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  1. #1
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    Aug 2006
    12

    Is there any hope?

    Hi Ladies,

    I really need to get this out. Hubby and I have been ttc number 2 since June last year. I was 38 when we started, now 39, I had a 2nd tri mmc before our DD but everything went great with her conception and pregnancy, I was 36 then. It took awhile to get pregnant when we first started ttc our 2nd, had DH's sperm tested and it wasnt so great so after a visit to a naturapath his numbers improved and I fell pregnant. That pregnancy resulted in a blighted ovum and I had a D&C at 9wks. The next pregnancy I mc at 5wks, a chemical pregnancy. Of course all these mc's have taken a toll on me and when I recently found out I was pregnant again I wanted to feel happy but just felt dread and fear. However at 5wks my hcg level were great and I was feeling very nauseous and tired so started to think this time all would be ok. However over the weekend I noticed I felt completely normal and started to feel nervous about the early scan we had booked for this morning. I was crying as the nurse began the scan and had not one once of hope in me, sure enough she couldnt find a heartbeat, I am meant to be 6w4d. She said it was too early to call anything and I would have to have another scan in a week, this has happened to me before and the wait was awful and ended in a m/c and D&C. She said she needed to show me the screen and I said I didnt want to look I just wanted to finish, she said I had to look and when I did there was 2 sacs... I was speechless. After DH and I took it in I asked her to take some blood for my Hcg levels. So here are the numbers....at 4w5d hcg 858, 5wks 1868, 6w4d (today) 7937 and progesterone 39. She has booked me in for a scan in 8days time.

    Is there any point hoping? This would be my 4th mc and I just dont think I can do this anymore. I was hugging my daughter today and she asked me what was wrong, I hadnt realised I was crying, I'm beginning to think it is a miracle I have her, I just want to hold her and not let her go.

    Thanks for "listening"
    Lola

  2. #2
    Registered User

    Feb 2009
    356

    Lola - I feel for you, you poor thing. I have been told by both FS and U/S people that the 6 week to 7 week mark could be either way. Any time after 7 weeks you can definately expect a heartbeat to appear.

    Fingers crossed for you.

  3. #3

    Oct 2008
    2,880

    Lola, I'm also keeping everything crossed for you. I'm so sorry for what you have previously been through.

    I truly hope that this works out for you. Please keep us posted.

    Sue xxxx

  4. #4
    Registered User

    May 2007
    181

    I feel for you Lola. I sincerely hope that they stick for you. Let us know how you go.

  5. #5
    Registered User

    Jan 2008
    Central Coast NSW
    2,160

    Lola Sending lots of sticky vibes - and to answer your question - Yes there is HOPE! I needed an internal to "get" my first HB and my HCGs were WAY lower than yours - tho I only had one bubba!

  6. #6
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    May 2006
    Brisbane, Australia
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    i hope they're a sticky pair of bundles for you Lola xoxo