Okay it's getting late at night and I am starting to totally freak myself out over this. Maybe becuase have been really bad with depression and anxiety lately. :-(

I am seriously tempted to contact the midwifery program and leave a message for the midwife (becuase she didnt give me any contact details) saying that I am willing to wait until after the school term has started. That will be another 4 to 5 weeks.

I am only a little concerned because I got a letter from the midwifery program at the start of December saying that my midwife would contact me within a week to arrange a time. She didn't so I emailed them yesterday and she called today.

What do you think??? Am I allowed to re-schedule? Or am I just making it inconvenient for her by wanting to re-schedule and should I just let her bring her kids regardless of what I want????

The only thing is that I am sure that she is a lovely person and everything but I only have one pair of eyes and with the midwifery program I get what I am given re midwives and I just want to try to avoid a hospital birth.

BUT I don't want a midwife who hates me becuase I re-scheduled on her becuase I'd rather her kids not come.