief to get to a gestation where life saving treatment could be offered, and scared witless that we would need it. So far we've managed to eek about another 2 weeks, so bubs is now 29 weeks. I am taking it easy, although I am allowed to do more now. I am still cautious about lifting HB ( who is a healthy 12.5 kgs now). Well that means I don't lift her at all. We are getting used to it now, both of us. I miss my pick up cuddles.

Hope all is going well elsewhere. I am not getting notifications and have to rely on my memory to check in.

Glad to hear all is well Dores xxx

Sky - thanks sweetie. It is a relief that I've eeked out another 3 weeks.... but I have to have some bt's tomorrow as I have the itchies all over, which can mean a problem with my liver enzymes called obstetric cholestatis ( not sure of the spelling). The possible complications sent a deep chill into my little heart. But trying not to get ahead of myself. Just need to tests back first, and then worry or not. How is your lil bear cub going? How are M & S doing as big sisters?

Sigh, this pregnancy caper is so hard.... exciting, but scary. Sometimes I wonder why I was niaive enough to think I could get through either emotionally or to believe we'd get a take home baby. Just the usual worry of a mumma who's walked our journey, nothing in particular.

I have a cat resting on my arms as I type. He came a cropper today somehow and has taken a massive amount of fur from one leg on the inside - from tummy to wrist. And some from behind his back legs. Me thinks he is need of some snuggles and lovin. Only too happy to oblige. :)

Take care.

YAY - good news - 32 weeks, only 1 more week to go until 32 completed weeks... my mini goal. And I don't have that liver enzyme issue - just the itchies, which I will take any day. Still anxious, but that's to be expected. The fur baby is ok too. Licking my arm as I type, which in all honesty is a bit icky.

32 weeks is fabulous Dory :) So happy that you have gotten this far.. What's another 8wks hey!!!

Kam - Congratulations on the arrival of Violet sorry its late.

dory - Why can't we just have normal pregnancies? Well done to you for being so strong. Not to long now and RB will be in your arms! 34 weeks now you are coming along so well I hope that everything else is ok. How is HB?

DD has got her first cold :( I hate seeing her the way she is poor wee mite

Thanks TylersMummy

I came in to check how everyone is going and noticed your 35 wks Dory, that's awesome, I can't wait to hear all about your new arrival and it's so close now (can you tell I'm just a little bit excited for you).

came in to check on you Dory. I am so happy to see your ticker so close to full term. Are you scheduled for a section or will you try for a v-bac?

Sorry to be awol...

Raspberry Bear is here! Gemma Niamh was born VIA emergency c section on 12 June 2012 ay 10.55 am, 4.115 kg and 53 cm long36.3 hc. She was born at 37+3 but was quite sick. Whilst there have been some amazing improvements she is still unwell.

She is totally gorgeous and I am besotted. She loves her mummas milk and HB adores her baby sister.

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I have been checking in occasionally to see how you were going and I just saw this. Congrats, congrats, congrats. So happy that your precious Gemma is here. I am sorry to hear she is unwell and she will be I my prayers. Wishing her a speeding recovery.

Just poking my head in here, after 18mths ttc I got a bfp (anyone who knows me on fb, it's a secret)

Dory - congrats on the safe arrival of Gemma beautiful news
Hiya jlk great to see you here :)

dory, congratulations! I hope everything is going well. Please give us an update.
Jo!!!!! How exciting!
Klee, glad to see you back in here too!

Jo - how you feeling?
Laney - great to see you, how are you and your beautiful boys, they are gorgeous!
You two might be best to ask this, we found out bubs sex yesterday, still not convinced she got a good look, maybe in denial, but I know you both have lost boys and girls (so sorry you have had to go through both xxx) but how did you cope/handle knowing you were possibly having same sex as you'd lost? I mean that as in I am not coping too well and am interested in any strategies/ mechanisms to help, and not at all unhappy with what we're having just scared of it going the same way

Oh Klee, I am very excited for you! I wish i had some great advise that will make the next few months easier for you. I was a mess through all of my pregnancies and the only thing that helped was to see my doctor often. He was great about giving me extra visits and scans to help me relax. I think having all boys did make things a tiny bit easier for me. After i had one i knew that my body could do it. I'm sure if i had been pregnant with another girl it would have been like starting all over.

we are doing well over here. Adjusting to life with 3 little ones has been an adventure. I feel like things are finally starting to settle down. We decided that our family is complete and that was very difficult for me. I am starting to feel better about it and trying to really enjoy every minute with my boys.

Klee, I found more that I was more upset that I wasn't having a boy after losing Finn, maybe because he was the last one we lost or because I have so many girls I'm not sure, :/
Am doing ok, not many symptoms are doing my head in, I have very sore boobs and am tired but not much else :/

Jo - sore boobs and tiredness and still good symptoms, most of mine didn't kick in til 6 weeks this time, so maybe case for you too, here's hoping xxx

Laney - your doing an amazing job with your boys I bet it took a bit to adjust to having them so close too. I know you would have loved another girl but also know that you wouldn't have it any other ways with your three boys xxx

Thanks ladies, I've decided to see a psych this time to see if that helps, didn't need one with other two but I've been emotional since 6 weeks with this one and it's been showing, so was also referred to one. I am happy to be having a girl, just nervous is all, been suffering headaches, tiredness and dizziness and just finding it a real struggle but got o try and enjoy it somehow

I am really hoping I can enjoy this pregnancy this time too, I hated the whole thing last time, I was so bloody anxious

Spoke to soon on the m/s, feel like crap tonight

Jo, a bit slow here, but Congrats on your pregnancy. m/s and all....you know it's worth it. Wishing you a happy and healrhy preg. Hugs to missT.

Wow......I have been a bubble.

Jo....Congrats! Awesome news, but scary for you. You can do it. I believe in you, and your body.

Klee ...same to you as for Jo. No words of wisdom about coping with gender....we never found out til birth, for any of our babies. Going to see a psych is a great idea.

Miss B...hello.

Laney......wow know what you mean about parentingpoorly. But I am trying to be kind to myself.

UPDATE....Gemma is doing ok. Discharged from hossy 2 weeks ago. She had immature lungs and an infection. She is a lovely baby, but very grunty and noisy in her sleep, which is scary.

Not in a bubble hun, just busy with that beautiful bubba girl

Posting from my ph is hard...

Laney...big decision about your family. We are starting to really think about that...hugs as I know it's hard to let go. Gemma had the same illness in part as Kellen. It was a scary time.

Abby.....hello and hugs to Jetski.

dory not a bubble at all, welcome to your beautiful gemma, think i might be the one in the bubble, i'm sorry to both you and laney as I didn't know Gemma and Kellen were sick, love to you girls xxx
jo hope your doing ok hon, i see you've been sick in bed, hope it all eases up for you
afm - not much here, just plodding along, i learnt a new coping strategy from my social worker, not sure its the best one, but going to use it as so far it seems to be working

Klee - no worries.... we all get in little bubbles, for many reasons, and a pregnancy is a good one. Glad the new strategy is working..... do you mind sharing what it is? No worries if not. How are your boys going? Have you had your "20 week scan"?

Jo - hope you're feeling better today :) I hope your bucket is not your friend....:P

Hope everyone in here is doing well

Jo - how are you doing? It's been pretty hectic for you huh? How is the nausea? How is the bump? How are along are you now? How do the kids feel about another baby in the family?

Am good Dory, still not a lot of nausea but I'm so tired all the time, had a scan on Wednesday so I'm 7 wks today. We Havnt told the kids yet

Hey Jo, I didn't have any nausea or anything with both boys, so don't stress too much, prob a good thing your not suffering from it xxx fantastic news on your scan, little happyz dance for you. When will you tell your kids?

Dory - the new coping strategy was made up from a few questions the social worker asked me, first she asked my feelings, which was terrified and unbearable, her next question was how would i cope if it happened again, my reply was I'd be devastated but i'd have to be strong for my boys, she simply said so it would be bearable, and I thought well yeah I guess it would be, never thought like that before so I'm keeping of the mindset that if it does happen again I will get through it. Probably not the best way to look at it but it's actually taken my focus off my fears which is what I needed.
We had 20 w scan a few weeks ago, all looked ok, still not convinced its a girl have watched DVD few times and googled what to look for and can't see the burger lol. Boys are good, very cheeky, the eldest keeps telling me he wants to marry this one, funny but I guess it shows his love for her already. How are your girls going?

Klee, an OB that was filling in one day for my normal OB said to look for the McDonalds 'm'
Not sure when we will tell the kids, might tell the big ones soon

Thanks Jo, the reference to McDonalds made me laugh, cause got the taste for cheeseburgers at the moment lol, checked again and could see what resembles an m

LOL, he is a funny man this OB, he's semi retired but fills in in his old practice when someone is away and does a weekend on call at the hospital every month, says he can't bring himself to stay away completely

How you going Jo?

klee - going well with the girls...it's awesome, and hard at times. But I am still learning... I guess. It feels right and good. Glad your preg is going well.... I can never spot gender either..... you will manage if the worst was to happen ( speaking from my own experience), but I hope you don't have to.