Waiting, Waiting, Waiting

Hi all....

I am relatively new to this place, and I would like to share some things about myself.

I am 30 years old, and have 3 beautiful boys - 11, 7 and nearly 2.....:juggle:

My wonderful fiancee and I have been together for over 3 years now, greatest thing that ever happened to me...

Anyway, we have been TTC for 1 year now. We have beenn through 3 miscarriages, since the birth of our son, first one was in May 2008, started bleeding on Mothers Day...was not a happy mothers day....

Second mc happened just before valentines day this year (2009), and with both of those mc's had to have d/c. First was an emergency d/c because it was a mmissed mc, baby stopped growing at 5 weeks, but didnt start bleeding until 12 weeks. Second mc was spotted because we had an early scan, was an empty egg, no fetal pole, nothing....so i tried the new trial of the Misoprostol......2 doses of that and a bit of bleeding but didnt work, so i ended up having a d/c a week later anyway......

Now last month it was my birthday, on the 26th May, had a party on the 23rd, so i did a test on the friday beforehand, was negative, so i thought great, now i can drink! My period was due on saturday (day of the party), and low and behold they didnt come......so early sunday morning i did a test and it was positive...now the problem was i went to the dr on monday morning to confirm, and i started spotting.........and kept bleeding through out the week....so it was to be a mc...

Ok so here is the bit i am wonderig about....we have been trying now again this month, charted my ov days, and had heaps of loving during those 4 days, and I am due on the 24th or 25th, which is tomorrow or thursday...I have been having symptoms, sore boobies, loads of energy (cleaning like mad), going to the loo heaps and all the usual stuff, i did a test this morning and it was neg......now I am just waiting until i either get my monthlies or do a test early thursday morning.............:wall:


Do you know what else I am upset about? Almost every woman around me is pg........my cousin, my best friend, my fiancee's best friends girlfriend....and my sister-in-law...........i just hope its my turn next :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray:

hey and welcome to bellybelly

i am so so very sorry for you losses, its so unfair and heartbreaking, BUT you have come to the right place, there are so many wonderful people on here that can help and support you and answer any questions you might have :)

i hope and pray that this is your month, your symptoms sound very promising, maybe implantation was a few days later this cycle and thats why you didnt get a positive today, maybe try testing in a few days with FMU and hopefully you will get a BFP!! sending lots and lots of sticky vibes your way

take care and let us know how you go!

Hi mummy2chloe, thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers...and thanks for welcoming me....

Well its wednesday morning, and nothing so far, usually i get them in the morning, so thats a pos sign, just scared to go out and do a test, in case i get disappointed again.....really sick and tired of seeing neg results - i have done 4 tests this week already...lol hoping to see a + result, but not seeing even the feintest +....but i can say from experience that even with a little bit of hcg in my body i get symptoms, i tend to really clean the house out, and i mean clean like mad, i got out the mould remover the other day and cleaned the walls and the ceiling......lol

so i guess i will get back to you later today, i guess i will go out and buy a test and do it.....wish me luck.................

quick update....did hcg test....was neg

:(


guess it isnt meant to be this month afterall...............so strange considering I have quite a few symptoms..but i guess that can mean my period is coming too....i am just so confused and really sad now.........

i woke up feeling quite sick in the belly this morning, i dry reached 3 times, and am still quite nausious...my boobs and my nipples are very sensative....i just dont understand....am i going crazy or am i over obsessing?

oh sweetie i am so sorry about preg test big hugs from me xxx

maybe give it a few days and if af hasnt shown up do another one, your symptoms really do sound like your pregnant!! there is one way of telling your pregnant or not, that is getting a blood test maybe that could be an option for you too?? either way you will have a definant answer

i really hope you get a bfp, i have everything crossed for you sweetie xxx

Hi

Ok, well, first of all, thanks for the support mummy2chloe, means alot that i have someone i can talk to.

So here it goes, i did another test this morning, was neg again, and i am pretty sure they are due today. If they dont come today, i will do another test tomorrow, but if they do, I just have to wait and work out my ov days next month, so we can just keep on trying...........

Hi.

An update to let you know that I finlly got my period yesterday, so it wasnt meant to be this month again...........start cycles again and keep trying i guess

So not a good out come this month, but hopefully next month is a different story :crossfingers:

oh i am so sorry hun

i have everything crossed for you this month xxx

please take care and if you need to talk i will always be here :)

sleepynolan, i just wanted to stop in and give u some supportive cyber hugs, i have my fingers crossed that u get a bfp this next cycle.
There are alot of women here who have been through similar mc, myself included, and we are all a great support network for each other, there is a ttc after mc thread, ill find the link for you, please feel free to join us there.
Welcome to belly belly. :D

here you go
Trying to concieve after miscarriage or loss

Hi sleepynolan

Sorry to hear about your losses and just wanted to :hug:

I only just read your thread. Your situation sounds similar to mine (although very different also) my DH and I have a 2yr old together who was conceived (whilst on the pill actually) and now no3 (for me) isn't coming how I expected it to (expected to have the baby now). I have also had 3m/c however one wasn't confirmed by the dr but I had numerous +HPT and late AF by a week.

Now 11months on I see the FS this week and hope for some insight into why I am not UTD or why my bubs aren't sticking. DH had a SA done which shows average on almost everything but lower sperm morphology and room for improvement in swimming straight. He is now taking menevite and hopefully that will help with the morphology of the swimmers.

Its so hard to see others pregnant and not knowing the private pain we go through. Just wanted to wish you the best of luck and :pray: you get a sticky :bfp: this cycle.

:hug:
im so sorry for the loss of your angels...
Its so hard and im :pray: for a BFP for you soon
I just lost my baby and I know your pain
huge cyber hugs and hoping you have a healthy baby soon

Hi sleepynolan, I am sorry for your losses and the hard time you are having ttc. It can be the most frustrating and heart breaking thing when you desperately want a child, I can relate. I lost my first at 19-wks last October and have been trying for almost 7-months now, which may not sound long to some, but to me its been a lifetime as I expected to have a baby this March. I hope that next month is your month hun, hang in there :hug: Have you thought about getting your progesterone levels tested? Its something I have been reading about in terms of the bubba implanting etc. If AF arrives for me this month, that is my next step, to get hormones tested. All the very best.

Great suggestion Berry1 about progesterone.

I would also get your DH sperm tested as I know from experience working as a midwife that some women who have multiple losses (especially early ones) can be from sperm morphology. As they are still able to fertilise the egg but then as they are not perfect sperm they embryo can not develop properly and a m/c (either sponatenous or missed) occurs. There are many number of things that can cause m/c and many are unknown but after one or two occurs I would strongly recommend some simple tests like blood tests and a sperm anayasis to see if it sheads some light. GL :pray: you have another baby soon.

Hi everyone.

Thanks so much for the support and cyber hugs....

I have been strongly thinking about getting my hormone levels done, but not quite sure when to do it. Does it make a difference what time in my cycle i get it done? The next step after that is getting SA done for DH.

I am glad I am not alone in this journey, because with everyone else around me being pregnant, it kinda makes it hard to speak about it with any of them, because they dont understand how emotionally draining and how crazy it makes you when your period is due......not knowing is the hardest part....

I am also sorry for each and every one of the losses each of you have had to endure, its very painful no matter how far along we are...especially when they are so desperately wanted.

I will keep updating as i find out new info. It is currently school holidays here, but i think i will go and see my Dr this week. Once again, thank you all for your support.