Pregnancy after Late Loss, Recurrent Miscarriage or Stillbirth ~ November 2011

Hi girls,

I'm sticking my head officially in here :) This thread keeps me sane thanks to all you wonderful ladies.

Just wanted to send the biggest congrats to Laney! Well done on the birth of your gorgeous little boy :)

Skybie, you're almost there hun. Will be thinking of you on Thursday xox

Dory, whatever is going on with hun, I hope you're ok.

Hello to everyone else in here, I look forward to catching up with what everyone is up to.

B xoxox

Sky, thankyou. I can't believe it's Jacks birthday already. Thanks for mentioning it. You all, Moo, Squid, Jack, your lil girl and you will be in my thoughts even more. do you have anything planned? We are going to release some butterflies and maybe some balloons on 23rd. I know it's hard. Two weeks doesn't sound too long to others, but I know it is when you are the one anxiously waiting on every second. Big squishy hugs. You can bring her here. Believe my sweet, as hard as it is. I believe

Anyway back to sleep for me, I hope. .

Miss. B! Yay! Awesome to see you here. Congrats on your BFP. Ok, just the usual scared witless approaching milestones, anniversaries, pregnancy is very lonely stuff. Nothing new, just hard. I have just been up with H for a couple + hours. She is having a reaction to a bite and her finger is quite swollen and inflamed. She was crying, so I think the pain relief had worn off. She is asleep again now. Might have to take herto the Dr or hossy depending on how it all is when she next wakes. Poor wee girl, it looks so painful. Just as much as the last time about 6 weeks ago. A good distraction to my woes. Give Cam a big hug and Josh too.

Thanks Dory :hug: Did you take HB to the docs? It's pretty awful when they get bitten. Once Can got stung by a bee :(
And I totally get you about the loneliness you feel during a pg when you've been through so much. It's like every other pg woman is just cruising along and you are just surviving day to day. Big hugs hun, you know we all understand where you're coming from xox

Thanks :)

I had a blood test today, and will get the results on friday. I also attended the subsequent pregnancy group and SIDS and Kids today, which was great, but I'm still feeling like an idiot because everyone else there was at least 12 weeks.

No idea how I am going to get through the next six weeks, let alone six months.

So pleased to hear everyones good news :)

Lara

miss.B! congratulations!

kellen Howard was born 2/1/12 at 11:13am weiging 9 lbs 3oz and 22 inches. he was in special care right after his birth until we left the hospital 3 days later. he had fluid on his lungs and then had a hard time breathing and eating. It was a really horrible experience and i am glad that it is all over. We are all home and doing well. I am recovering well and feel really great for just having a section. Having 3 boys under the age of 3 is crazy and a lot of work. A dream come true :) I am a little scared about being left to take care of them by myself on Monday but i know that i can do it.

Thanks Laney :)

And congratulations again on the birth of your precious son Kellen! His name is just gorgeous, no doubt just like himself! What a scary start hun, glad it is all over and you're all home now. All the best hunni and look after yourself xoxoxox

I'll be back later for more...

Thinking of Jack for his first birthday. Fly free little man, soon you'll be a big brother but for now stay close to your mum as she needs you and your love.

Thinking of you Sky.

Go gently my sweet.

Thinking of you Sky, Happy birthday to your special little man.

Thinking of you Sky and your gorgeous Jack. Happy 1st Birthday wee man :heartbeat:

skybie - thinking of you today, I hope you were able to do something special for Jack's birthday and were kind with yourself, these days can be so hard.

Laney - Congratulations, I'm glad everything is going so well after such a scary start. Good Luck for Monday, although you're right you can do it.

rhubarbandcustard - good luck with your results tomorrow.

dory - maybe the changes to medicare are the reason my doctor hasn't offered me my psychologist this time although I wish she would realise that mine and my families health are more important than money and even if not free I'd still like this option.

I hope everyone else is doing well.

How is everyone going?

KAM - sorry t appear to ignore you.... just crazy times for me. Hope you got through Feb ok. I didn't in the end. Even though I thought I was going ok, I was a complete mess. But I have only realised that since..... I didn't expect that this pregnancy coinciding with Amelia's would be so hard emotionally. But it has been and no doubt will continue to be so. Oh well. It's worth it.

Miss B - I am so sorry that your lil bubs grew wings far too early and I hope you're getting by. I can't believe it's Cam's birthday soon..... where has that time gone? Have you sat with Josh's photos a bit more recently?

Rhubarb - How are you doing?

LANEY - this is a very very belated congratulations on the safe arrival of your son Kellen! I am sorry that he was sick initially but glad he's home and I hope you're going well with 3 boys at home!!! Thinking of you lots. But understand if you're hardly ever on line - where would you find the time?

AFM - well hard yards for me lately. But it wasn't until after the 3rd anniversary of Amelia's funeral that I realised just how tightly wound I have been. It was a really sad and amazing thing to wake up the day after the funeral anniversary and realise that this baby, Raspberry Bear, has had more time alive than Amelia or Nicholas or Sophie had. It was so hard remembering everything..... and reliving the funeral. I didn't expect that, nor the strength of the feelings.

But for Amelia's birthday/anniversary we released some butterflies, and went to the family plot at the memorial gardens and just sat on a rug on the ground and enjoyed the rain as it fell on us. Poor HB got startled by the butterflies flapping to get out of their release box, but then was excited to see them fly away. Maybe next year it will be easier for her. She did like the balloons, but I was so mixed up I forgot to get them helium filled, so they were just blown up and tied to the trees in our garden. We still have a few of the balloons kicking around the house.

It saddens me too that my family don't tell me they remember, my babies anniversaries. They might remember, but it feels like they don't, because they don't say anything. I got a really nice card from a friend who had crotcheted some butterflies and then hand made the card. That was so touching and so welcome. Straight to the pool room as they say. That's a keeper. So I am thankful for that, but still hurt that people don't remember.

Apart from that, all is going well with lil Raspberry Bear. An obstetrically uneventful pregnancy. About time, I say. I still have my hossy bag packed, and have had for a while. I take nothing for granted. Steroid injections next week at 26 weeks to facilitate RB's lung development. I am not looking forward to it, those steroids have a whole heap of uncomfortable side effects on me. Perhaps this time will be different?

What else? HB has been sick for the past month on and off, but things seem to be looking up. So apart from it being good for her, at a seflish level, I am looking forward to less sleepless nights for a while.

Better go, it's getting late and I want to spend tome quiet tme with RB whilst they are kicking away. Night ladies. Belly rubs and take care.

Oh Miss B I'm so sorry that your little one couldn't stay.

Dory - you weren't ignoring me I understand that and what February means to you, I was just reaching out to everyone. Amelia's birthday sounds so beautiful, I can't think of anything more perfect than a butterfly release. That's so nice of your friend, I hope she realises that even a homemade gift and card is more meaningful at times like these than words can ever express. I also understand and have often mentioned that my biggest fear would have to be people forgetting Isabel, especially the important people in your life like friends and family. But unfortunately they seem to be, to start off with I'd get flowers and texts and this year nothing, heartbreaking (not for me but for a family member forgotten IYKWIM).
You're so organised having your bag pack already. How did the Steroid injection go? Hopefully the side effects weren't to bad.

AFM - nothing much has been happening. It was Isabel's 3rd birthday last month and I was a bit of a wreck, but made it through somehow. We went to see her for her birthday as usual with cupcake birthday cakes and flowers (they always have such nice flowers on Isabel's birthday because of Valentine's Day). I'm not sure why but I found myself reliving the year Isabel was born a lot more this time, which made it hard.

I hope everyone else is going well and that the saying "no news is good news" is appropriate.

Miss B. I am so sorry hun.

How is everyone else doing? I have been missing for a while adjusting to life with 3 boys under the age of 3. Feeling like i can't do anything right or give any of them all of the attention that they need :( It is getting better every day and i am on a mission to be better at this parenting thing.

Laney.......you are amazing and a wonderful mum, the boys will adjust and so will you. But my heart breaks because you sound so guilty and hard on yourself. You can do it.

KAM....I am sorry fam and friends didn't remember Isabel's birthday. I found it much harder to experience Amelias anniversary this year too. Steriods went ok.

I am currently in hossy. Had some fluid gush out this morning. No show, no blood, no pain, no contractions but in for observation esp with my history. I already miss HB like crazy. Hoping I get to go home tomorrow, still pregnant. FX.

Thank you Laney, KAM and Dory, you ladies are wonderful, I appreciate your lovely messages and for thinking of me. I am going OK, I hope to be in here again very soon.

Dory, I hope everything is OK sweetie. Thinking of you and I hope you're out of the hossy very very soon to be with your darling HB. Big hugs lovely :hug:

Laney, you ARE such an awesome mummy, don't be too hard on yourself. Being mum to 3 children (they are still babies!) who are still so young would be a very hard job. But you CAN do it and and believe me, those boys feel so loved every single day. Don't think they are missing out on the attention. They have everything they need right in front of them :) Sending you many hugs too :hug:

KAM, it sounds lovely what you did for Isabel for her 3rd birthday. Big hugs to you also, I know how hard those bitrhdays can be :hug:

b xoxo

I just thought I'd drop in to let you all know that Violet was born on the 7th at 9:49pm weighing 8 pound 11 1/2 ounces.

I hope everyone else is going well.

Woo hoo!!!!!! Huge congrats KAM, and welcome to this world Miss Violet!! Take time to recover and enjoy your precious little lady hun :) Very proud of you sweetie :loveshower: