I am getting super stressed...... it is about this stage in my last 2 pregnancies that my bubbas passed away, and I didnt know it....

I have a check on 6th Jan for this bub.... Isaiah's due date....
I cant handle it.

I have started to get proper movements, but they are very sporadic.. sometimes two three times a day, sometimes nothing... so of course when i feel nothing for a while, (like today) I am so super scared....

What is the best way to monitor bub at home myself??

Doppler, or some other kind of electronic heartbeat thingy? I dont even know what is out there to get...I need either something cheap or something I can hire.. or my own ultrasound machine!!!

So what do you use, and what can you recommend???