Sorry, but I need to get this out

Yesterday I got on the scales. I have been avoiding the scales since giving birth to DD.

I nearly died when I saw how much I weigh

My weight kept me up most of the night...I am seriously disgusting!

DH wanted to DTD and I kept telling him not to touch me...I started crying. How can I honestly expect my wonderful husband to keep loving me when I am just soo hideous.

I'm not going to wallow in pits of despair tho- at 5am I was in the kitchen throwing out all the stuff I snack on during the day. No-one is going to change this but me. I don't want my DD to have a fat mum and I don't want my DH to have a fat wife and I don't want to be fat ANYMORE!

It seems like such mountain to climb and I am soo ashamed.

Thanks guys...