Pregnancy After Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss September 2009

Awwww, thanks Teagz!!!!! Well now that we're having boys for the second time (you, me, Diana), I bet Megan is having a girl!!!! Well that's my bet anyway...lol

How have you been sweets?? Not long for you to go on your mat. leave! Yeepee!!!!!!

Girls, I've been getting some beautiful pics of Fabian from Diana, he is just so scrumptious!!!! She is over the moon with her little man, I am so happy everything is going well at her end :dance:.

Have a great day everyone :p How is everyone in here BTW, it's been pretty quiet!

B xxx

Beata, You must have ben reading my mind... I was just thinking myself how weird it was that we seemed to all be having the same sex again. We'll have to see!

Yesss, I'm well and truely counting down to my MatLeave now. I've had enough of everyone whining in my office... but that's a whole other thread ;) Only 2 weeks to go!

I'm been excellent apart from a bit of pain in my pubic bone, but it's more annoying than anything else really. I'm also starting to get big enough that I'm hitting that stage where I'm restricted to doing certain things... like, who would have thought it'd be painful to jump (yes, literally jump, i'm not sure what I was thinking either...) to grab the curtain pully thing that had gotten wedged in the pully wheels? Not meee! Also, rolling over in bed is becoming quite a challenge (and not just for me, when I am cuddling up to DH's back he sometimes wriggles back into me a bit, and forgetting about the bump he has misjudged the distance between his butt and my belly & we've had a couple of ouchy collisions) and I've taken my belly out on a few things (door, wall) not hard, but enough to make me go "hmmm, I'll have to judge that space better next time" I'm not sure what happened really... it's like I've become this clumbsy blimp in a matter of days rather than easing into it :doh: :lol:

Jr has been good too. I keep reading that they're meant to be slowing down in movment now due to space issues but jeez.. I don't think this one ever stops! It's less kicking now though and more squirming and sticking out his little bum/arm/leg/elbow :p. He put on a good show for DH last night & also this morning, it's gorgeous. I'm really looking forward to meeting him! We have his cot and change table coming this weekend (finally) so he's room will be officially set up, I just need to get some sheets. Then I will start concentrating on packing my bag and washing everything while I'm on leave (so I have something to do :))

How are you going with your little Man? (cos I can say that now hehe) lots of kicking I hope! I love once you get to that kicking stage, it's so reassuring to beable to feel them all the time.

A Little BOY - congratulations Beata, how exciting! It is funny that a few of you are having the same sex, I have about 14-weeks to go to find out what my little one is :angelic:

Teagz, so close for you now. You poor thing bumping into things - lol! I will probably be the same, I have already bumped into the odd door, especially getting into the shower.

Glad to hear that Diana & Fabian are doing well. Tell her we would love to see some photo's!

Bec, great to hear from you & congratulations on handing in your thesis, what a huge achievement. It's so awful having bad thoughts about your baby & pg. Glad that you heard the heartbeat, take reassurance from that, your little one is fine I'm sure.

Ellie, glad to hear your scan went well.

AFM, kicks are getting stronger, which I just love. I am feeling them more often now which is great. Some mornings I just want to stay in bed feeling my little one kick around, I still don't feel her/him kick around as much when I'm moving about. Hope everyone is well.

Teagz, ha ha about bumping into things!! How funny! And colliding with your DH that's even funnier!!! :rofl: You poor thing. I am so badly co ordinated at the best of times, so I'm expecting to be a total veg later! ha ha Sounds like you've got everything under control hun! It's so good that you have a lively little fella in here, this little one has been making himself 'known' heaps more lately too! Yay!!!!!

Megan, it's so lovely that we're feeling bubs move heaps more now isn't it? I'm like you, I'm not feeling as much walking around but when I rest/sit down I can really feel the movements! It's just so re assuring and lovely.

Diana, if you're out there post some pics of little Fabian! He is just delicious!!

Hi to Ellie, Bec & Laney and anyone else I missed!

B xxx

Diana,

Congratulations to you and your husband on the arrival of dear Fabian. I was so thrilled to see that you had taken him to 28 weeks - the golden number as the doctors referred it to me. It is a shame that you had such a touch experience this time around but its wonderful that he is here with you - ready to explore this world under your wing. Well done mum!

From the first time I posted on BB I was amazed at how similar our stories were. We lost our little angels only a month apart, to the same problem with the same confusion over whether or not it was an IC or infection. I havent been on BB for ages because of the same thing as you... I had the most awful experience throughout this pregnancy (though I am pleased to say I have a beautiful healthy son named Jay Bradley). Anyhow, I found out at 17 weeks that my cervix had shorten within the span of a week by 2.4cm. I went in to hospital the next day for an emergency cerclage and was told the following day it was not a success and that my membranes had ruptured. We were going to lose this baby too. I spent the hole day waiting to have the stitich removed, crying and trying to brave as I knew what lay ahead for me again however, at 11pm that night when they could schedule me in to have the stitch removed, the doc saw on the ultrasound that there was plenty of fluid around the baby - there must have been a mistake! Can you believe it!!!!!

They kept me on bed rest for ten days waiting to see if they would break (I personally feel that the doc who diagnosed the mem rupture - who was a colleague of my ob) was embarassed and was hoping she wasn't wrong. But, ten days later, they still hadn't ruptured. I was sent home on strict bed rest - I didn't walk for 4 weeks - my ob was so mad at me, he thought I was going too far, but I wasn't prepared to risk it. Then, when I got to 24 weeks, they admitted me into hospital for 4 weeks to get me to 28 weeks. Like you would have experienced, I had the dreaded ultrasounds to see if the cervix was shortening further.. and sometimes it was a good result, and sometimes it was bad. So I prayed and prayed - I did the rosary every night, and I haven't been a practicing catholic for years!

In the meantime, I still wasn't walking - I was having bed baths and well.. you know the rest. Again, my doc was frustrated with my desire to stay off my feet - but he couldn't do anything because it was my choice. He sent up Psychs and all because he thought I was over doing it, but still I wasn't taking any chances!

Somehow we did it, we got to 28, then 29 and before I knew it I was 36 weeks pregnant and get this, they had to remove the stitch!!! I went into labour at 3.30am the day I was scheduled to have the stitich removed but it was considered real labour till 8.30pm that night. My little boy arrived into the world healthy - but my struggle was so horrible, I don't actually like to talk about it today.

So I wanted to let you know that I know exactly how you were feeling - we had such a different expectation this time round didn't we. I don't think either of us thought it would be like that again. I hoped the stitch would just make me normal like all the other girls...

So my heart goes out to you for the experience you had but I know if you are like me, this child is my every reason for waking up in the morning. He's so special to so many people - and I don't think its hard to believe that they were gifts from someone above to the both of us. I hope Fabian brings you every happiness that you so rightly deserve, you've been strong and deserve it.

Much love Diana, Jasmine and Jay xxx

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So here you all are! I am soooo very happy to see all my old BB friends in the pregnancy section! CONGRATULATIONS to you all, absolutely fantastic news girls. It doesn't seem that long ago that we were advising each other on CM and praying for sticky embies..!! Congrats also to all the girls I have not had the pleasure of getting to know. I hope your pregnancies go well and your babies are born healthy and happy.

A huge congrats to all the mammas that had babies during this time! This forum has been very busy with lots of wonderful news....

Sorry I have not been in touch in so long but I was facing some pretty fierce demons during this pregnancy and just didn't have the strength to do anything but pray and cry.

As you all know, thanks to Beata, I had my little boy almost 5 weeks ago. You also know that I have spent most of this pregnancy in hospital and on bed rest but I made it! It was soooo tough but I made it!!! Fabian was born at 28w6days after my membranes ruptured at 28 weeks. My OB had only just taken me off bed rest 2 days before so I didn't get very far! He is doing very well and still in his humidicrib in hospital but he now weighs 1782 grams and is just gorgeous. He will probably have to stay for another 3 or 4 weeks as he needs to fatten up a little more. I can't wait until I can take him home.

Will try and log in more often to see how you are all going but please forgive me if I don't respond often. I spend 12 hours a day at the hospital, plus I express milk every 3 hours (including at night - it is so upsetting having to get up to a breast pump instead of a baby) so am really exhausted most of the time.

Take care and give your bellies a little rub from me!

Hugs
Diana x

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Diana, It is so nice to hear that little Fabian is doing so well. I hope he is home with you very soon.

Joselyn, It sounds like you have had a very difficult time. It is so hard to have an OB that doesn't support you the way that you need. Congratulations on the safe arrival of your little boy.

Ellie, I am so happy to hear that your 12 week scan went well. Please keep us posted. Do you think that you will find out the sex at the next scan?

Hi Ladies!
It is very quiet in here! I hope everyone is doing well.

Good morning ladies,

Merry Christmas everyone :loveshower:!!!!

Wow, look at our tickers ladies!!! I haven't been in this thread for a while and it seems like the weeks on our tickers have just gone crazy! ha ha. Teagz, you're next my love!!!! Can't wait to hear your announcement hun. You must be pretty excited now!!

Hope everyone has a nice day today :D

Love and big hugs
B xxx

Hi everyone! Merry Christmas and happy new year (with healthy babies). For Christmas I got viability because I'm 24 weeks now! Not wanting to deliver any time soon but it's great to know we can get the baby out if needed. Every week now will be a bonus.

Hope everyone got through Christmas OK. For me it was a day of new hope, with some sadness as last Christmas we were looking forward to the impending birth of our little boy.

xx Bec.

Hello lovies! just quickly popping on to wish you all a belated Merry Christmas! Sorry I haven't posted much... think about you all the time though.
Beata, yep... me next! I'm a whale and I'm soooooo ready XD (and I feel guilty everytime I whine about wanting bub out now - I promised I wouldn't!) Bags are all packed, seat is in the car... C'mon little one!

Mummabec, congrats on reaching the 24 week mark! Although it is early it's still good to know that it's a viable stage now! Fingers crossed that you make it to be a nice plump mumma still though ;)

Well I bettre be off, DH wants me to watch a movie with him...

Mwah!! xx

A belated Merry Christmas from me too! Hope everyone has had a lovely Chrissy!

Miss A's first Christmas has been very exciting...and emotional...and busy. Have had a great time.

I'm now in shut down mode in the lead up to our 19 week scan on Wednesday...I can feel myself holding my breath and retreating into my shell...praying my heart out that this little one is ok...the worry never ends hey!?@! Only 3 more sleeps until we see Miss A's little 'brister'...we're having a surprise again so bump is now affectionately refered to as 'brister' lol. Hope to be back on Wednesday with good news :)

HI!!!
Nice to hear from everyone!

Mummabec, congrats on 24 weeks! I hope you are able to worry a little less and rest a little easier.

Ellie, I know how stressful that 19/20 week scan can be. Why can't we just be excited! I hope that you are also able to relax a little after Wed.

Teagz, I can't wait to see some pictures of you bub!

AFM, We are TTC! Testing next week. I know, we're crazy!

Merry Xmas everyone! So wonderful to see those tickers moving along...well speeding along actually!

Just wanted to wish Teagz luck with the upcoming birth and can't wait to see your birth announcement!

Also, Laney - wow to TTC again & good luck with testing! Kaitlyn is older than Grayson but I still don't feel ready to go there again just yet. Maybe later this year. Got to stop BF and get the cycles back first though!

We had a lovely xmas; very different from last year when I was in hospital scared out of my mind wondering if we would have the outcome we hoped for. Kaitlyn is growing so fast now it is amazing and wonderful!

Keep well ladies x

Hello lovelies,

Just popping in quickly to wish everyone here a Happy New Year 2010!! I hope the New Year brings you a happy & healthy bub, good health, lots of good fortune, and everything that you wish for!!

PS Teagz, can't wait until your little man is here, counting down the days hun!!

I have just come back from holidays today, so feel pretty tired ATM, but will catch up with everyone soon :grouphug:.

B x

Hi and Happy New Year!

Ellie- I hope your 19 week scan went well. Thinking of you.

beata- your ticker is moving right along.

AngelLukesmum- You might not be ready yet but it sounds like you have already been thinking about TTC! For me there will never be a time that I am more ready. Everyday will be difficult for me no matter when. I feel like I should try for a second earth angel before whatever is going on with my body get worse.

Way to go with the BF!!!! I was so stressed out I only lasted a month.


Caitlin

Happy New Year everyone!

19 week scan was great! Bub perfect size and all anatomy checked out too...very happy. The not so good news is my placenta is anterior and low so now I'm praying like mad that it doesn't attach to my csection scar and cause me problems.

The other huge milestone for me...Miss A has totally weaned herself and also spent her first night in her own room last night...and she slept right through...even with the neighbours partying til 4am!!She is growing up way too fast!

Wishing you all a wonderful 2010 with many more bubs in arms xxx

Hey hunnies

hope everyone had a nice NY. We went down south for a couple of days and stayed at my parents holiday house. It was nice to get away for a couple of nights but god i'm pooped now. Not to mention it was so nice and cool down south, and it's hot as hell back home now!!

Ellie, congrats on the scan! Bummer about the placenta but in the grand scheme of things it's not going to affect bubs health in anyway so try not to let it both you. I do hope that it moves to a nicer possie though and not your c-sec scar.

Laney, can't wait to here what your test comes back as :) How exciting (and incredibly nerve racking!) for you guys! I hope this journey is a quick one!

Beata, look at you ticking away there! Can't wait to hear your BA either, chick!

ALM, I know exactly how you feel about your chrissy/NY... My maternity leave this year started exactly the same time I went off from work last year once we found out about Jayvan, and this bub is due the same time as when I went back to work after I had time off after his birth... it is pretty spinny to think how different things are this year.

Well, I've only suposedly got a week to go! Getting excited... such a weird sensation to think that a baby could come out of me any day now... hopefully it's sooner rather than later, i wanna meet this little rat bag! (although I am a little torn between meeting him, and getting to keep my dancing belly for just a little longer :redface:) :heartbeat:

Much love to you all, mwah!

Hi Girls...... I hope you dont mind me sneaking in, I just want to give Teagz loads of good luck in the coming weeks and to say that I cant wait to read your BA! :dance:

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Hi Girls...... I hope you dont mind me sneaking in, I just want to give Teagz loads of good luck in the coming weeks and to say that I cant wait to read your BA! :dance:

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Thanks gorgeous! :hug: Sending you loads of babydust too, for next monday or sunday ;) I really hope I get to see a BFP shortly!

Faint BFP today but with spotting so I really don't know what to make of it. I do spot a lot during pregnancy so who knows. I will take another test tomorrow and see if it has a darker second line. I am going to call the doctor anyway and get my blood thinner script. Keep your fingers crossed for us!

Oh my gosh Laney congrats!! Have got the fingers crossed for you that it is a sticky one :pray:
Your previous post about never being more ready and everyday being difficult no matter when you TTC/are pg, made me realise that it is probably the same for me. I do want another baby but the reality that I will have to have surgery (for the stitch), possibly require bedrest again, suffer morning sickness, and just deal with the worry that comes with being pg, all while with a toddler...well that is never going to go away so I might as well just accept it and make sure I have the inner strength required to get me through the 9 months. ATM I'm not ready to deal with all that, but yes, TTC again does go through my mind even with all that. Sorry just had to get that out.

Teagz...the countdown is on! :dance:

Laney!! Congrats! I have had spotting at the begining with both pregs, so don't let it dishearten you!!

ALM, The countdown is on indeed! But... I think I'm getting sick. Have a bit of a sore throat and just feel a bit meh in general... hopefully it clears up ASAP and doesn't affect in possible chances of going into labour - or labour full stop for that matter!

Hi Girls,

I hope everyone had a great Christmas & New Years! So much seems to have happened in the last few weeks!

Teagz, I can't believe you are almost there chick, all the very best to you. I hope you start to feel better soon and that you have a fantastic straight forward labour. Can't wait to hear the news.

Laney, congrats on deciding to ttc again & I really pray that you have a lovely sticky BFP there. Keep us posted.

Ellie, great news about your 19-wk scan. I hope the placenta moves up to a nice high position.

Hi Jo, good to hear from you. Glad that you had a lovely Christmas, must have been special being Kaitlyn's first Christmas. I am looking forward to that next year with this bub.

AFM, have been quite well, starting to get big now - lol. We are also moving interstate - when I am 36 - 37 wks! Sounds crazy I know, but essentially we are going 'home', moving back to our house & out of this apartment and will be close to family & good friends. I have already booked into a great hospital & have found an OB which I had my first appointment with. He is also happy with me to continue my care here until we move. So far all is falling into place, but there is a lot to do. I am just praying that bubs doesn't decide to come early when DH is interstate getting the house organised & I am still here!

Hope everyone is well & keeping out of the heat!

Hi Ladies,
Had a stronger positive this morning but I am also bleeding more with a clot or two. Not a good sign :(

Keep us posted Laney...praying for you and your little one...just a bit exciting xxx

Hi Ladies!
Bleeding is still just spotting but it is heavier than I have ever had during pregnancy. It was mostly when I first got out of bed. I haven't passed anymore clots :pray: Not much that we can do but wait and see. I am going to take another test in the AM and it would be great to have a nice dark second line.

Jo- I am really starting to understand the not needing or wanting the extra stress right now. I didn't expect the first day of knowing that I am pregnant to be so stressful!

Berry- wow 30+ weeks now! You are very brave taking on a move when you are that pregnant! You are going to be extra busy those last few weeks.

Teagz- I hope you feel better!

I will be back in the AM, or PM for all of you.

Hi Laney, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you get a stronger second line and that everything is fine. Take care.

Laney, sending you lotsa stickyvibes!! It's probably heavier when you first get up as it's pooling a bit during your sleep and all coming out at once when you get up. Aaah, the memories you're bringing back, stressful indeed!

AFM, I had an internal yesterday and Dr could barely reach by cervix so this bubs is in for the long haul! Kinda bummed, really don't wanna be induced, was hoping my body would cooporate with me this time and not hang onto bubs with all it's little might! Oh well... at least he'll be here eventually!

Ellie, Beata and Berry :bellyrubs: for you both!

Teagz, things can change quickly!



AFM, things are not looking good. I had a ton of bleeding lastnight. I had my hcg levels taken yesterday and I will go back tomorrow. I still have a positive home test but I don't see how anything could still be in there. Maybe the whole box of tests that i used was faulty and this is just AF....
This is exactly the same thing that happened right before Grayson.

Hang in there Laney...thinking of you xxx

Hoping that your hcg levels have increased Laney :pray:

Hi Ladies,

So my hcg levels were just a point or two in the positive :( I have to go back on monday and make sure that they go back below 5. I hate having to take tests before i even miss AF. I am so afraid that I will not start my blood thinners soon enough! I now have my script for the blood thinners so i won't rush around as much. If i didn't test so soon I would never have known. Better luck next month i guess. I am now even more motivated for some reason.

Hi all. It has been a long time since I visited here. I just wanted to send a hug to Laney. :hug:

I am also pregnant again (I suppose I should create a new ticker). I am 21 weeks and all is going well. I had the scan this week and the baby is spot on for dates and looking very healthy. It has been slightly easier this time around, but I still have my moments of stress and sadness and I see my Ob every 2 weeks to keep the crazies at bay. My due date is 19 May.

Good luck to all of you with your pregnancies and hoping that you all have a stress-free and happy time until your babies are firmly in your arms.

Congratulations Kate! You sure can keep a secret! It is nice to hear that this pregnancy is a little bit easier for you. I hope I feel the same way when it happens for us. did you find out the sex or do we have another little brister?

Hi girls,

Laney, big hugs hun. I really hope your persistance and positive attitude pays off for you. I would love nothing more than for you to announce your BFP soon hun!!

Katie, congrats hun!! It's been soooooo long since you've popped in, so happy to hear your good news!!

Megan, wow, so much going on for you soon hun! Take it easy moving interstate, and I hope all goes well with your move. Bubs, stay in mummy's belly until after the move !! lol.

Hi Ellie, Bec, Jo, Teagz (I'm keeping an eye on you sweets!!).

I've just returned home from two holidays (days apart from each other so I am both relaxed and exhausted if that makes sense, lol, with all the packing and unpacking). All is well with me, 29 weeks today and I am very happy to have come so far!! Keeping everything crossed bub stays put until 16/3 :pray:
I'm now on mat. leave and soon I'll have to start organising the nursery, pram, car seat etc etc. I haven't done anything yet :redface:

Take care everyone and big hugs to all

B xxx

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I'm still in one piece! Despite DH taking me out 4x4ing, the disgusting herbs I've been taking to "soften my cervix", and having more sex in the last few days than I think is actually possible (on the plus side I feel super relaxed ;)) He isn't showing any signs of gracing us with his presence anytime soon, either! Which is fine, means he'll be a new born for longer :lol:
It's funny, i was thinking the other day about how we were all TTC, with the toilet paper inspections and agonising over every little possible pregnancy sign, and had to laugh today when I realised towards the end you pick up the agonising, reading waaaay to much into things and the toilet paper inspections again... "is that blobby bit a peice of my plug?" *holding toilet paper millimetres from face, whilst giving whatever it is a poke*, "Hmmm, bubs seems really lethargic today.... Maybe I'll go into labour tonight, the book says they're quieter before labour starts. Yippee!!", and "Ooooo! What's that twinge!?... oh, it's just my poor bladder/cervix/kidney/lung being used as a punching bag" :doh:

Beata, congrats on 29 weeks!! Only 11 to go! They'll fly by, you just wait. Then you'll be sitting at the computer when you're 40 weeks up the duff with your belly resting against the desk trying to think where the hell the last 9 months went! Bit like I am now :)

Laney :hug: I know I haven't posted the last few days, but I have been stalking and thinking about you alot. I hope next month is better luck, too!

Teagz, you are so naughty!!!!!!! lol. I excitedly thought, she's popped!!!!!! Naugthy girl!!!! How funny, you want bub to come and he's so happy in there!!! My friend recently had a boy in November, and when she was almost 40 weeks, he was still very high in the belly and had no intention of coming out . She went on car rides over speed humps, ate lots of curry and did heaps of walks (couldn't DTD as she was soooooo uncomfortable). Then a couple of days later, 2 days before she was going to be induced (she had gestational diabeties) she woke up with cramps, and huge pressure down there, by the time she got to the hospital (30 minutes later) , Aidan was almost coming down the tunnel as she was 9 cm dialated! 4 hour labout hun!!!!! So here's hoping your little guy decides to come out nice and quick (without tearing of course!!).

Teagz, anything yet?

I have been thinking of you Teagz and wondering what was happening. I hope your little boy decides to come out soon! So very exciting now waiting for it all to happen. Glad that you are relaxed, get as must rest as possible.

Laney, hope you are doing ok, here's to next month!

Beata, how are you doing? So jealous that you are on mat leave already. Enjoy having that precious time before your little guy arrives.

I am counting down to finishing at work and the big move home, very exciting, bubs is doing well and seems to be happy in there so crossing everything that there is no early arrival.

Congrats to you as well Katie, that is wonderful news. All the best for a happy & healthy pregnancy.

Hi Megan! Good to hear from you hun. I'm glad everything is going well with you, with your move and everything time will fly and your bub will be here before you know it! How exciting! I'm going well hun, had my 30 weeks OB app. yesterday and bub is measuring 2 to 3 weeks ahead of dates and is 'decent size'. Also, he's laying across my pelvis, so that's why I'm so uncomfortable ATM and have trouble sleeping. Hopefully he'll move head down soon or the other way around, I don't mind which way, as long as he's vertical for my cs on 16/03.
I wonder how Teagz went yesterday, she was being induced then.....
Speak to you soon and take it easy! :D