Well.... My head is so scattered right now! Well it has been since Friday night!
Ok, Focus! AF was due last sat but it never came... a few days later I joked to DH saying I was 'late' same as I did before we found out I was pg with DD. a week later (fri night) I grabbed a 3 pack HPT just for the reassurance all was ok, I was just late and AF would come when she was good & ready. NOT the case! Later that night I finally remembered to do the test and got a BFP! Well I was bashing down the door of a nervous break down but DH couldn't wipe the grin off his face! He couldn't understand why I was so upset. ... I reminded him We've just had to semi close his business, I'm just getting my business off the ground, Daytona is only 5 mths old and my CS scar still hasn't fully healed! We had been planning to start these new jobs on top of everything, and I wanted to get on as pernament for atleast 3mths before trying so by the time we had another bub I would be eligable for mat leave. We had been told by numerous fertility specialists (for 13 years)we would never have a baby without IVF but 1st Daytona and now again! I even had on the calender AF days circled in red, DTD days circled in black and the day I'm due to ovulate with a blue square around it so I knew to fight him off with rasor wire if I need to. This cycle I kept him at bay, but the cycles before I haddn't so WTF??? I'm struggling to believe it I'm going to the doc tomorrow to have it confirmed (even though I did another test on the sat & again this morning) and I'm going to ask for a scan. If I see it really there then I'll believe it!
Don't get me wrong, now that I've had time for the idea to sink in, I'm happy about another bub I'm just terrified about the pregnancy and all the bad stuff. Daytona's pregnancy was aweful! I hated every day of it. I'm hoping this time will be more like my 1st and I'll actually enjoy it again. I was really wanting my next one to be a vaginal birth but I'm worried it's so soon, the old scar will rupture or what ever happens. I hope it's another girl because we havn't been able to do our renovations so the new bub will have to share rooms with Daytona and it's a very pretty room and it will also get her hand me down clothes so it would be a very pretty boy! in a very pretty room!
Anyway... Sorry this was longer than it should of been, but I needed to get that out too!
I didn't even get a chance to change my Avitar!!! Well I'm off to check on the rules for all that again, It seems alot has changed on this forum since I was last in here!!