Is it over?

[Where there's hope]

Thanks Bugsmum. No, I have to wait it out until my US followed by OB appointment, both on Fri morning. But I have found out progesterone levels can be affected by stress (and I have had some un-pregnancy related stress of late). So now I am feeling even more guilty.

The clinic told me it is not so much the level, and that it can fluctuate, but that there have been some significant drops. They got in touch with my Ob (I have not seen him yet) and he does not want me to increase my pessaries.

Hold on bubba...

[Where there's hope]

Tash - thanx so much for your very real advice! I know I am over-obsessing. I will try and get on with my life and survive until Friday x

[*Ash*]

Oh how stressful for you. It must feel very unsettling to still be without a definitive answer. It sounds like you have enough stress in your life already. What do you have planned for the week? Will you be able to rest or relax a little between now and Friday? All the best hun.
Hold on precious bub.

[Where there's hope]

To those that might have been following this story: an update...

I followed Tashybabe's excellent advice. Tash - thank you!!! I really was over-obsessing and driving myself crazy. So I went MIA from BB and have been keeping myself very busy.

It actually turns out that when we went to our scan a week back we found the measurements were 6 weeks (should have been 7-and-a-half). We knew there were a few days leeway there due to suspected late implantation. But the sack was completely empty. No fetal pole or yolk (I think in the past this would have been referred to as a blighted ovum). I had an appointment with my Ob straight after the scan and he said there was no hope, that I would MC.

I have chosen to MC naturally. If nothing happens in the next few weeks I will go in for a D&C (my fourth). I am doing OK. DH and I have so much to be grateful for with our two beautiful children who are the light of our lives. I will not be doing any more cycles - my two recent FET's were remaining from our successful cycle with DS. I just couldn't leave those embies sitting there and not give them a chance. At least I tried...

Thanks to everyone for their kind support on this thread. It really helped me through a difficult time.

WTH x

[HotI]

Look after yourself

[Miss.B]

Oh sweetie, I'm really sorry to hear your news. Thinking of you and look after yourself lovely

[ButterflyForever]

sending hugs.

[Khaleesi]

Sorry to hear the news

[westy]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss

Take care x

[Amity]

I'm really sorry to hear that bubs didn't stick. Huge hugs for you and your family.

[nothing2lose]

WTH

So, so sorry to read your news. It must be devastating for you and hubbie

I recommend you stick with the white tim tam therapy

Now, of course, you can add that *insert liquor of own choice* to the mix.

Take care lovely x

n2l

[LionsandBears]

I am so sorry for your loss go gently and look after yourself

[LizLemon]

I'm so sorry, WTH. Sending lots of these

[Tuesday's Child]

I've only just seen this after having my own break from BB. I'm so sorry WTH I hope you're taking care of yourself.

[Gigi]

oh sweetie, i'm so sorry. i don't understand any of those numbers, but i understand what it's like to try, for a long time (years) for a baby.

[*Ash*]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry. Sending love and strength.