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I'm not sure how long I will be here (hopefully 9 months!) but I will stick my head in and introduce myself anyway.
I have been lurking for a couple of days, ever since I started getting nausea and tired last week and I realised that we were UTD again. AF is due today, but so far has not shown herself. The 11 (yes 11!) positive pregnancy tests done over the last few days is probably why! My DH keeps wondering why I am doing test after test when we already know the results, but I need to keep seeing that line getting darker.
I have had 3 miscarriages and have 3 healthy children. The last miscarriage was a blighted ovum back in September and due to other things, we had to wait until now to TTC. Well it has happened again (getting pregnant is the easy and fun part) and I am SCARED TO DEATH!!!!!
Mily, you could be in my head with your last post. Every time I go to the toilet I expect to see blood. I look at the paper in every light just in case it is just a smudge. I just know that it is going to be there. With the last miscarriage, we got to 9 weeks before we found out that there was no baby. There was a sack and a placenta, but no baby. As there was a placenta my HCG results kept going up and I had all of the symptoms. I thought at 9 weeks I was home and hosed.
The first miscarriage was a missed miscarriage at 6 weeks which wasn't picked up until 11 weeks, and the second was a scan revealing at 6 1/2 weeks that the baby's heartbeat was slowing and then stopped. Testing of the material revealed chromosomal abnormalities with this one, so although I was upset, I knew it was just mother nature taking its course.
This time however, I am a mess. I am crying all the time. I am yelling at the kids. Every twinge or pain is the end. I really wanted to just switch off for another 8 weeks and deal with it at the 12 week mark. If the baby was there and still alive then I would acknowledge it. But with the MS and tiredness, it is hard to forget. And just because I have symptoms doesn't mean that it is all OK. I had wicked MS with the last one right up until the D&C.
I guess I am just relieved to know that I am not a head case for having all of these feelings and that there are others out there going through this.
Hopefully I will be here for the long haul, but the voice in my head says to not get excited.
:stickyvibesgirl: to all of us who are going through this.
Kirsten
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karen van - good to hear from you :) And with two little ones I'm incredibly impressed with the thoroughness of your post!! I swear you've managed to cover more than I can ever even remember when i'm posting! lol Great to know that everything is going so well and I love the image of your DH mowing the lawn with two hitchhikers!
kirsten - welcome and congratulations! I :pray: your baby keeps growing stronger and stronger and that you can stay in here for the full 9 months. It's very good that you have some answers for what has gone wrong in the past and even better that you know that you can create beautiful happy healthy babies as you've done so three times already. Let this one be the next sticky one for you :stickyvibesgirl:
AFM the foot is mostly good now, I think the podiatrist was right when he said I had caused damage from too much walking, combined with an ankle roll just before Christmas. Seems the swelling in the joints has gone down and for the most part it's all good now.
:stickyvibesgirl::bellygrowing::stickyvibesboy:
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Just a quick one girls as I'm at work and dont' want to get busted!
Karen van what an amazing post :hug: and thankyou for being so inspiring
Smallfry get your bags packet love <insert smack on the bum icon here> hehehhe :lol:
Greenlw any action??
kirsten "welcome" & sweet Milly you will get through the 1st tri and than start enjoying without the stress and worry, take comfort in your dh and try to enjoy the pregnancy (as much as you can anyway)
AFM I'm hormonal in a lovey dovey way and feeling sooooo inlove with dh :inlove:
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cherished - does it count that I packed baby's bag yesterday? :rofl: I'm getting there... slowly I guess I keep thinking that I'll be able to do it when I go into labour and will just put a list together now of the things I need. Things don't move all that quick for me. But still... it is evil to leave it so late isn't it?!
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tashybabe wow busy time for you. bp is high too, do you have a relaxtion plan? Do you paint? Shop? Cook? Garden? time for a plan I think. Sending you some calm vibes, but I know the first 12ish weeks are the hardest.
Cherished :hug: blood tests are awful, I had this look of joy on my face after my last one. I HATE THEM. Goodluck for tomorrow's scan. PG hormones are loads of fun aren't they ;)
Smallfryplus :lol: your ob sounds like a concerned ob, I don't think mine would even ask. It is nice when nursary is done.
Milly :hug: indulgent post away any time.
Karen Van well done on the mega post :clap: can't belive it's 4 months since joss arrived. Nice to hear you are feeling saner. Can't wait for that
Kirsten welcome and I :pray: you are here for a long time. Thank you for sharing your ups and downs the pg journey can be so bruital.
ATM keeping my mind busy and trying very hard to take it easy. I still managed to fuss on the pc for hours and do a load of washing.
I just got stuck on the phone to TELSTA! there are down sides to being home aren't there! :rolleyes: No more picking up the phone!
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greenslw - oooooh 5 days to go!! I dunno about you but I'm getting pretty excited about hearing your BA!!! Woohoo!!
(just had to get that out of my system... I've just sat and indulged myself with almost half a tub of connoisseur cookies and cream ice cream... have been wanting that for 6 months now and resisting it! Sugar rush now!)
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Smallfry :leap: enjoy the icecream, it really helps heart burn too, so it's almost like medicine! ;)
I can't wait either :pray: soon,
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Mmmmm.. icecream! Everything give me indegestion atm!! Can't wit for the next few weeks to be over!! Cummon 2nd tri!! Had a bad day yesterday, was in bed at 7:30!! Feeling ok today. Had all my hair cut off this morning... so much lighter!!
Green, your baby is almost ready to meet you! How exciting!!
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hehehe last night I consumed an outrageous amount of food! Equivalent to about what I have normally eaten over two or three days and just in one sitting!! (admittedly the sitting lasted several hours and involved several trips back to the kitchen to find more food!!)
greenslw - I have an awesome ob. She likes to make sure all bases are covered. It's funny that she goes into such detail sometimes because I found out she doesn't take first timers (not sure why!) yet she goes into that amount of detail. It's great, everything is explained. She's great...
cherished - how're you going today? U/S yes?
kirsten - how many tests are you up to now? ;) I only did one this time, when it showed BFP I didn't want to do any more just in case they didn't show BFP! lol funny how our minds work differently. Are you feeling any better today? It's a long road and I pray it will be a good one for you :hug:
tanya - indigestion sucks. Does ginger tea or ginger/b6 tablets help? And 7:30 in bed!!? I WISH! I Can barely get the kids to bed by then let alone me. Not sure I could sleep that long anyway, seems whenever I lay down I'm awake 5 minutes later to pee. It drives me batty. And if I spend too long in bed, I end up with really sore hips so I figure late nights are the way to go, then I'll be tired already when the baby is born and accustomed to hardly any sleep! hahaha
Milly - how are you hon? Everything going ok? thinking of you :hug:
sunny, twinsis, tashybabe, eliselouise, I hope you are well, sending :bellyrubs: to you all and keep those wonderful :bellygrowing:
have I missed anyone? Oh boy, I hope not but I'm sure I have! Now where's Dory? And tinar? hope you're well xox
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Tanya :D for hair cut, I did the same but a month later it grew back to the same length, gota love hormones. 2nd trimester was great for me. If pg was like my 2nd trimester I'd have 10 babies. Maybe it's good it's not.
Smallfry :D love the rolling feast. Did you have company? I feel like lots of food all at the same time but when I get to the kitchen I loose my enthusiasm and end up with crackers or a glass of milk. Effort minimal, but if I had a personal chef :D
Very exciting news from DH..... His boss has come to the party with his hours come April :D so he'll be able to work longer 4 days a week and have Thursday off to be a daddy. I'm so so so happy. I decided that I can handle 2 days in child care but no more and now I don't have to. :dance: It is so nice to see work places being flexable with men and women, although my boss said "no" to a day at home, but for a good reason I guess being the boss it's important to be at work. blah blah blah. I'll still have some "mummy days" I reccon.
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greenslw, that's great news about DH and time off. I did the work longer thing for a day off for a while until they finally allowed me to go part time. It was tough but well worth it. As for your boss not letting you have a day at home, that kinda sucks. It seems quite unfair! I mean, bosses can have a day at home. There's no reason why not. It's a matter of trusting the team. Would they allow one day a fortnight?
My rolling feast was mostly on my own. I had dinner with the kids in the evening (DH was playing golf) then went to the supermarket for supplies while he ate (kids were in bed) and when I got home, started in on icecream, apple crumble, pineapple and rockmelon! It were so good :) :) :)
tanya - how short is short? how long was it before? I just had mine cut a week or two back, it's finally all one length again now. A nearly shoulder length bob. Totally lacking in requiring any time other than brushing it in the morning now! Perfect for a new mummy :)
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SFP, it's short... like no way am I going ot get a pony tail from a looooon time!! :) It was down about to my underarms.... so a big chop :)
Awesome, Green! Good to hear daddy will have some extra time with bubby too :)
Feeling very yuck atm! DP has gone to sydney so he won't be back until tomorrow night. I have a SANDS meeting tomorrow night... not sure if I can go now :(
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Hi ladies,
Thanks for your replies. Not that it's nice for any of us, but it's so good to know I am not alone. Thank-you.
Small-fry - thanks :hug: and I'm glad your foot is getting better! Oh, and icecream is an ESSENTIAL! ;)
Karen van - thank you for your post.
kristen - hugs. You too sound like me - I thought my last angel was a sticker too. My boobs swelled so much I even had a blocked milk duct, and MS to boot. Although I had some bleeding, I experienced no cramping at all and I even had a scan the day before, saw the heartbeat and got the a-OK. I am just hoping that "third time lucky" rings true for us.
Cherished - thanks hon, and I'm jeallous that your hormones are "lovey dovey" mine are teary and emotional! Oh, and the MS has kicked in with a vengence!!
Hi Tanya & Tashybabe and anyone else I've missed!
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OK, so I may have done a few (4 OK) more tests and the line is getting darker thank goodness.
The only disturbing thing is this dull ache I have in my abdomen. It isn't really painful, more uncomfortable. You'd think after 6 pregnancies that nothing would be new, but I must say, this has never happened before. I am VERY concerned and keep expecting to find blood when I go to the toilet, but as of yet, none. I was going to try and hold off going to the Doctor for as long as possible, telling myself that if something was going to go wrong, there was plenty of time for it to happen before I actually acknowledged the existence of this baby. I think I am telling myself that it will just be a period if/ when it happens, but after I go to the doctor I know that any bleeding will be a miscarriage. So off to doc tomorrow to see about the discomfort and a referral to my ob.
I am 4 weeks 1 day. Would anything show up on a scan yet? Not necessarily wanting to see a HB, but knowing something was actually growing in there would be a relief (had a blighted ovum last time and go to 9 weeks before anyone realised there was a sac, placenta, and symptoms but no baby!)
Hope everyone else is hangin in there. Last pregnancy the ms was so bad I went and got a prescritpion for some maxolon to get me through. Only took it a couple of times before we mc'ed but it seemed to do the trick if you're really desperate.
See ya
Kirsten
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Evening all hope everyone is doing well.
Sorry i dont get on very often with personals but just a bit too busy at the moment.
Kirsten i know exactly what you mean about the dull ache in the abdomen, ive had the same thing since about 3 weeks. Feels kinda like period pain and i keep thinking theres going to be bleeding when i go to the loo too. But ive got to 9 1/2 weeks and had a scan last week and everything is fine, good size healthy heartbeat so im assuming its just quite normal. As for seeing anything on a scan i think you would be a ble to see the sac and the foetus in it but no heartbeat visible until about 6w5d i think. Good luck at the docs tomoro, will be thinking of you
Tanya everything is giving me indigestion at the moment too, never had it before and now its just terrible. Hope you start to feel better soon, not long now till were in the 2nd trimester WOO HOO
Smallfry the feast sounds very yummy. Ive found im hungry all the time but i start to eat and then im full after not much at all, very frustrating.
Greenslaw not long now, how exciting. Thats great about DH being able to have more daddy time, hopefully you can sort something out with your work to so you can get more mummy time also.
Cherished YAY to being all lovey dovey, i wish i could be i just dont want to be touched at the moment, im so grumpy and tired and its really annoying i feel sorry for DP having to put up with it. Hopefully it will change in the 2nd trimester and ill be feeling lovey dovey too :)
Karen van good to hear that everything is going well with your little one, and WOW what a huge post, where do you find the time :D
Milly hope your feeling a little better today it is extremely hard to enjoy being pg after what we have been through but we just have to try and stay as positive as possible and hope for the best. Have you had any scans yet or seen the hb? I had my first scan last week and since then i am feeling a lot better and a lot more positive. Hope you can start to enjoy it soon too :)
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Hi girls, We are just back from our celebration dinner which was lovely :)
Smallfry scan went great, HB was 133 and bubs measured 7 weeks, everything looked great so we are so happy :) the OB even printed a little pic for us :D
Tanya I say come on the 2nd tri too (for all of us) it will be here before you know it, so hang in there.
Greenslw that is wonderful news about your dh :dance: I keep thinking I will log and and read that you are off the hospital to give birth!
Milly my hormones are also emotional and teary but they come from feelings of love lol
Kristen hope everything is ok tomorrow hon
eliselouise so nice to hear from you I've been wondering how you are going, chin up I'm sure your DP understands that hormones are at play not you
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goodness me...I have to stop reading posts every day without replying - there is so much to catch up on.
Cherished - I still get a kick out of seeing your name in here...same way I feel bout any of my ttc friends
Elise - my DH was lucky to touch me in the first trimester lol...then again, he was nervous as well in case nookie would hurt bub lol. Second trimester has been better but its rare that I initiate anything more than sleep!
Kirsten - They are your stretching pains :) get used to them! They are here to stay till your bubba joins you for cuddles. Unfortunately I reckon they get worse...I'm at my parents and mum keeps asking if I'm ok, apparently I'm grimacing lol. From my knowledge and experience your to early to see anything but a sac and maybe the start of the foetal pole, I've had HB from 5wk3 days but that was with an internal scan - You'll be fine :grouphug:
Milly - I know what its like, so hard sometimes to stay positive and - annoyingly - so many early preg symptoms match AF (like the pains!) but just try to take a breath and enjoy this bub
Tanya - my hair is 3/4 way down my back - i don't think I could bear to cut it
Greens - that is great news bout your DH and work! My DH is his own boss which means - if he doesn't go to work we have no money :(
Smallfry - I miss being able to eat! I just don't seem to have the room anymore...sob
Hello to all the other ladies as i am sure I have missed some of you.
AFM: I am just exhausted which is why I rarely post. Whoever said you have so much more energy in the 2nd tri LIED!!! well, ok, I do have more than the 1st tri but by 3pm at work I am starting to struggle.
My job is being adverstised for the time I am away and I have to apply! I am in qld gov and am only a temporary employee - if I apply and get it they appoint me permanently and someone else temporarily (so confusing sometimes!)
25wks - where has the time gone.
A little over a week ago I had nothing more than a few outfits I'd been given - then a shopping monster overtook me and I now have bassinet, pram, clothes, nappies, bottles, breast pump, nappy pails, change table/bath, bibs and some other stuff! IT WAS SO MUCH FUN :dance:
:bellyrubs: to all you yummy mummies!
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When I was pregnant with the 3 that stuck, I had wicked heart burn. Even a glass of water was enough to set it off sometimes!
So to all of you soon to be mums who are struggling with heartburn, here is my secret. Zantac. Extra strength. Lasts 24 hours. My ob recommended it and said it was fine to take at any time of the pregnancy. You can get it in the supermarket and it is fantastic. I tried the Rennies etc, but they didn't even get close to fixing it. Check with your Ob though as they never seem to be able to agree on anything sometimes!
I am soooooo tired ATM though. Every afternoon about 1:30 or so I just want to find a nice quiet corner and curl up and go to sleep. With a 6, 4 and almost 2 year old, this NEVER happens. I did fall asleep on the couch watching Dr Phil the other day though. Felt a bit better when I woke up but it's not like I can sack out every day!
Thanks for the reassurance guys. I have everything crossed (which is making it hard to walk):rofl: It is nice to know that you guys understand what I am going through. My mum had 5 pregnancies with 5 healthy children and neither my sister or SIL have had a mc, so I don't really have anyone I can talk to about these things. They just say it'll be OK to forget about it for the next few months. HAH! IF only!
OK, going to go to bed now. Thanks for listening to my rant!
Kirsten
