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... you get to the end of the cycle, AF hasn't arrived, (.)(.)s are tender etc.. and then you think 'I could be pregnant' and feel nervous about it? Even tho, you've been TTC'ing for a while?
Or is it just me?
I've been pondering this for a while now and I'm not sure if I feel this way it could be a blockage preventing the elusive BFP :dunno:
I gave up believing it would happen... kept TTC'ing but fully expected every test to be negative.
CBG - yep I know it well. then I get AF.... its almost like a touch of second thoughts about trying..... I think part of it is a coping mechanism after so long of not getting a bfp, I know I try and stop myself getting to hopeful. I hope it happens for you soon sweetie! xxx
That exactly for me too. Before that, I would get my hopes up so so high, every single cycle, as they were irregular with irregular LP for ages (until the LP finally settled) every end of the TWW would convince me I was utd. Then bfn after bfn. Then AF. And then I gave up :hug: to you all, I think about you guys every day, no joke :hug::
Yep, I know what you are saying
Happens to me every. single. cycle.
I can't let the disappointment get to me... Trust me, I have been broken by TTC, but I now can't focus on the negatives. I NEED to believe that it will happen.
TTC is the most challenging thing I've ever done and it has changed me. But instead of thinking badly about my journey now, I know that the nervous feeling just before AF arrives, will soon be replaced by the excited, exhilarating, mind blowing feeling that a BFP will bring.
And I know you will feel the same very soon Hun. The Universe is shining on you xo
Me too, and having a child doesn't "undo" that, it is still a part of you. I have so much more empathy now, for people who have dreams and desires that seem just out of reach. It has also changed my expectations, and my willingness to enjoy life right here and now, and not put life on hold waiting for what you are planning in the future.:
I manage OK by being productive and using distraction (like trying to sell a house, it needs to be a big distraction LOL).
That nervous feeling... well I was getting comfortable as a TTC'er, I knew how to play that game, but pregnancy was a whole nother ball game, I felt like I didn't belong there.
Sorry, rambling, not sure this is making sense, but :hug: and I hope the hope remains alive in you and you are celebrating your bfp soon.
CBG: I know exactly what you are talking about that has been me these lastfew cycles!! it can be so hard this whole thing and I think that we think this way sometimes to help us cope with it all!! :pray: our BFP's show up soon.
So true Nic. Without hope you have nothing.:
Certainly doesn't help when you have had a child (like I have). If anything, it makes you more cautious (not sure if that is the correct word) and if you have been pg & suffered m/c, well that is a whole different part of it too.:
It's like I live my life in stages sometimes. Week 1 (AF), Week 2 (BD, hoping I O), Week 3 (looking for pg signs) Week 4 (test, then usually waiting for AF all over again)
My GF believes alot of it is mental blockages and I think that too. I think I just don't want to get my hopes up only for them to be dashed, time & time again (well 25 times to be exact).