Bonham08 - sweetie big hugs.... you are stronger than you know.

TwinSis - sorry to hear about the ms. My GF's ob reckons the sicker the better, so maybe that's something? what meds are you on? has the weather warmed up yet for you?

Subeam - good to see you in here! And that you are have a sense of calm at the moment. Hope those levels go through the roof.

Cherished - reading your post about your scan is exactly what I needed to hear - the pure excitment in your post is something I needed today - so thanks for sharing.

To everyone else, I am feeling a bit too self absorbed today to really say too much and give many persies. I enjoy reading your posts. Milly and the others approaching their milestones, good luck. It does help with your confidence to reach them. H&H g to you all.

AFM - Yesterday arvo I thought I was going to rejoin TTCAMCAL, as I had bleeding and passed some clots, one of which was a fair size. I was convinced I was having a m/c, as I have never had bleeding this early before, and not with clots, and any bleeding I have had has always lead to mc. I rang my ob and made an urgent appointment for me to come in yesterday arvo. Anyway, much to my surprise and delight I got some news I didn't expect - bubs was ok, the heartbeat was good and everything else looked ok. It was such a relief. I am at home now for a few days as the ob said it was better to take it easy. I was feeling quite positive after the appointment and this morning, and thankful that in this moment right now I am pg and it appears healthy No guarantees especially with my history, but I had found some peace. This afternoon.... not so much. No more bleeding, or if there is its brown old stuff and there is very little of it. It's probably just very light spotting. But I just have a very real sense of foreboding and I am frightened and there is nothing I can do. I know what will be will be, I am just frightened. And because this blip has occurred a different time to previously, and given it is so early in the pregnancy 7 weeks today, the odds are not in my favour. I am normally a pretty positive person but this afternoon, geez, this is hard stuff. Despite my best efforts I keep remembering what it was like when I miscarried most recent twin pregnancy, with Nicholas at 14 weeks and Sophie 4-5 weeks later at 19 weeks. it's pretty hard not to feel sorry for myself and not to be hypersensitive and hyper vigilant to any twinges, changes in my MS, which there has been some.... anyway.......

There are some positives. And for those of you who know me from elsewhere, I feel so blessed to have my ob. He and his staff always make time for me. Always. It's nice to have confidence in your ob and to actually respect them as a person. I am just on the edge of a very dark place and I don't want to fall into it right now.

I feel like a baked potato too - thanks small fry plus.No really, thankyou what a good idea and what good comfort food.