Just need to have a bit of a whinge. Got a BFP on Monday, which was a big surprise. I have a BT this coming Monday to check that my levels are rising, and I'm starting to get pretty anxious about it. My hcg on Monday was 305, which is good apparently.

Having lost one baby, I am so aware of all that can go wrong. I haven't had any symptoms except for AF-type cramping, which I also had with DS. I can't remember when the morning sickness started with DS, but I'm worrying that I have no other symptoms.

I feel like I have all these hurdles to jump before I can accept that I'm pg and get excited - two more BTs, then HB scan, then scan at first OB appt, then 12 week scan etc. I'm exhausted just thinking about it. Every trip to the loo is an anxious check for bleeding. I hate it.

Even though my miscarriage was three years ago now, and I've had a healthy baby since then, I just can't stop feeling that I'm going to lose it. I just know that lots of pregnancies do end at this early stage.

Nothing to do but wait I suppose.