i was exactly the same with this pregnancy, had a few scares at the beginning which really caused me to not focus at all on the pregnancy and just wait for something to go "wrong". even now im worried things are going to go pear-shaped, even tho theres no "real" reason for it....i don't think i will "calm down" until she is born and safe in my arms and i can physically see that she is ok

Big squishy hun, i hope you get to start enjoying your pregnancy soon