Well we have reached the 19th week, and I am sure the one little bubba we still have is alive and well, been moving for a few weeks now!!!!
But today we have our scan to check if bubba will also be a cleft bubba....
I know I've been there, done that, and I coped fine, and LOVE Kane to bits, and I am truely not worried for my sake, but for my poor babies sake...
I am completely stressed that if bubba is cleft affected, he/she will know I had a slightly higher risk of birthing another cleft bub, and blame me for having them, knowing they could be afflicted...
Was it fair to have another one??? It doesn't bother me in the slightest, I love every bit of Kane, but I guess I didnt stop and think how the child will feel....I am not a selfish person at all, and love having my babies...
I just pray that if we find out today bub IS affected, I can explain to my bubba how much we wanted him, cleft or no cleft....
Scan is at 2.15, so I'll be back to let all my wonderful friends know how we go...![]()






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