I am struggling to be positive about everything this time around. I had a scan at what I thought was 11 weeks and they said I was 9 weeks. They said bubs had a very strong heartbeat and looked perfect but it threw me off.

I have had brown spotting on and off the whole time (which I know nearly everyone has) but I still think it means something is horribly wrong.

I am now 13 weeks according to the scan. My bb's still hurt, I still feel a bit queasy and I am exahausted and moody. But I just can't shake that something has gone wrong. I had a missed miscarriage in between Rory and Abby and I think that this has a lot to do with how I am feeling. As well as it being Ruby's birthday/anniversary day last week.

I am going to the Dr's this afternoon and I am braced for bad news.