Our baby is not meant for this world
Just went in for my 12 week scan and found that our baby had stopped growing at 6 weeks. I'm not sure if their little heart ever got to beat. I'm not sure why my body has chosen to hold on. I'm wondering if it will realize, now that I know, that this little one isn't meant to be, and will let go.
I feel so sad and numb and cheated. It's so unfair. I am just desperate to see a 12 week old fetus on that us screen and wish I could rewind and change it.
I'm so scared about what has to happen next.
I feel like a fraud for thinking that I've been pregnant for the last 6 weeks and telling our family and letting them be joyous. I feel like a failure for not knowing that it wasn't right.
Sorry for the disjointed post. I don't know where I'm at at the moment but take comfort in reading others posts that I am not alone and, sadly, others have felt the same loss and wanted to share here.
I will be okay. I will get pregnant again. I will have a healthy pregnancy and I will be a mummy one day but right now, I feel crushed and desperate and goodness knows what else.
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