A total fat and disgusting moment!

Sorry, but I need to get this out :(

Yesterday I got on the scales. I have been avoiding the scales since giving birth to DD.

I nearly died when I saw how much I weigh :cry:

My weight kept me up most of the night...I am seriously disgusting!

DH wanted to DTD and I kept telling him not to touch me...I started crying. How can I honestly expect my wonderful husband to keep loving me when I am just soo hideous.

I'm not going to wallow in pits of despair tho- at 5am I was in the kitchen throwing out all the stuff I snack on during the day. No-one is going to change this but me. I don't want my DD to have a fat mum and I don't want my DH to have a fat wife and I don't want to be fat ANYMORE!

It seems like such mountain to climb and I am soo ashamed.

Thanks guys...

Huge massive :hug: you are NOT disgusting at all hun and do not despair, I did the same at the beginning of the year and was shocked at the weight I had gained after having DS so I joined WW online and lost weight - still a bit to go but I lost enough to feel good about myself again. You can do it if you want to and there is lots of support around, Calorie King is great and there is a thread on BB and I know the girls there are great at motivating each other and giving tips. Don't be ashamed and although it is a challenge it isn't impossible. :hug:

Thankyou :hug:

I just really needed to say all that 'out loud' IYGWIM..

I didn't realise WW is online- will check that out :)

Totally get you hun, for me for ages I was just pretending that it was all ok and that my clothes weren't that tight and revolting on me. I didn't get to any meetings but keeping track of my points really helped me because I am such a sub-concious eater. I eat without thinking about if I am hungry first, if I have had enough for one day of a particular food etc. plus I also tend to eat the kids leftover toast etc and it all adds up. Good luck hun, baby steps and it sounds like you are determined to make it happend. :hug:

if you want you can join our sit-up challenge , we all need a little help sometimes :)

There is a great website if you google spark people. It is totally free and you can type in all your foods and exercise and it can track it all for you. You can even update it on your iphone. I find it very motivating :)

Good on you for wanting to change the things you are not happy about.
A healthy Mum/wife is a great thing to want for your family. You are setting a fantastic example for your DD by doing this.

Good for you :) Good luck on your Journey to inner happiness :D

Big hugs hun..YOU are not discusting or anything like that

LOsing weight it hard , realising you need to or want to change is the first step and good for you :) Its so easy to live in denial , i used to :(

Take it one step at a time ,start walking , i walk everyday i have lost stacks of weight just from that alone and i feel awsome :) And that snacking i do it as well:( When you are home its so easy to just eat just because .

Take it slowly and you can do it !

big hugs hunny :hug:

I have been in your situation, I was in denial about how much weight I had put on after the twins until one day I saw a photo of myself and I was so ashamed. It is hard to lose the weight but there are so many of us in the same situation and with support you will get there. Check out the https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ge-146633.html for other BBers in the same situation of losing weight just now.

Trav
xx

Thankyou so much for all your replies and support.

Trav- I will head to that thread right now. thanks for the link:)

Kylie- thanks for the info- will google it!

M2R- I did do the first day of situps but I think I need to take it slowly LOL...I did 50 and I nearly died...:rofl:

I agree with all of the above, its a hard road and you may go off track a few times but the important thing is to never give up!
Goodluck xx

Wishing you good luck and all the best with your journey. :hug:

I'm hearin' ya! I felt the same this time last year and I joined WW and went to the meetings. I lost 10kg in 5 months I think and I have put 5 back on :o So I have pulled the books back out and am starting again.

All the best with it chick, can't wait to hear about your progress!

:hug: :hug: good on you for taking the first step. I really reccomend looking up for local weight watchers meetings to go to. They are fantastic and hay Ive been going for 8 months and have lost 45kg :) So it must work!

:hug:

You did 50 situps?! I don't know if I can do 50 situps...That's great! All the best with keeping it up - hopefully you can stay accountable to the BB girls. xo

First of all - huge :hug: You're not hideous - and your DH probably desires the person inside as much as the outside!

There is only one thing I have to say to you (look at moie!) - slow and steady wins the race. If you ever find yourself doing something you think you shouldn't (cake, slacking off, etc) DO NOT see that as failure, but as a small hump in the road. You're still on the road (just by recognising that it's not exactly the right thing to be doing), but slowed down a bit.

Good luck hun and I think about half of BB are there with ya! :hooray:

Naww, shucks, thankyou soo much everyone! I am soo glad now that I even said something!

It amazing how even 'cyber help' can motivate someone and change a bad day into a good one.

Thankyou soooo much girls :hug:

Now I'm jumping over to the eaters anon and 2010 challenge thread :)