So, I have been breastfeeding my DD for almost 20 months and didnt have AF at all until 3.5 weeks ago. I was so excited to finally get it so we could start trying to fall pregnant.. it felt like I had been waiting forever for my cycle to return!! It was a fairly light af which only really lasted 3 days.

I really didnt expect that my body would know to ovulate 2 weeks later since so many women have had irregular cycles when still breastfeeding, plus my body was pretty messed up just before I conceived DD so I didnt have much faith in it! Anyway, I thought I would take a chance and fly over to where my husband was working for a week during my possible ovulation time (hes gone for 6 weeks so it was great to see him anyway.. he was missing DD heaps!)

On CD 15 I noticed some EWCM, I was so excited but still didnt really believe that I would ovulate (I had also bought FR OPKs and hadnt had a positive reading) But we DTD heaps just incase.

The next day I noticed some brown mucky stuff in some discharge, I thought 'great my body really doesnt know what its doing' From then on each day it got worse until it was bright red bleeding and pretty much like a normal af but without the cramping or clots. So for the last week and a half I have been bleeding and am still now.

I got home from being away yesterday and thought what the hell I have 2 pregnancy tests just sitting here why not pee on them for the sake of it, really really not expecting anything!! Anyway a line came up really really quickly, before the Control line even came up and way stronger then the C line. I freaked out!! So exciting but SO SCARY!!

Which brings me to now... What is going on with my body??!!!!

I went to the Dr this morning, and got some blood tests done to check HCG levels etc and I asked if she could test progesterone and oestrogen levels but she said theres not much point because theres nothing that can be done if one of them is low which is causing me to bleed. Is this right?!! I am so scared that its happening cos my hormones are out of whack from the breastfeeding and that it can be fixed with capsules or pessaries etc. Should I take Maca capsules or something natural to possibly try and help?!!

The only other things I can think of is that I have thrush which is causing the bleeding, just a couple days ago i noticed a bit of an itch down there, but surely I wouldnt bleed for almost a week and a half with no other real symptoms?! or it could be my cervix bleeding. When I got my last papsmear it showed that I had a lowgrade lesion and that I had to have regular papsmears and hope that it goes away on its own. Could it be bleeding from this??!! Could I have the start of cervical cancer or something!?!

I am thinking it is my hormones out of whack though, just because of how it started off, brown etc. How does a baby stick to anything though if my uterus is shedding still??!! But if the baby wasnt a strong one would the line on my pregnancy test be so strong for only 3.5 weeks pregnant?! Could I just keep bleeding until I bleed the baby away?! Could it be a chemical pregnancy???

I really wasnt expecting to fall pregnant so soon after getting af but I really really dont want to lose this baby.

The Dr basically said its all out of my hands, whatever is going to happen will happen, we cant do anything to stop it. But I really want too! I want to go for a scan right now to check things out.. Im not even sure they would be able to see anything though?!! I know shes right, I just have to relax and be grateful we fell pregnant so quickly. Its so hard though

I get results tomorrow morning so please keep your fingers crossed for me that my hcg levels are ok and go up in a couple of days! I just want this bleeding to stop!!! Its making me so sad everytime I go to the toilet and the water turns red Who oh why did I have to test yesterday!! I would be none the wiser today and find out that Im pregnant in a months time when everything has settled down (hopefully!)

Thanks for reading, Im not entirely sure why I have written this, maybe someone has been through something similar though? It has also killed a bit of my night, tomorrow morning when I can call up for my results is only 11 hours away now! xx