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Emma

Have you thought about starting a journal about Abby and your pregnancy journey?

You can write everything in there, which will help you get it out, and you can highlight the positive bits and go back and re-read those when you're feeling low.

I did this with Zeke and I found that really helped... I'd even put in the things that made me laugh during the day, songs I heard which had a special meaning, nice things which people said that resonated with my spirit and filled me with hope, stuff like that.

Thinking of you and your little gymnast :D

Hiya everyone

I just thought I would post in here again to let those of you who have offered so much kindness and support during my pregnancy that Abby is perfectly fine and does not have Downs after all. :confetti:

I had a c section at 38 weeks. It was in my file that her cord blood had to be sent for testing, but my Ob told me that i would have to remind everyone on the day that it had to be done. I took his advice and told everyone that came in contact with me that her blood had to be sent off for testing.

When I was in recovery I asked the midwife if Abby looked like she had it, she keept going back and forward to look at her but she told me she was to swolen to tell and she just couldnt be sure.

Abby was in special care so i didnt get to spend that night with her, but i asked each midwife that came to look after me if they could go look at her and tell me what they thought. They all said they couldnt tell for sure but she looked "good"....

My lovely midwife suprised me with a hungry visitor at 4am the next morning. This is when i got to bond with my darling, i got to feed her, kiss her, cuddle her and i just fell so deeply inlove with this little angel. I thought i loved her before, but that was nothing compared what i felt for her when we were finally together.

I think it was day 2 when my DF told me that the pead had looked her over and decided not to send the blood off afterall beacuse he was sure that she didnt have Downs. It was good news, but I was so angry that the blood hadnt been sent. All thru the pregnancy id been told different things by different people and i just wanted to know for certain one way or another. I thought what DF was telling me hearsay as nobody had come to me directly to tell me why they think she doesnt have it.

I felt like they were happy to remind me at each appointment all the reasons that suported her having it, so why cant they do the same for her not having it.

Anyway, i left it at that, we went home on day 5 but after some feeding issues we were back in for a night.... hormones getting the better of me, I burst into tears after one midwife wouldnt stick to the plan we had for Abby, that if she couldnt get a propper feed off me, we would tube feed her and go from there. She just wouldnt do it and keept stuffing around with me expressing and putting bub on the boob where she was getting nothing at all. So i burst into tears and told her that i was sick of everything that had happened, being told by the ob that it was diagnosis that she had downs for sure, being told that we had to decide if we wanted to keep her if she had it, being treated like a naughty school girl after deciding not to have the amnio, being kept in hospital so many times for stupid reasons like my BSL's when they were on target, them not sending the blood away, being told she had a hole in her heart (tiny thank god!) and now her not going with the plan they had come up with to get Abby better again after going without propper feeding.

She was shocked by what i had to say, about what other drs had told us and the way things had happened. She got another pead to come in and go over Abby in front of me and they also offered to do another blood test and send it off if i was still concerned. That pead also organised the most senior pead to come in the next morning and go over Abby again. He was wonderful. He pointed out all the reasons for her not having downs and explained everything to us. In the end he said he can say 100% that Abby does not have downs. It was what i needed to hear. I could stop worring. It was a wonderful moment. Df, Abby and i then snuggled for about an hour, just happy that it was all finally over.

We went home that day. Abby is the most wonderful baby. She is always happy, eats well, sleeps thru the night and she just adores her bath time!

We are such a happy little family, i am thankful every day that she is happy and healthy. I dont take her for granted..... babies are such little miracles and i feel blessed to have her.

Oh Emz, what a rollercoaster of emotions!
I've been from sobbing to smiling so many times reading all these posts!

What a relief, CONGRATULATIONS on having a beautiful healthy girl! \:D/
And good on you for sticking up for yourself and saying how you felt, so glad you could get it all sorted in the end. I love your baby's name.

All the best as you cherish and enjoy your new family!

Emma, that is a lovely relief to have read that all has turned out so perfectly for you........and wonderful to read that you are enjoying Abby so much........

I'm sure I've said this before emz, but WOO HOO!!!!!

Wow, CONGRATULATIONS, I am soooo happy for you and your family Emz. I have only just read this entire thread and it was a rollercoaster of emotions to read, so I can only just begin to imagine what it was like for you to live it. I am so happpy that she is so healthy and that you're all doing so well. Congratulations and wishing you all the best with little Abby!
PS I know what it's like to be worried during pregnancy (we had numerous scares, one was cysts on her brain which they told us COULD be related to downs,) and it just makes everything slow and I know until we hold our littel ones we just cant' relax, so Im sooo happy you can now relax!
xoxoxo

And oh my goodness, she's adorable!!!! xoo

Emz I am so very glad to hear that all has turned out so brilliantly for you & your DF & of course your gorgeous little daughter Abby

I only joined a little while ago so didnt read the original thread. I just read through it all now and bawled myt eyes out. I am so happy for you and your little girl. Congratulations and all the best for the future :cheer:

What an amazing story. As much as you have gone through, you really should be so proud you thought so confidently. You really are a lucky gir.
Wish you 3 all the best for your future life. xoxo \:D/

Congratulations to you both.

Abby is just so cute.

I have been wondering about your little darling EMZ and I'm so happy to hear she's well.

Wow I just read your whole story and I'm so sorry that you went through all of that. But yay that your gorgeous little girl is perfectly healthy that's such wonderful news :D

I have just read this entire thread from start to finish and what wonderful wonderful news it is that you have such a beautiful little girl.

I am sorry you had to go through that emotional time but your love for your little girl was so strong, you are really amazing.

xox

Only just noticed that this thread was updated!

I'm so happy to hear that everything was alright with Abby!!

You have been so strong and I wish you the world of happiness!!

All the best

Oh Emz,i didnt see this thread at all before as i have been away but i wanted to say how happy i am for you that your little girl is fine...
You are so wonderful parents,and you both deserve to have a wonderful life with Abby...
I know how you felt a little bit,as Dom had cysts on his brain at 18 weeks and i had to wait til the 27 weeks scan to see if they were related to Trisomy 18...
Hoping everything continues so great for you hun :)

Yaaaay Emz what a relief :D You enjoy every second with your little girl now you can stop worrying.

Hi Emz and Abby!

I was sooooo happy to read your post. Congratulations Emz and welcome to this world Abby.

What a journey you have been on Emz.

All my love,
Deb