i found out this week that i am four weeks pg with our rainbow...i am excited and i think in shock to be honest! we lost our DD at 39 weeks late last year, i then miscarried twins (well suspected twins - mc at 4.5 and 6.5 weeks in same pg and from my levels after the bleed i had at 4.5 weeks, they assume i probably lost a twin the first time) in Feb this year. I said to DH that i keep expecting to go to the toilet and see blood - i guess i am just expecting that something bad will go wrong again so if i just expect it to happen, the blow wont be so bad? i feel so numb to it. i have no desire to tell family or friends, even though i do feel excited from time to time. its a very strange feeling! my DD1 said to me today - you have a baby sister in your tummy - wt! we havent mentioned a word to her and havent been even talking about it in front of her! woah! anyway there is no purpose to this post, just need to get the feelings out - thanks for listening